I am a slow person, even a slow person. I have friends around me, they move fast, they feel like they have a lot to do, and they do it right away. What they do in a week, it takes me a month; what they do in a month, I may take months...
When I do something enjoyable, I also think, ah, I still have a lot of things to do, why is there so little time. However, when another day begins, it may take time to enter the state, may be in a bad mood, may be in a bad mood, in short, it is difficult to return to that peak experience, so I rarely remember the enthusiasm of that moment, and I rarely think of "I still have A lot of things to do”, often wasting a lot of time. Often regretted afterwards.
However, after so many years, I am still slow, almost a little stubborn. One of my growth themes in the past year is to be more pragmatic, more down-to-earth, and to do more practical things. I'm trying hard to create a new cycle of direct action and reality feedback, and experience joy in that cycle.
In the afternoon, I went to see my primary school classmates whom I hadn't seen for many years, and went to watch the recent movie "Spiritual Journey" together. Not long after the movie started, I wanted to cry. In the first half of the movie, there are many small ideas and humor. Before the story begins, I want to cry.
I love those pretty pictures, those fun little ideas, and those fun little humors...
When I got to the back, I couldn't hold it anymore, and I secretly wiped my tears several times. Not out of sadness, and it's not clear why. Not so much because of the theme of the movie, not because of those reasons, I don't know why.
After watching the movie, my heart is more gentle. Friends who haven't seen each other for many years, we meet and see different things. To be honest, it's a little difficult to talk to each other. After watching the movie, I thought, I still have to be nice to the people around me. I'm not defensive, but I'm not open enough. Maybe I'm always presupposed that there is nothing to talk about. After watching the movie, I am more open, more proactive and closer to each other, and I am more proactive in caring for each other.
When I got home, I didn't eat dinner, so I went to an online meeting, and a group of people tried to design a lesson each. Everyone showed their own knowledge models, and the instructor also introduced the experience of course design. Serious work, serious meetings, back and forth are all knowledge.
At the end, I reposted the circle of friends who watched the movie, and by the way, I brushed up the circle of friends and WeChat groups. Some WeChat groups have already swiped dozens of messages and hyperlinks. In the WeChat group, some people are talking about music, some people are sharing last night's dreams, and some people are finishing today's check-in.
There is a lot of information, too much, as if the movie I just watched, the immersion of the soul only existed in those two hours. I wish those two hours stretched over two days, maybe even two months...
But when my brain suddenly cuts through the information channel, those emotions become distant. All this made me dazed, as if what happened just now, hit everything in my heart, and it was a long time ago, but it only happened three or four hours ago.
Perhaps, this slow lounging I've been doing all this time is an unconscious confrontation - if you can say that. Staying because you don't want to leave -- that's not a superfluous word.
The film, perhaps too childlike, lacks some richness, subtlety, and layering. If Van Gogh's painting never slows down, I may never become an adult in a certain sense in my life. In that moment, I thought, how great would it be to work at Pixar one day. In the movie, Mother Teresa appeared for a while, and a word came to my mind, "Let the good happen."
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