Why is Rue addicted to drugs? It's hard for ordinary people to understand, but I understand.
I've also been addicted to the Internet, the bad experience of wanting to work but not wanting to start, wasting a day checking my phone, and waiting until the sun goes down and feeling full of guilt and self-loathing.
Every morning you vow to be a positive, motivated version of yourself, but each day is a mess. There are too many frustrations, struggles and disappointments in reality. Only in the virtual world can you think about nothing.
Rue has been a bipolar patient since she was a child, and has suicidal tendencies. Drugs can bring her a moment of tranquility, but drugs are also visibly destroying her, taking away the beautiful things in her little by little.
When the audience is watching the drama, there is always a feeling that iron is not steel, why can't she control herself? Why does she resort to drugs whenever she is troubled?
Rue wanted to talk and found Ali, who was middle-aged. One is 17 years old and the other is in his 50s. Their dialogue allows us to see the essence of addiction and the essence of life.
Rue's suicidal tendencies and drug use are contrary to the essence of life. There are physiological reasons, as well as family reasons. She also said that her drug use was not directly related to her father's death, but only accelerated the process.
Taking drugs gave her a sense of meaning in life. But is this the case?
What is the essence of life? It is suffering. Like Maddy, Kat, Jules, each has its own suffering, but you can see that they are struggling, resisting, using various actions to release or change, although the final result is not satisfactory.
What is Rue's first reaction when he encounters something? It's inaction, evasion, and passivity. The first time she saw Jules, she was struck by her vitality. The kind that always has a sweet smile on his face, works hard to love life, and works hard to dress up his vitality.
What Rue lacks the most is this vitality, this love of life.
A conversation she has with Ali can prove it (I only remember the general meaning)
Rue: I was born a jerk
Ali: Why do you think that, are you born an asshole or drugs make you an asshole
Rue: I did unreasonable things to my family and friends
Ali: Do you hate and condemn your own jerk?
Rue: Yes, I hate it.
Ali: That means you're not a born jerk. Drugs mess with your sanity and make you a liar and callous. You're just thinking superficially, and every time you do something wrong, you're not trying to change, you're just trying to escape your problem with "Okay, I was born a jerk." Then the next day, you're going to be a jerk again because your excuse is "you can't save yourself".
This passage is like a psychological analysis, which woke me up. It turns out that behind the addiction, it is not attachment, but escape.
Ali used to be a drug addict, but one day he decided to change, because drugs made him a man he hated - a domestic abuser. For more than 20 years, he never touched drugs again.
Can we imagine Rue's life after that, she has not gone to college, worked, got married, or had children. If she quits addiction, after she has experienced this long life, she will find that life is not only about the suffering of youth, There are even more unbearable and countless sufferings.
Every living person, who has not experienced ninety-nine-eighty-one hardships. In life, fear, stress and pain go hand in hand. Addiction can make you carefree, but it's not life, it's just escaping.
Vulnerable people always want to become stronger one day, maybe when Rue wants to truly embrace life, her addiction will naturally be able to quit.
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