Guilt and redemption

Haskell 2022-12-30 17:24:54

This is a story about redemption.

Most of the time, the film is dark gray, the story of two generations, from the 1980s to the present, the story is dark and depressing.

This kind of story is actually very representative in China in the last century, but most people may not have the generosity and tolerance of Liu Yaojun and his wife. For the healthy growth of another child, they choose to help him forget this kind of guilt and scars.

Most people do not have the benevolence and reflection of Shen Yingming and his wife. They have been feeling guilty for many years for a past accident and misfortune, always trying to make up for it...

One of my former colleagues, M, chose to divorce when the child was one and a half years old. The specific reason for the divorce is unknown. But I only know that he is a man who has no bottom line for his friends and brothers. For example, if the faucet at home is broken and needs to be repaired and a friend needs help when moving, he will definitely choose to help his friend without hesitation. He would spend a weekend afternoon helping a friend move, no matter if the wife and the baby are at home because there is no water to wash clothes or dishes, he will look forward to it, or he will be angry.

If a friend told him to play mahjong with three missing one, then that one seemed to be a military order for him, no matter how late he would accompany everyone to the end. One of the words he often talks to his buddies, friends, and colleagues around him is: Brother, my home is your home, you are welcome at any time... For example, if you organize a football game, you can get a bunch of men drunk in his bedroom or living room Here, there is a friend who comes to Shenzhen and needs to stay temporarily. He can come to his house for a few days or a few weeks at any time, regardless of his wife's displeasure or inconvenience.

Any neglect, lack of enthusiasm, or lack of thoughtfulness towards a friend will trample on his dignity and bottom line.

It is said that they sold their house in Shenzhen after the divorce, and he received almost 300,000 yuan. After a full meal, he borrowed more than 200,000 to do business with one of his buddies. A few months later, the buddy lost contact with him. After that, he started a long career in debt collection. His more than 300,000 yuan was lent to three brothers, and all three brothers chose to block him or refuse to contact him because they could not pay it back or for other reasons. At that time, a group of melon friends were both angry and funny. I don't understand why such unfortunate and low probability things were hit by him alone. This one-of-a-kind old Lai has become his brother or buddy.

Later, I overheard an experience when he was 8 years old.

That afternoon, he was riding a bicycle and wanted to go swimming in the river. When he passed the door of a friend in the same village, he blew a whistle and yelled at the boy, who immediately sat on his back seat. . As a result, the boy accidentally drowned that day. Both of them knew water. It is said that the boy was stung by something in the river. During that time, the family who lost the child went to his door every day to kowtow and cry. If he hadn't shouted and carried people away, and hadn't gone into the river to bathe, maybe he wouldn't have died that day...

M should have a very deep guilt for the murder many years ago, and that guilt may have been pressed on his back like a heavy shell, which he carried for many years.

Maybe it was because of his debt to his friends. As an adult, he always involuntarily gave his friends a lot of excessive accommodation and could not refuse.

Another story is that my husband's uncle, when he was six or seven years old, was playing by the well with other children in the village, and then fell into the well and drowned. It was later rumored that a boy named L had pushed his uncle prankly. Maybe the boy just pushed and didn't know that the well was a cannibal abyss. Of course, the people behind the L family gritted their teeth and refused to admit it. Maybe not admitting is the best protection for their children.

It was the only well in the village, and for many years later, my husband's grandmother would go to that well to fetch water every day. For a woman who has lost a child, every time she carries water, she will have a fantasy, and after the fantasy, it is like a memorial. Every time the child is carrying water, it seems to be tormenting her every time...

Of course, no one knows whether L has any apologies for the uncle who was salvaged from the well back then, or whether he can only live with such a secret for so many years.

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  • Moli Shen: In love, women are stupid.