Ian Curtis must have come out of the Dark Empire. Compared with MJ's space dance steps, his clumsy robot dance steps are more weird and cold and numb until they lose control and go crazy. At this time, Ian's epilepsy may also lose control, seizures, fall to the ground, and twitch.
Because of Ian Curtis, I learned about this post-punk/new wave rock band in the late 70s. JOY DIVISION, their music makes the music that is now popular seem obnoxious and mediocre, because a pair of ears that have heard good things can no longer bear the noise. Listening to the song of JOY DIVISION in the appendix of D9, I repeatedly exclaimed: so good! so good!
I really can't imagine Ian, who was 23 or even 23 years old, and his lyrics have reached a height that is unattainable by ordinary people. The musical feeling of the whole band reminds me of the atmosphere of Bergman's movies again and again.
In fact, there is not much sentimentality in it, and the weight of the darkness covering the soul is hard and heavy. The life Ian felt was not too light, but too heavy.
Last night, after watching the film, my mood was completely held back by Ian's melancholy. The actor who played Ian, from an 18-year-old simple face to a 23-year-old gloomy face, is almost like Ian himself. Before, because the protagonist in the disc jacket was tall, black, peerless and independent, and the gloomy eyes faintly permeated the dark core, the attraction was so powerful and retreating, I never wanted to watch it. , But after all, I have to explain to Ian.
Ian said, we say we will not be afraid, in fact, we will be afraid. What is he afraid of? The shadow of the disease is the most important reason, because epilepsy is a disease in which the human body is out of control. When Ian graduated from high school and worked in the employment center, he saw a quiet and beautiful girl suddenly fell to the ground and had a seizure. He was shocked. Later, he wrote a shocking famous song "She Lost Control", but soon Later, he himself was diagnosed with the same disease and needed to take a lot of medicine to control it. What he fears most is when his musical path is reaching the peak, while the disease is getting more and more serious. This ominous shadow of fear of losing control has been closely following him.
Relationships are another serious problem. He was in love with Debbie, who later became his wife, when he was about 18 years old. Debbie was snatched from a good friend. When the tall Ian stood at the window, chanting sad poems that were not suitable for his age. , He easily captured the heart of the girl Debbie. Debbie asked if you wrote this? Ian said it was Wordsworth's. This young man born in Manchester, an old industrial city, saw no hope in Manchester. He quickly followed the simplicity and impulse of youth to complete a series of processes of love, marriage, and childbirth. I had also longed for the beautiful Ian and said to Debbie, let’s have a baby, Debbie said, okay. So they soon had a daughter. After Debbie took care of the family and the children, she no longer had the brilliance that a girl had on her face. Perhaps Ian was strange that she fell in love with only one of the hundreds of ordinary girls next door. When Debbie went to find Ian, who was on the show, with a big belly, he said to her a little indifferently: Don't shake your pot belly outside. Obviously at that moment, the once beautiful Debbie in Ian's eyes no longer exists.
Ian said that he likes blue, the blue of Manchester City. We know that Old Manchester has two famous teams, their uniforms are red and blue. But blue also has a little bit aggravated from bright blue to melancholic blue. His early life expectation was that everything was simple, and even when the band was founded, he hadn't thought about quitting his ordinary business job. His early behavior seems normal, but a soul that is not ordinary and has a metaphor of disease often goes against his wishes and breaks away from the routine. Immediately after the band became famous, with aura, touring, life was different, and he realized how pale and ridiculous the idea of wanting to live together with Debbie. In front of a girl who knows herself better, Ann, 23-year-old Ian said sadly: My marriage was a mistake.
Feelings are struggling between lover and wife. He said he didn't love his wife, but his kind nature let him know that he owed too much to his wife, so he did not agree to divorce. Ian is in the rock industry, and compared with the chaotic behavior of many rock musicians at the time, his private life is quite clear. He has no game feelings. When he finds that he loves another woman, he is blamed by his own conscience, because Debbie handed himself to him so easily. Ian’s relationship problems are also the problems of other men. At this point, genius It's no different from ordinary men.
Regarding the suicide of a genius, there are always various causes and effects that can be explained, but it is almost always inseparable from the lonely soul of the genius. Ian's soul goes to the darkness. He is walking on the street, his back is tall and his shirt says HATE, but his hatred can still be vented. With the deeper and deeper melancholy and loneliness, his way out is already clear.
If there is no epilepsy and no relationship problems, you will also worry that Ian Curtis, who wrote this kind of music, will one day die abnormally.
As for the rock problem, Ian died listening to Iggy Pop’s album "Idiot". On the day of his suicide, he also watched a black and white movie of Herzog. (I also like Herzog very much, but unfortunately, I've seen this movie Ian watched on the last day). He is known as the spokesperson of the "lost generation" in the West. In contrast, SEX PISTOL's SID also died in his 20s, but SID was just a dumb gangster. It happened to be taken by Maxim and pushed onto the crazy punk stage and became a star. Now BONO, the soul of U2, who has achieved fame now, is of course also a follower of JOY DIVISION!
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