" The sun shines on Shishen's face, he shows a satisfied smile, and he keeps saying thanks to Jingzi and his daughter in his heart.
Shishen is a solitary genius, in his world, there is nothing worth paying attention to except mathematics. Until the mother and daughter of Jingzi appeared. The mother and daughter of Jingzi are like a ray of sunshine falling from the sky, illuminating the life of the stone god and giving him the meaning of life.
It would be too narrow to say that this is just love. Love is always accompanied by lust. I can't imagine Shishen's lust for Yasuko. It is written in the novel that "he has no desire to be associated with them at all, they are not the objects he should touch. For noble things, it is enough to be happy to be able to touch the side, and the same is true for mathematics."
I always think of " A sentence in "Hidden": I believe in life, I believe in you. The mother and daughter of Jingzi are the belief of the stone god. To protect Jingzi and her daughter is to protect their beliefs, without any reason, without any return. This devotion is not sacrifice, but martyrdom. The stone god's heart must be filled with joy of contentment.
Unfortunately, Yasuko did not understand. If she understood Shishen's feelings, she should not surrender.
Seeing Jingzi who had surrendered before, Shishen was helpless, desperate, and collapsed, and kept asking, "Why? Why?"
Shishen's collapse was not because his carefully designed scam was cracked, or even because he felt that Jingzi was going to jail. But his own beliefs were destroyed. The belief that I used all my wisdom to protect with my life was trampled on. Tragedy is the destruction of good things for others to see. The most beautiful miracle in the stone god's life was destroyed in front of his eyes.
The novel says "he seems to be vomiting his soul" and then stops abruptly.
I can't imagine later. How can the stone god who lost his soul survive?
I am reminded of the end of "Walking in the White Night", "She didn't look back once". At that time, when I read the last sentence, I felt an icy chill and felt that Xue Sui was sorry for Ryoji. But after watching "The Devotion of Suspect X", I suddenly felt that I hoped that Yasuko would live a cold life like Xue Sui, so as to live up to Shi Shen's dedication.
Sometimes, living is the atonement.
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