A film in the 1980s, "Paris in Texas", was only seen today, and it feels like going back in time. Between the electric reflections, I saw that love is to loneliness, just like the glorified selfish desire, sooner or later, it is going to perish. Through this film, people began to gradually face their own past, their own scars, it should be said that their own cruelty, and finally recognize what is the essence of love. What I want to get is afraid of losing, so I hold it tightly, and if I love too much, it becomes a restraint and chokes what I care about in my hands alive. I opened my palm and saw that it was just my own selfish desires, which had turned into a form of sin, lingering.
I found that loneliness is a very terrible thing. It lurks deep in everyone's heart, that is, the abyss-like void, from which all kinds of whims and evils are derived. Anything or a person may become a prey and be swallowed by this black hole. Davis loved Jane deeply. They had a good time and had a common son. But in the end, he was still separated by loneliness and walked in the deserted desert of Texas. This is a journey to find relatives, but it is also a way to recognize one's true face. For a person in four years, earth-shaking changes can occur, but it may also be completely settled in the nature of the old self. Regardless of the external environment, people can never walk out of the past, present and future by themselves. Davis spent four years wandering in the desert without saying a word. This is an unimaginable madness. It is the last effort that people make to get rid of themselves. That is to escape reality and forget the past. But the appearance of his younger brother Water broke Davis's whimsical plan. While walking aimlessly in the desert, Water took him back to the city. He also thought about running away, but it ended in failure. What happened during those four years, Walt kept asking, but Davis remained silent. The reason he didn't want to say was precisely from loneliness. The innate sense of loneliness between people has become the biggest obstacle to interpersonal communication. The span of this abyss obstructs understanding, tolerance, consideration...love. The whole world is in such a state of extinction, as if carnival is the loneliness of one person, and loneliness is the carnival of a group of people. Because many problems encountered in life cannot be solved by talking to each other, and no one can truly enter the inner world of others. When loneliness grabbed Davis's heart deeply, he was destined to face the complex world with silence. But behind this loneliness, there is a hidden truth. Although you can escape the judgment of the world, you can't escape the inner self-blame. Davis's departure is exactly the desire for a path of release. He hopes to calm the restless emotions in his heart through the barrenness of the outside world, so he did not choose to live in another city, but walked in for four years. Arid desert land, accompanied by eagles. But unfortunately, in the end, he couldn't completely release himself.
So, he followed Walt back to the city, back to the real life of getting along with people. He began to talk slowly, especially when he faced his eight-year-old son Hunter. Four years of estrangement made Hunter unable to recognize him, but his heart melted. Davis hopes to regain the close father-son relationship with his son. But the loneliness deep in my heart cannot be washed away. He often sat alone on the hillside outside his house in the middle of the night, meditating. He chooses to do housework for his brother's family during the day, and picks up his son during school hours. When a new way of life slowly unfolded, he had a new way to escape from the past. Because of their own loneliness, people can no longer escape everything in the past by being alone, so it may be a good choice to invest in a new environment. It's like time will always heal the wounds in the heart, and use the busyness of the world to dilute all memories. When a person changes his closed personality and begins to associate with others, he may still be seeking comfort in his heart, seeking another prey that can fill his loneliness. In Davis's new life, you can see that the lonely black hole is expanding, and the speed of expansion is even faster than when he was wandering in the desert before. Because when Walt asked him again what had happened in the past four years, he was still taciturn, and then sat on the hillside late at night, looking at the bright lights below the mountain. It's as if we are in a metropolis full of flowers. Whenever the lights are on, there are people of all colors sitting in every corner of the city, drinking a cup of coffee, looking out the window with empty eyes, no amount of richness in front of us can be satisfied. Swallowed lonely in my heart. And this time, Davis heard news about Jane. He returned to the screening room at home and saw a video of his family on vacation five years ago. Hunter watched his expression next to him, and then murmured: "I'm sure he still loves her." The next moment, he wrapped his little hand around Davis's neck and said softly: " Good night, Dad." Davis had a warm smile on his face for the first time.
At different moments, people can make many different decisions. But only at one moment can one choose to face oneself. That is when love enters the heart. Davis took Hunter and ran on the highway in Texas again. They have a common goal, which is Jane. This is a difficult path to choose, unless there is an irresistible touch that encourages, warms, and comforts in my heart. Because people finally choose to face the past, no longer avoiding, no longer forgetting, but actively seeking, wanting to see where the problem is, and the scars in the heart are uncovered. This is a painful process. Davis couldn't help crying when he saw Jane in the small room of that old sex scene. There was a mirror between them and they were contacted by a phone. Davis could see Jane in the room, but Jane could not see Davis outside the mirror. The memory has just been lifted by a corner, and it shows a sad scene. Then Davis fled again. This is like applying hydrogen peroxide to a slightly spicy wound, and the pain erupts in an instant, so that the disinfectant potion is immediately pushed away. But the inflammation has not been eliminated, and there is no other way to heal the wounds except for patience. So Davis went back anyway. He returned to the small room and began to tell a story. No one knows why Jane was in such a place, but from Davis's memories, she has returned to the figure that was beautiful, pure, and yearning for happiness but reluctantly betrayed at the beginning. A love that was originally beautiful, because the lust caused by loneliness restrains the hearts of two people. The story that was deeply buried in my heart four years ago was dug up and spoken slowly in Davis's mouth. His loneliness made him cherish the union with Jane. Their marriage went through the initial madness and later peace, from the initial love to his dependence on her. As long as he leaves her, he will have whimsical thoughts, thinking that she is betraying him, so he will not leave her. Selfish desire makes Davis's loneliness more frenzied, in other words, loneliness makes his selfish desires more irritable. Finally one day, he bound her, from the body to the soul, completely controlled, and no longer gave her freedom. But a sudden fire separated the two from each other. He was so frightened that he didn't care about his wife and children, so he ran out desperately. In this way, I ran for several days and nights until I saw no one again, until I entered the desert of Texas. All human love can be instantly subverted into selfish desires, which leads to the extreme display of human nature itself in evil deeds.
This bondage and domineering love has become the trophy of loneliness. Nothing is more terrifying than this kind of "love." In other words, how can it be love? Obviously, it is filling and grabbing one's own desires. People are so busy seeking and obtaining that they lose their eyes, and it is not clear whether others have hurt themselves or they have hurt others. When Davis was telling this, he turned his back to the mirror and to the crying Jane, because he was afraid to see his sin, afraid to see that he was in deep loneliness and unable to extricate himself, and afraid to deny the love he had given in the past. It is an understanding of the dark side of human nature. But Jane interrupted his memory. She didn't blame, she didn't spit, she just turned around, sat down, and confided her thoughts of Davis quietly. A soul that is on the run can see a life that is looking for. Although back to back, heart and heart meet. It is not enough for people to have the courage to face the past. What is needed most is the love to forgive the past and heal the wounds, otherwise it will only make people escape further. Jane's recount is like a cool ointment, which removes all the pain caused by resentment and anxiety. There is only tenderness, sweetness and happiness in her memories. It is like a pair of gentle hands containing a wounded heart, not holding it in the palm of the hand, but putting it in the arms. As if she had never been hurt herself.
Davis finally chose to live a lonely life, returning to the desert of Texas and continuing to wander. But he fulfilled Jane and Hunter's acquaintance. It was not that he was unable to face his past, but he thought he was unworthy of this love. At the end of the film, I also shed tears, also because of this unworthy possession. Only because of the Lord who seeks lost souls, I no longer feel pity for myself.
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