Regarding the character understanding of several vague plots in the movie: the question of the park scene, why is there this scene? I think this clip draws on the theme of Bai Xianyong's "Niezi" gay novel, which was later filmed in a TV series. I have seen the clips and the introduction to the novel. Although I don't have the energy to pay attention, I dare to write about my self-understanding because I haven't read it. This original, I can't be completely responsible for my own no assumptions. Writing this part of the content is inseparable from people's desires. In the absence of any legal rights and interests, homosexuals can only sneak in their physical needs. Love or not love is put aside first. Lust is a basic human need. Due to the special background of the times, How should a minority of sexually oriented people solve the problem, is it the library? Or the park. The park is a place that is both open and secret, and even has the meaning of being isolated from the world. Most of the stories in Mr. Bai Xianyong's "Nice Son" take place in the park. They are homeless children. They can only find consolation in this park, a source of income to survive, and people who can leave. There is desire and warmth here, but love is too difficult. Even shelter is a problem, love is a luxury, not a necessity of life.
Why Homeless? In an era when same-sex orientation is considered a crime, family recognition is especially difficult. Whether it is a commoner family or a wealthy family, whether it is a grassroots class or an upper-class wealthy family, homosexuality is regarded as rebellious, deviant, even morally corrupt, corrupting the style of the family, etc. It is difficult to be accepted, let alone talk about understanding. And patriarchy is the inescapable control authority in the family. The beginning of the tragic encounters of those characters stems from the disgust and abandonment of the original family, especially the father. In the movie, the father images of Zhang Jiahan and Wang Bode are slightly shown. Zhang Jiahan is written first. After all, it is his perspective. His mother has no right to speak at home. Doting on this little son, she is gentle and reasonable, and the delicateness unique to women makes it easy to see that the ambiguity between her son and Wang Bode is not just a friend. It belongs to the image of a traditional kind-hearted housewife. Zhang Jiahan’s father’s treatment of his son belongs to the more common critical education of our parents. Even in front of outsiders at the dinner table, he can’t take care of the child’s dignity. That is, if I want to suppress you, I will suppress you. If I earn money to support my family, I have the right to talk about you. His rebelliousness and perseverance came from two completely different attitudes of his parents towards him. His father's suppression of him made him eager to be recognized in other places. It was previously written that he raised a stick to hit his juniors, and his personality was inconsistent. This is because he originally wanted to be accepted in a small group, and he needed to do something against his will to meet the needs of the group, and he would get compensation from his friends for the recognition he couldn't get in the family. But when he met Wang Bird, the power of love made him no longer need to cater to others to be satisfied. With Wang Bird, he would have everything he wanted, recognition and love. At this time, the gentle care that his mother gave him on weekdays would have a lasting impact on his character, inspiring and guiding him to give and forbear to Wang Bodeqi, persistent and reckless. At this point, I think the characters are still in line with the development of psychological logic.
And Wang Bode is more complicated, because it is not his perspective, the content originally given is not enough, and if you delete it, it will be even harder to see why he is contradicting. Wang Bird has three older sisters. His father is a rude man. He came to the school by car and wore a gold chain. According to my understanding, he should have some money and power. When he saw his son, he couldn't explain it at all, so he punched and kicked when he came up. In addition to hiding, Wang Bode just backed up when he was beating and scolding him. Before that, Wang Bode and Zhang Jiahan both said sadly that he was unnecessary in this world. It can be seen that Wang Bode is not a person who usually just laughs and doesn't care. On the contrary, he is prone to overthinking, inferiority and self-harm, but no one except Zhang Jiahan can see this. (The director deleted the plot of Ban Ban and Zhang Jiahan's private chat, which I think is very bad. The dialogue in it is that Zhang Jiahan saw Wang Bode's worries and understood his sadness. Ban Ban would be amazed that you know him better than me, and the whole scene has no harmony. I couldn't catch the seduction later, did the dialogue have a plot, and the content was filmed but not edited, which left me speechless) Wang Bode's father was even worse than Zhang Jiahan's father. , the son has become a private property, he does not have an independent personality in his eyes, and his attitude is selfish and barbaric. I haven't mentioned Wang Bird's mother, but I think even if there should be, there is no right to speak. The contradiction of Wang Bode is that he is too patient. Although he is an only son, he is expected to have high expectations, but he is not very good in his studies. His father's high-pressure education will only make him rebellious and depressed, sentimental, and feel the movie. The world is more interesting. In fact, from another angle, this is the cruelty of his escapism from reality in the subconscious. The self that cannot be realized in reality can become free in the movie. Looking at the family arrangement of his last phone call to Zhang Jiahan, the trophies and awards on one wall, and the cabinet of foreign wine, I'm afraid none of them belong to him. The three sisters are not like him. The wine is probably his father's, this family gives him Where is the focus of attention? He also needs a sense of identity, and he disdains to compromise with the rules. He doesn't fit in with the group and has no small groups. When he encounters Zhang Jiahan, he can understand him. It is the understanding between lovers, and the mutual dependence of sharing the same fate, so he can't let Zhang Jiahan be He drags him down, he can only try his best to suppress patience, or even prevent him, his inferiority complex will be aggravated and released because of love. That's why he is so contradictory.
Write back why there is a scene in the park, which may be explained to me earlier, Zhang Jiahan tried hard to find Wang Bird, but he couldn't find a home in the park like an abandoned child, the sadness and sadness of homosexuality having nowhere to go. At this time, Zhang Jiahan's mood was overlapping. The appearance of the old man is another tragedy. Sexual orientation is a state that lasts for a lifetime. It cannot be changed according to human will. Even if you are about to grow old, you cannot change your original desire. Like a lonely ghost and a wild ghost, waiting for a rabbit, looking for a moment of tenderness, pitiful and despicable. Zhang Jiahan couldn't wait for Wang Bode's response in grief, and wanted to destroy himself. Since he couldn't get love, this body was the same for everyone. But no, Zhang Jiahan can't just submit to the depravity of desire like others. What he wants is not to destroy a relationship, what he wants is Wang Bode's love. No matter from desire or spirit, he accepts him without reservation, even if he can't get it. Can't dirty the love in his heart. So he said angrily that he was not that kind of person, so what kind of person was he? In his heart, love is higher than desire, and desire can come from love, but love cannot be humiliated. Homosexuality is not a reason for him to give up on himself, that is not what he wants. After all, the name engraved in your heart is not "Niezi". Although the times have not made much progress, they are still moving forward slowly. The world is quietly changing, although they still did not get the rights they deserved at that time. It's very far away, and I still want to leave people a little hope, so in addition to the movie theme song, what has been playing is Cai Lanqin's world.
in this world
a little hope
a little disappointed
I always think so in this world
a little joy a little sad
No one can escape our world
Not as bad as you say
Why do you sigh with your care and all your love for the world
Add some beautiful colors to this world
A little hope, a little disappointment
I always think so in this world
a little joy a little sad
No one can escape our world
Not as bad as you say
why should you feel
with your care and all your love
Add some beautiful colors to the world
in this world
Zhang Jiahan used "strong", why did Wang Bode apologize? It is because Wang Bode already knew that the two were in love with each other. He confessed after Zhang Jiahan kissed Zhang Jiahan that night in Taipei. It was only later that the flaws were seen, and the group of people violently attacked Wang Bode, and Wang Bode changed for fear of hurting Zhang Jiahan. One does not want to admit it, the other dares to admit it. Why does Zhang Jiahan use force? The supplementary explanation in the novel is very clear, including the content of expressing desire and entanglement of love, which is more forced than in the movie. I personally think that the inner activities in the novel can be explained clearly, but the movie screen can't do it. Such meticulousness is more likely to cause misunderstandings. Even if the differences between words and languages are common, the intuition and obscurity of the film are even more complicated. Therefore, the director has done a good job in the face-to-face way. If it is a novel, it will be more vivid. It is fragrant, but it is easy to cause a counter-effect and cannot achieve the purpose of emotional confrontation. This is where I think the director and screenwriter put their hearts into it.
The advantage of the face-to-face effect is that Wang Bode has full strength to push Zhang Jiahan away. Although he is injured and inflexible, it is not that he cannot move. Staring at Zhang Jiahan angrily, but how did Zhang Jiahan react? If it was a normal situation, he would stop, because Wang Bode has been indifferent to him since he wanted to fall in love with Benban. If he saw Wang Bode's eyes without desire but anger, he would not continue to do it. , revenge is only a psychological aspect, but not all. In the camera, he took a closer look at Wang Bird's expression before suppressing the other party again. He was angry, puzzled, and unbearable. He instinctively felt Wang Bird's different emotional flow towards him, but he Not sure what it was, he desperately needed to destroy the Wang Bode in front of him, melt himself into it, and even forcefully squeeze it in through the gap of desire to completely destroy the shell of the good friend who separated the two of them. Squeeze Sabotage, he wants to see Wang Bird's true face, no matter whether this method is excessive or not, he has to do it. But at the same time, he couldn't bear to do it, so he restrained the kiss several times. He knew what he was doing, but he didn't know what the consequences of doing so were. The struggle was very powerful, and it must have been very painful. But he really can't care about so much. He looks strong, but it's not.
Because Wang Bode acquiesced and acquiesced to Zhang Jiahan's forcible destruction of the friendship that the two of them could get along with at present, he was also in pain. As a result, he may have been unable to bear it, so at the moment of the car accident, he called Zhang Jiahan covered in injuries, and couldn't help but want to see Zhang Jiahan, although it seemed that he was apologizing for the locomotive being damaged, it was actually because the car was hit. In the name of being bad, I came to express my apology, but this only made Zhang Jiahan even more angry. (Aren't you more important than a locomotive? I don't want you to apologize, what are you apologizing for? Are you apologizing to me only for this matter?) In fact, both of them tacitly knew that it was not the locomotive's business. One didn't want to pay, the other only said to pay, what to pay? How can I afford it, how can you pay me what I want? !
This is all set up, so after being "strong", Wang Bode felt embarrassed and decadent for a moment, and then suddenly rushed over and kissed Zhang Jiahan, so it proved that he was the one who was willing to accept it, and it was always two-way love. Zhang Jiahan reshaped the whole person. He completely lost himself to Zhang Jiahan. The shell of his good friend was gone, revealing his true colors. Apologizing changed from excuse to genuine guilt, crying to Zhang Jiahan and saying sorry, sorry I dragged you in and made you gay, sorry I did something that made you sad, sorry I didn't have the courage to admit that we were in love, sorry in other words It is I love you. Zhang Jiahan understood, and he timidly washed Wang Bode's body. At this time, Wang Bode, who was once chaotic, had already seen clearly. By forcing Wang Bode to admit his mistake, he was forcing Wang Bode to admit that he loved him, and then hugged him and wept bitterly. It was them. We all know that this step is difficult, and it will be even more difficult in the future.
Zhang Jiahan turned around later, because he couldn't face such a sad and heavy Wang Bode, Wang Bode is a birdy, he is so playful and playful, he has the courage to do things that others dare not do, and is maverick enough to be admired, but in front of him The Wang Bode was broken and reshaped by him, both familiar and unfamiliar. Zhang Jiahan saw how to bear such a Wang Bode. They are all too young, and once the truth is revealed, there will be no going back. At this time, his guilt even surpassed that of Wang Bird. It was all related to me and caused by me. Because of this, he rushed to protect Wang Bode afterward, and was questioned by Wang Bode, so he had the confidence to confront Wang Bode directly, how could it have nothing to do with me?
This is also where I can find this story very beautiful and moving, and where Wang Bode shines. I think they can do better, otherwise many people will not understand it, which is a pity.
Banban's problem. Apart from the images in the novel, I will only write about Banban and Wang Bode as I understand them in the movie. The one who really caught the attention of Banban was Zhang Jiahan, not only Wang Bode, but Wang Bode was just dissatisfied with the name of the lifting of Yan Yan, which was not true. Fake models are isolated from each other in an environment, and the desire to destroy people has long been installed in coffins, but the ghosts still linger, these rules, the person who can stand up and challenge is a weak girl, no one thought of it, Wang Bode originally He is a geek, naturally he will not miss this opportunity to fight for his normal rights as a human being. He admired this skinny little girl.
But Zhang Jiahan is relatively simple. He doesn't care about rights or not. What he cares about is whether Wang Bode will cause trouble, and he doesn't want Wang Bode to get close to the girls. It attracted Wang Bird's attention. After all, Wang Bird's feelings for him were still in a state of chaos in his cognition, otherwise he would not have failed to understand Wang Bird's confession that night in Taipei. At this time, it was easy for him to think that Wang Bode was speaking for the girls. He was afraid that if he got too close, he would be like the boys in the bus. In the end, Wang Bird pouted and said only that you are no different from those instructors. The meaning of understanding is that speaking for girls is to fall in love, that is, to have sperm on the brain? Can't I speak up and speak out about the unreasonable things in this world? So he was too lazy to explain his anger and turned away.
In this picture full of metaphors, the color matching of the entire glass wall is gorgeous and soft, dazzling but not dazzling. The natural light shining through is very beautiful on Zhang Jiahan and his juniors, while the birds on the glass are flying high, but they look down. Zhang Jiahan's direction. Bird is Wang Bird's nickname for himself ~birdy. The next plot connection is that Wang Bird is chased and beaten. The loud words are very clear, and his wings will be knocked off to see how he can fly. Who are his wings? Zhang Jiahan, they have to know that Zhang Jiahan is gay, how will they treat him, the junior is the end, facing the painful lesson that is destined to happen, can Wang Bode still think about being a birdy? Can't. In a campus where boys and girls are not allowed to sit in the same room, it is even found that boys and girls will be expelled for falling in love and their emotions are imprisoned. Once the relationship between Wang Bode and Zhang Jiahan is discovered, the consequences may not be the two high school students. Love each other can bear. For this, Wang Bode has sacrificed the most precious yearning and pursuit of freedom. He is an angel with broken wings, and he dares not walk the road. Zhang Jiahan walks like a fool. Wang Bode is more like a fool, protecting Zhang Jiahan, a boy who is like an angel to him, along the road that he dare not walk.
The conversation between Zhang Jiahan and his junior was after Banban caught their attention and before Wang Bode jumped off the stairs, why? Because Zhang Jiahan began to look for answers to his self-questions, he not only knew that he was different from Wang Bode, but the appearance of Banban gave him a sense of crisis for the first time. This feeling was still vague, but it made him sensitively worry about everything in the future. Variety. What changes? Whether homosexuality will be cured, will he change to like girls, ask for himself, and in turn, ask for Wang Bird, but he is more worried about Wang Bird. Because Zhang Jiahan secretly went out and dated girls, his body reaction was too honest, he had no interest in girls. There was no other way at that time. For him, only the younger brother who had come out of the closet gave the most direct and credible answer. The younger brother told him that I knew that I liked boys since I was a child, and I will not change it in the future. The younger brother with a wounded face is distressing and admirable, brave boy. However, it was very difficult for him to survive in such a harsh environment. Without the protection of Wang Bode's extreme means, the next one would be Zhang Jiahan. The answer after this inquiry has a great impact on Zhang Jiahan. If he likes Wang Bode, he is born to like boys and will never change. Will Wang Bode like him? If so, will he and never will? Will it change? Wouldn't the girl be attracted to Wang Bird? At this time, he was relieved.
(Here is a sigh of relief ~ very light ~)
Before Zhang Jiahan could understand, it happened that Wang Bode was beaten and jumped off the building, and he made a decision in an instant to stay away from him. Why Banban? After the military song performance failed, Wang Bode got angry with Zhang Jiahan. He didn't listen to Zhang Jiahan's advice, but gave Banban a smile. First, he had decided to stay away from Zhang Jiahan. Second, he and Zhang Jiahan were lovers. If you've ever been in a relationship, you know that not everyone is qualified to see your bad temper and unreasonableness. Willfulness is for one's own people. At least from the movie, Wang Bode hadn't taken the initiative to find Banban before. It was Banban who took the initiative first. Wang Bode rubbed Banban's hair like a little sister. Zhang Jiahan saw how he could be calm, and his reaction was huge. He turned and walked away, screaming in anger. The jealousy of such a big movement, Wang Bird already knew that Zhang Jiahan liked him, and others couldn't see it, could he still not see it.
(Here Wang Bode's expression is to know why Zhang Jiahan is angry, Banban was dragged into between him and Zhang Jiahan by Wang Bode after this)
After that, Ban Ban was pulled into the party. Seeing the closeness of the opposite men and women, Zhang Jiahan got angry and went to play the game console. Wang Bode called Zhang Jiahan, knowing that he was in a bad mood, and then he remembered that he wanted to like Ban Ban and took back his attention. , chatting with Banban, and assigning Banban headphones to listen to songs, these ambiguous actions stimulated Zhang Jiahan to ask Wang Bode directly, are you in love? Let's not talk about whether Wang Bird's eyes can accurately express his mood at that time. Zhang Jiahan became more and more direct after the appearance of the class. Although Wang Bode used various reasons to avoid him and ignore him, the more he did, the more frustrated he became, the more courageous he became, but bravery was relative, he only aimed to confirm the relationship Going forward, the method is obscure, but the action is decisive. He is the same contradiction as Wang Bode, but the content of the contradiction is different. He never believes that Wang Bode likes girls. He never thought that if the confession fails, the two may not even be friends. Do, he never thought that the more Wang Bird did, the more urgent it would be to leave his footsteps. Banban? Not Banban will be someone else, but Wang Bode likes Banban even more.
(I personally think this look is a failure...)
Does Wang Bird like Banban? like. Because the two are very similar, they speak speculatively and have the same opinion. For example, Zhang Jiahan will tell Wang Bode to admit defeat. You think the world has changed, but it has not changed at all. But Banban will say, I think you have already won, and the gentleness that is unique to women is easy to be kind when comforted, but does Wang Bode love it? Everyone's definition of love is different. For Wang Bode, love is fear. As the saying goes, "from love comes sorrow, from love comes fear, if you are separated from the lover, you will have no worries and no fear". Some of his choices fit the phrase perfectly. Wang Bode liked Banban, was willing to fall in love with Banban, stayed away from Zhang Jiahan, had a relationship with Zhang Jiahan, then apologized in grief, escaped Zhang Jiahan again, and even fought with Zhang Jiahan to argue for a relationship, getting angry and telling Zhang Jiahan to stop bothering himself, don't Like a ka, he is a straight man. Most of the people who didn't get the plot follow this logic. If this logic is followed, there will only be more or less problems with wives in reality, because Wang Bode pretends to be too similar. Everyone's definition and understanding of bravery is different. Zhang Jiahan is crazy and daring under the protection of Wang Bode. When Wang Bode decided to approach Banban, no one noticed the love they couldn't hide from each other. Only the careful girl Banban felt Zhang Jiahan's hostility towards her. In part, is she confessing to Zhang Jiahan? Yes or not, she wanted to test the purpose of this boy who stared at her all day and always had bad eyes. When Zhang Jiahan affectionately described his understanding of Wang Bode, that kind of understanding will only be found among lovers. Angered by the girl's confession to him, the smart girl understood that where the badness came from, it came from jealousy, but she didn't understand Wang Bode's feelings for Zhang Jiahan at the time.
Zhang Jiahan, like Ban Ban, is sensitive and insensitive. He can feel Wang Bode's love for him, but he doesn't understand why each other is so unbearable. In fact, there was no Wang Bode's distance from him, and he blatantly fell in love with Banban, breaking other people's doubts about Zhang Jiahan. It's hard to imagine how those homophobic people would treat them. In this harsh social environment at that time, he How to live well, if he can't live, how can Wang Bode forgive himself for letting everything go. Although he hurt Zhang Jiahan, in the end, he still let Zhang Jiahan graduate safely, go to university well, and walk a farther and wider road. He still fulfilled his wish to protect his lover. Although he was heartbroken, he did not explain a word to Zhang Jiahan. It's just that time has passed and the situation has changed that I regret the beauty of my youth, and when the answer is revealed, it is already a different person. Because of that special era, at an age of involuntary control, this relationship was originally a dead end. However, due to Wang Bode's protection, Zhang Jiahan was already allowed to leave the game and do what he wanted. How can he love, how foolish, how brave?
As for those emotional and moral problems, washing is not in vain, and being with his wife is a tragedy, and he is also the epitome of a tragic life.
He wanted to try and see if he could be together with Banban. After all, he liked Banban, but it would never reach the level of love. In that era when homosexuality was considered a crime, Wang Bode seemed to have no other way to go. It seemed like an opportunity. There are very few, but there are still warriors like Qi Jiawei standing on the overpass and the juniors around him. Despite being bullied, discriminated against, and cast aside, they still sacrifice themselves for gay rights, insist on their own identity, and be the most authentic. self. Therefore, the tragedies caused by the times cannot wash away the cowardice of personal choice. Therefore, I think the same-wife problem cannot be washed away by Wang Bode's love for Zhang Jiahan. These are two things. It can be said that Wang Bode is scumbag, irresponsible, timid and cowardly. It cannot be said that he does not love Zhang Jiahan, he is a straight man. Banban is so innocent. She has become a victim and paid her life wrong. She dares to challenge authority. She stood up at a young age to speak out against the injustice of the system. I can change him to like girls. Just like Wang Bode thought at the time, maybe I can change Zhang Jiahan to like girls, love will make us all have illusions, even if there is only a little chance, we are not willing to give up easily, but one will not let go, the other will let go, which one will love more ? It can only be that they all did what they thought was the best at the time.
Who is the angel who said "the way the angel dare not walk, the fool rushes all the way"? Who is the fool? Zhang Jiahan and Wang Bode are angels who love each other and fools who love each other, but if they go astray, they will never be able to meet again. The way the fools take is fundamentally wrong, but the angels belong to others.
In the movie, whoever reported the balloon incident was not reported to the school, but in the novel, Zhang Jiahan admitted to the school when he reunited in middle age, and Wang Bird already knew it was him. Maybe the director didn't think it was important, or he thought enough shots were given. It's easy to understand that Zhang Jiahan did it. First, the priest repeatedly emphasized that being jealous of Zhang Jiahan is a poisonous snake that will devour your heart; second, stealing the balloon is a secret between the two of you. No third person knew about the action; thirdly, although the balloon banner had the code word good night my love written, but no one's name was written, but Banban was very excited for the camera, Wang Bode winked at Banban, and Zhang Jiahan abdicated in frustration. , the three people who have their own concerns, no outsiders know; Fourth, after the balloon confession, Zhang Jiahan does not want to work hard. I think the director deleted the so-called seduction scene of the class and planned to put it after the balloon and before the car accident. At this time, Zhang Jiahan He wanted to reluctantly give up his love and entrust Wang Bode to Banban. He wanted to fulfill the two of them, but Banban's confession to him and his later crossing of the line with Wang Bode disrupted his decision. Because after that, he thought that Bamban didn't love Wang Bird that much, and the relationship between Wang Bird and him that crossed the line and the kiss that had made him sure it was love made him unable to give Wang Bird to others in his heart. Ignorance and indifference are no longer a struggle of undisclosed relationships. In his eyes, they are more betrayal and playing. His jealousy has been gnawed into hatred. Before posting the disciplinary notice, Zhang Jiahan was sitting in the corner, hesitating. An icy shadow shrouded his whole being. At this time, he had already decided to take revenge, but he did not expect the consequences to be so serious.
Wang Bode was not expelled not only because he was a boy, but also because the school gave his father the honor of being the president of the family committee. Considering that he wanted to make an excuse, how could Wang Bode's father not give the child a lesson in front of the teacher at this time? He beat him up and came to give a public account of the school and the scandal he had characterized. His main consideration was to save face. If there was a problem with his tutor, he would lose face, and it didn't matter what the child thought. Zhang Jiahan rushed out and hugged Wang Bode to block the smashed chair. In addition to protecting Wang Bode, there was also an important reason why this matter had become so serious that he couldn't get rid of it. If Wang Bode beat Zhang Jiahan again, it was not just because Zhang Jiahan wanted to fall in love for him, but he almost revealed the matter of stealing the balloon. Stealing things also added a first-class complaint for the crime of falling in love with a girl. There are many mistakes. At that time, Wang Bode can't protect him. Zhang Jiahan is not the father of the president, so Wang Bode was so angry that he had to block Zhang Jiahan's excited mouth with his fist. He will tell more secrets. If you stop him, the explanation is that the buddies are loyal, and the school will not pursue it too much, otherwise the consequences will only get worse. Wang Bode's complaint at home is nothing more than to make Zhang Jiahan give up, and Zhang Jiahan's parents will not go to the school to demolish their children's platforms. (You can see from the expressions of the teachers, they can't figure out what the two boys are doing. One sues first and then admits it, and the other stops them from admitting it. Then they both fight to admit it, and they fight. I will do the craziest things, regardless of the consequences, but I am deeply moved, I really feel that people are no longer young~)
The final consequence of this incident is the unfinished compensation. Banban dropped out of school because of this incident. After all, he was the victim of Zhang Jiahan and Wang Bode's unrecognizable first love. Wang Bode, in addition to liking Banban, had the purpose of staying away from Zhang Jiahan. , and the remedial guilt afterwards. If it weren't for his previous series of actions, Zhang Jiahan would not have done so much. This made her behave in the future, how could Wang Bode not take this responsibility, although he knew that this was Zhang Jiahan's complaint, because only the three of them knew where the balloon came from and what happened, but no one would do this except Zhang Jiahan, Therefore, he was also helping Zhang Jiahan to remedy the damage he had caused to Banban, but doing so would make the damage deeper in the future. At that time, he was too young to realize that this was not something he could solve by wishful thinking. However, he never asked Jiahan a single question from beginning to end. He believed that the responsibility rested with him and he would bear the consequences himself. Don't tie Zhang Jiahan together to face these. In the deleted plot, he stole the exam papers for Zhang Jiahan, hoping that he could be admitted to the university. Even though Zhang Jiahan's studies were worse and he could be in the same class as him, he was unwilling. He really hoped that Zhang Jiahan would be good. Not to mention being in charge of Banban.
The director didn't shoot these details or cut out the relevant clips. Is it as effective as he thought, I'm holding hands~
Farewell to the final scene . Zhang Jiahan asked about Banban on the phone, and he was calm as expected, even though his heart still throbbed. Because he ran away from home and was chased by Wang Bird to the end of the island, there was nothing in front of the two of them except the boundless coastline. They had no way to go. He once said to Wang Bird before that you thought the world had changed, but it didn't. changed. At that time he thought he understood, only then did he realize that Wang Bode understood before him. In this era of emotional isolation and cruelty towards homosexuality, they have nowhere to stay. There is a bird painted on the schoolbag that Wang Bode is carrying, and there is a word forbearance on his back. This is no longer a hint. At this time, he was no longer angry at Wang Bode's previous good and bad attitude towards himself, and he no longer blamed Wang Bode for his capricious betrayal. He has long known who Wang Bode loves, and the departure of the two made him more sure of this, but he never wanted to stay in a world with Wang Bode, it was so desperate and painful, he knew very well that Wang Bode would choose to endure it all the time. Go on, but he forgave him, he no longer forced Wang Bode to admit anything, so in the last phone call he mentioned Banban, that is, he no longer cares about these problems too much, as long as Wang Bode thinks that he can continue his life in this way, that's it, he can't bear it To argue with Wang Bird, nothing will change, you are born different, we are the same and cannot be changed. Accepting Wang Bode's choice is the last bit of decency and fulfillment he can give Wang Bode. No matter how Wang Bode chooses Zhang Jiahan, he hopes that he is right, even if the result is wrong, he will let go. If it wasn't for Wang Bird to call him this time, he would not do anything, not only Wang Bird cut off contact first. Although Missing was about to bite them into pieces and swallow them, they had already said everything they could say. They only said some innocuous courtesy on the phone, which was even more helpless and heartbreaking than that song was released. Finally Zhang Jiahan told Wang Bird that everyone's first love is as great as an epic movie, he and his first love story is great, not dirty, not disgusting, not guilty, just as proud and remembered as everyone's first love, but that song At the same time, he also told him that he will always love him, although his name can only be engraved in the bottom of his heart and cannot be declared in the open mouth, this secret first love is over. Wang Bode understood and cried so hard.
The two have not seen each other in thirty years. It's not a question of whether they're scumbag or not, it's their choices that put them on different life trajectories, and they can't meet again.
The middle-aged Zhang Jiahan and Wang Bode meet. I think if the previous director has cut out many key details, then there will be no middle-aged reunion plot. This movie is Zhang Jiahan's first love story, and with this ending, at least the previous plot can be connected. This is not only a Zhang Jiahan's first love was also Wang Bode's, or Banban's. The tragedy of the three people raised the practical significance of the film, but the emotional debt in front of it was too much to achieve the purpose envisaged by the director. (For example, Zhang Jiahan said that Banban had seduced him. The content of this passage was cut by the director, and he had never read the novel. Who can understand it)
The appearance and gait of middle-aged people will definitely not be the same as when they were young. Life is not a poem. May you leave for half your life and return as a teenager. Therefore, it is impossible to be the same psychologically or physically as they were. How should middle-aged people look at the lack of these 30 years, seeing each other again is an indescribable throbbing wrapped in layers? Probably not, what is that? is unfamiliar. Even in my dreams, I imagined the countless times I could see you, but I never guessed my current true mood. The nervousness of being overwhelmed is more because my face has been destroyed by the years, and my heart has been deformed by the changes of the world. Yes, I am no longer young, beautiful, tall and straight, full of white hair, cloudy eyes, the feeling of wanting to see you is drowned in the fear of seeing you, I am afraid of making fun of myself, and even more afraid that in a life beyond recognition, it has long been impossible. The blank space that intersects will be dull and embarrassing for each other.
Why haven't we seen each other in thirty years? No matter how much two people love each other, the damage has already been done, love is like a canvas, the heart has been torn apart by thousands of cuts, and it can no longer be stitched together, and there is no courage to complete any works about loving you. Being hurt so deeply, it's not like saying "I love you" to get back to the starting point. Except for the riddled front edge, the best way to go is to let go of each other and disappear into the life after each other. It has to go through thousands of mountains and rivers to find that the name has been engraved in my heart, as if it is the cornerstone of my ability to cope with the vicissitudes of the world. What's more, the state of mind is always changing after becoming an adult. You will learn to love yourself a little more if you choose and choose, and you will no longer be able to sacrifice yourself and others. You will be taught by fate that you have reservations in your heart, and you will recover quickly from heartbreak. You will no longer treat yourself for anyone. Squeezed so that there is no room to step back. After all, people are not birds. If they can't fly, they can only live in the moment down-to-earth. The priest told all who were children at the time to live in the present. Who can understand how much of this sentence, how much can be achieved, and what kind of choice will be made, the choice depends on the era and also on the person.
Zhang Jiahan chooses to live in the moment, to live in the pain of shattering Wang Bode's body; Wang Bode chooses to live in the moment, to live to end Zhang Jiahan's heartbreaking desires; Banban chooses to live in the moment, to live his first love dream Acting in reality and working hard, but paying for the wrong life; the priest chooses to live in the moment, so he refuses to admit himself. He who only recognizes God tells Zhang Jiahan not to go his own way. Everyone is actually living in the moment, whether it is to obey their own heart, or to force themselves, whether it is pain or happiness, in this life, apart from returning to the prime minister and hesitating, do we have any regrets for a moment when we enter middle age, I am afraid There will be. Zhang Jiahan would regret that if he had seen Wang Bode's intentions earlier, he might not have been hurt so badly; Wang Bode would regret that if he had been braver, he might not have only left unforgettable regrets; Banban would regret that if he had sobered up earlier, he might not have been so badly hurt. Will be obsessed with changing Wang Bode's birth and be different, and be betrayed for a lifetime; the priest will regret that if he is not afraid of betraying God, he may not miss the opportunity to stay with his lover for a long time. Or is Wang Jiawei living a transparent art, through Gong Er's words, expressing some self-experience, people are most afraid of regrets in life, but what is the meaning of life without regrets?
Living in the moment. Everyone can only live in the moment, and being true to your choice is being true to yourself. The world is neither so good nor so bad. The joys and sorrows of life have been staged all the time. As an era passes, some history will be wiped out, and some will be forever etched in my heart. Love is not sinful, but human hearts are sinful. Zhang Jiahan heard the guilt in the words of the priest's boyfriend. It was all my fault that he gave up the church and couldn't go to heaven. Zhang Jiahan said, I am sure that he loves you as much as you love him. After the ups and downs of the world, he now understands that the former Wang Bode loved him as much as he did. Middle-aged Zhang Jiahan and Wang Bode have fully understood the meaning of the phrase "live in the moment". Let me accompany you for a while... ok.
birdy...all right. ~The world without you is not heaven. Even if I regret it, I am very happy to meet you.
PS Why do the two boys you choose look so similar? There is a myth in Plato's "Symposium", which says, "Humans were originally spherical, with four hands, four legs, and two faces, but Zeus was afraid of the power of human beings, so he cut human beings in half with one knife. Since then, we have been searching for our other half all our lives." - Love is human instinct.
Regarding the detailed understanding of the plot of the movie, it is popularized that there is a movie first and then a novel, then I can only compare the two, and then combine them to understand, the effect may make people feel more, and all the relevant content originally written are modified and integrated. : There is no doubt that Zhang Jiahan loves Wang Bird, but I still want to write about why Zhang Jiahan is in this relationship. In a scene in a small screening room (similar to a KTV room), Zhang Jiahan secretly kissed Wang Bird while watching the Birdman movie. No one saw it in the novel, but in the movie, the waiter saw it through the glass outside the door. This scene, this is the first place I think is handled better than the novel. Being seen indicates that their relationship will be discovered sooner or later, because Zhang Jiahan's feelings will become more and more obvious. How can he hide his love for someone? The discussion and humiliation will follow one after another. Zhang Jiahan may not have this mental preparation. He is still very flustered and scared at this time. Here Zhang Jiahan is the ignorant one. Wang Bode is more sensitive than him. After he was kissed by Zhang Jiahan, he immediately accepted Zhang Jiahan's feelings and made a tortuous confession, including Sanmao's words, no one Understand me, you and I can’t have sex in the first place. Zhang Jiahan didn’t hear the overtones from these words. He felt a little vaguely that Wang Bode was different, but the difference made him unable to sort out the clues, so he just smiled and listened. No clear response.
Then it was the most intimate state between the two during the summer vacation. The audience could see that Zhang Jiahan was completely trapped in it. Whenever the phone rang, he jumped up to rush to answer the phone, and laughed stupidly to let the other party guess. Who is he, Zhang Jiahan is still a little boy at this time, when did it start to be different? I think it was before his coming-of-age ceremony (someone should be able to understand this place, there is no way to write too clearly). The part where they are in the small screening room is where I think the second time is better handled than the novel. Zhang Jiahan looked at Wang Bode's eyes at this time, his eyes were no longer hesitant, but he knew for sure that he was deeply in love with the boy in front of him. At this time, the aura of the whole person was no longer like a boy, but a man. Sitting in the auditorium, under the light of the movie projector, that is, under his gentle gaze, Wang Bode confessed to him again (those few words), this time Zhang Jiahan responded with certainty, and also cooperated with him. The kiss gesture, did you see Wang Bode's unexpectedly happy expression when he looked at Zhang Jiahan? ! At this time, the two people completed the second temptation, and there may still be ambiguity and cover-up, but they still know each other's love with each other. Wang Bode said that he would make a movie in the future. Zhang Jiahan was not very interested in movies at first, and he never thought about this problem. But since Wang Bode has this plan in the future, he also wants to participate in the future of his lover, so he said he wanted to write a theme for the movie. song. The two have fantasies about the future at this time and hope to be together forever. In the end, the separation and ending echoed, and things have changed.
After school started, Zhang Jiahan was completely different from before. After the baptism of love, he grew up rapidly. He no longer needed the recognition and attention of others. He only wanted Wang Bode alone. Even friends have already seen that he is different, not only does his hair make him more handsome, but love brings a light to his whole person. The so-called refreshment is just like this. There is only Wang Bird, and his actions are so intimate that he doesn't want to hide. At this time, Wang Bode can still be calm and disdain to argue. He confidently knows that Zhang Jiahan will go with him. Although the two have never been candid with each other, they already have an emotional tacit understanding. Wang Bode's response to Zhang Jiahan hugging his shoulders intimately is a good explanation. He didn't care what others thought at first, but a series of events later made him start to change his mind. (I will write more details when I write about Wang Bode later, only the part of Zhang Jiahan will be written here for the time being)
When Wang Bode heard Zhang Jiahan praying in the church, he sat next to him and prayed with a smile on his face, asking Zhang Jiahan to find a girl he really likes? What is a girl you really like? So who isn't the real one? Zhang Jiahan just got up and asked him, I look funny? Why do you ask, because Zhang Jiahan heard the meaning of this sentence, so I like you so much makes you feel funny? Or are you funny? Or are we both funny? Wang Bodra lives in Zhang Jiahan and wants to introduce his girlfriend to him and take the locomotive keys to take him out. Zhang Jiahan is so angry that he presses Wang Bode's face and puts it in front of his eyes, wanting to see if this Wang Bode is still the one he knew, so you hope me Find girls like you! Then I'll go!
But Zhang Jiahan can't love girls... Hearing the girls talk about the confession of the pager Roman pinyin, he thought maybe he didn't work hard enough and didn't really confess to Wang Bode. It does not belong to formal love to express the meaning of I love you. Maybe Wang Bode will be wrong, or maybe he is wrong. He wants to try again. Then he was blocked again and again, until the balloon confessed, so that he could no longer be sure what kind of feelings Wang Bird had for him before the girl came, did he still like it? He asked his younger brother, didn't he say that it would not change? So why does Wang Bird look like now? He was tormented by Wang Bird and became more and more unconfident and humbled. The feelings that Wang Bird gave him before would not be fake, but now it doesn't seem to be true. He couldn't leave Wang Bird and he couldn't have the confidence to ask for anything. It became more and more difficult for him to just meet until the car accident happened. , the relationship between the two is completely clear.
Interspersed with the priest's plot, he asked the priest if he had ever had a desire for a person. The priest told him to abstain from desire, including love. Zhang Jiahan said that what he wanted was not desire, but the love of the other party. The plot also showed this incident, why was the event in the screening room before his bar mitzvah? Just to illustrate this point. He had always restrained himself before, if it wasn't for Wang Bode being so over-the-top and capricious to him, he would not use a strong way to force Wang Bode to admit that after he did what he wanted to do, he didn't even look at him. Dare to look at Wang Bode, his heart is in a mess, the desire is to break Wang Bode's disguise, and also smash the last layer of friendship, he has no hope what to do after that, he knows that this step will be completely destroyed even if it can be maintained. The status quo, he was waiting for Wang Bode's action, but he was surprised that Wang Bode kissed him. He never expected that under such a heavy hand, Wang Bode finally admitted that they loved each other, regardless of love or desire, heart or body. , Zhang Jiahan's feelings about Wang Bode are all right.
This is not a show of unrequited love chasing straight men.
As for Wang Bode's question, it is very obscure, it is not his perspective, and the content given to him is very small, but it is not impossible to find. I don't think Wang Bode didn't know that they were in love with each other, nor were they struggling with their sexuality, nor were they beaten by Zhang Jiahan. He has been in love with Zhang Jiahan since they met, actively approached, actively attracted, and even actively suggested that he was not afraid before jumping off the stairs. The previous plots are all talking about one thing. Wang Bode knows whether he loves Zhang Jiahan or not. During the day, the gays on the overpass were arrested. At night, Wang Bode asked Zhang Jiahan what would happen to me if I died? He knows that he is gay, and he will be rejected by the world sooner or later. Even if he doesn't know he is gay, he knows that he will love boys. He saw his juniors being bullied, and he saw homosexuals being arrested for pursuing rights. After he rescued and became angry, he was afraid. Zhang Jiahan kissed him secretly, he knew, otherwise he wouldn't mention San Mao's words later, his feelings for Zhang Jiahan are different from those of good friends, he told Zhang Jiahan that I can't have a baby with you in the first place, Fool. This is only after Zhang Jiahan secretly kissed him, it proves that he knows that Zhang Jiahan likes him is not the same ~ How can all these performances be a straight man, how can he be the one who realizes it later! ?
He was not afraid until he jumped off the platform, but why is the contrast so big after the jump? As I wrote earlier, after rescue and anger, there is fear, because empathy is not watching fire from the other side. He can stand up for others, but he can't bring Zhang Jiahan into it. He can endure the hammering of others, but he can't watch it. Seeing that Zhang Jiahan was humiliated by him, he felt that he broke Zhang Jiahan and provoked it first. He was responsible for bringing everything back to normal. He didn't want Zhang Jiahan to take a step forward. In those days, homosexuality was so taboo and discriminated against. Whether it was born or not is still debated, not to mention that there is no channel to understand in that harsh environment. He thinks that it's all his fault, that it's all his own fault, and that it's all his goodness that makes people feel that Zhang Jiahan is gay. He can only be Wang Bird, not a bird that can fly freely, so the farce of jumping off the building instantly woke him up.
The things he did, including challenging authority and rules in a maverick way, did not actually involve Zhang Jiahan. If Zhang Jiahan's love forced him to face the cold reality and forced him to realize that the world would not be easy at all Change forced him to face up to his whimsical impulses. On the contrary, only Zhang Jiahan was his only good hope in this disappointing world. How could he destroy Zhang Jiahan? Therefore, he must like Banban, and he must push away Ah Han who is getting closer and closer. He does not know that Zhang Jiahan is willing to follow him to hell, he only knows that Zhang Jiahan should be in a happy paradise. Zhang Jiahan made him afraid, but also made him brave, and bravely wronged himself for the sake of his lover. In order to protect Zhang Jiahan from being the birdy he wanted to be, he loved Zhang Jiahan very much.
Banban said that being with Wang Bird is like a Qiong Yao drama. It is very romantic but you can't feel love. What is love to Wang Bird? It is to take root for the sake of the other party, to be concerned that oneself is not doing well enough, and to be afraid that the other party will be hurt because of him. So after leaving Zhangjiahan, he has no scruples for decades. It doesn't matter whether he is good to Banban or bad to Banban. He is birdy and does everything according to what he wants to do, with no heavy responsibilities and no inner pressure. , Floating, only love makes him afraid, what is he afraid of without love? The separation from Zhang Jiahan took his soul away.
But Zhang Jiahan was pushing too hard, they forced each other to have nowhere to go, this bathroom scene must be filmed well, as the only passionate scene in the movie, the thing to express is by no means sensual and unsustainable. Love is unbearable. Wang Bode caressed Zhang Jiahan standing behind his back, with a subtle movement, and shivered and leaned back, it made sense why he refused to wipe his body face to face, his body reaction has exposed his different thoughts on Zhang Jiahan, people His body is more honest than people's thoughts. His attitude of rejecting Zhang Jiahan was just a light warning, and his body hid, but Zhang Jiahan could no longer hold back, and once the gate of lust was opened, it could no longer be closed. Wang Bode knew that his line of defense was collapsing, so he turned around and pushed Zhang Jiahan away. The plot of the movie is a face-to-face entanglement, that is, forcing Wang Bode to face Zhang Jiahan. What is your relationship? The second time his mouth was about to be touched, but he didn't touch it. Zhang Jiahan even tried to kiss Wang Bird's neck, but he was forcibly endured. Why? It was Zhang Jiahan who wasn't sure what Wang Bode's feelings were for him. Although he had crossed the line now, it was forced to happen. He was anxious and wanted to take revenge, but he couldn't bear to hurt Wang Bode. He both loves and hates this man whose attitude is so capricious to him. So the whole climax scene is very painful, especially Wang Bird's expression is sinking and painful at the end of the outbreak. Not physical pain, but mental pain. It's love, it's the best state in the bathroom.
After I watched the expressions of the two people several times, I can only say that the understanding of this drama does not meet my understanding. The mood of the picture is that Zhang Jiahan was overwhelmed by lust and anger, and he couldn't recover when he calmed down. He didn't know how to face the destructive behavior he had done. Wang Bode was frustrated and ashamed of his defeat. He didn't expect Zhang Jiahan to do such a thing. He kept trying to push him away and did so many things that went against his will, but he made such an unremarkable embarrassment. His eyes were full of shock and embarrassment. Anger turned into anger, so he rushed up to kiss Zhang Jiahan for a short time. And I didn't explain the whole content of the kiss, so I felt bad, why? This kiss must be filmed well, and the emotions must be paid attention to. Because of whether the friends in the movie birdy are lovers or not, and whether they are in love, the difference in Zhang Jiahan's heart is whether there is a kiss (there are supplementary plots in the novel). At the moment when he secretly kissed Wang Bode, Wang Bode must have known that Zhang Jiahan loves him first. So he was afraid, a brave man suddenly not brave, why? There must be a weakness that makes him unable to do anything, and he wants to protect this weakness from being discovered and hurt.
But this embarrassing defeat, there is no way for him to pretend to be just a good friend, how can he not be angry with the defeat of returning to the original form, he loves and hates it just like Zhang Jiahan. Zhang Jiahan's surprised expression was right for Wang Bird's kiss, but it's hard for people to appreciate this kiss without a response. What does it mean to the two of them? If the bathroom's half-forced wish still makes Zhang Jiahan feel confused about Wang Bird's attitude towards him, this kiss is the answer.
The emotional content shown in the bathroom is all online, so that Zhang Jiahan can have a tighter entanglement with Wang Bird, and let the audience see that this is not a play of gays chasing straight men. Wang Bode retreated further, just because he couldn't show Zhang Jiahan anymore, he didn't even want to do it with Zhang Jiahan, he couldn't stand being held back by reality again and again and couldn't breathe, Zhang Jiahan entangled him so much Tight can only make him retreat further, this is the most tragic place. Wang Bode was chased and beaten by his father later, Zhang Jiahan rushed out to block the falling chair, and was injured in order to protect him. Not only that, Zhang Jiahan had to admit his mistake, so that Wang Bode could no longer control his emotions. Everything he did deviates from his original intention. Only let Zhang Jiahan hurt for him, he hates Zhang Jiahan like this, hates Zhang Jiahan for not leaving him at all, can't hate him! That's why I beat Zhang Jiahan, because he hates himself even more, and the unspeakable grief and anger are all in his fists, doesn't he hurt? The two were in the same pain, so he ran away first if he couldn't face it. In order to make Zhang Jiahan hate him even more, he went to Zhang Jiahan's house to complain, and everything made sense. Without that kiss, Zhang Jiahan would really give up and do such a reluctant thing to others. If he crossed the line, he really wouldn't even have to do it as a friend, but with that kiss, everything would be different. But does that kiss really have that effect? Audiences will have different ideas
Wang Bode ran to the house to file a complaint with one purpose. I don't want to be friends with you anymore, I want you to stay away from me! Don't try to admit anything for me, don't you want to admit it? Then I said that you rob my girlfriend, which can prove that you are not gay, and neither am I. We fought for women, and then we broke up, even if you do anything, I don't appreciate it! The previous kiss had already let Zhang Jiahan know that Wang Bode loves him, but he couldn't catch Wang Bode any longer, so he rushed over to protect him, and wanted to admit his fault for him. It is to tell Wang Bode with actions, even though you treat me like that, but I understand you, everything you do will not let me give up on you, but what do you want me to do? Wang Bode kept asking him to have a girlfriend, which completely angered Zhang Jiahan. You clearly know that I don't love girls. What do you want to do after we did that? I admit that chasing you is cheap, but you have to deny even this, and say I have no seed, I have no seed? I didn't pretend to like girls! Played such a big play!
Wang Bode's "for your good" is so pressing that Zhang Jiahan can't help but want to come out. Wang Bode will definitely not let him recognize it, stop him by shouting, and let the family stop bothering him. Zhang Jiahan's sentence I dare say I Who do you like, do you dare? This sentence is very clear, Zhang Jiahan knows that Wang Bode loves him, and that kiss has proved everything, otherwise he will not pester Wang Bode after crossing the line, reluctant to bear him, desperately trying to catch him! And Wang Bode, following this logic, will not say the words in the movie at all. Can you not be like a ka? I think this is a major mistake. He will not use this method to stimulate Zhang Jiahan. He is most afraid of letting People know that Zhang Jiahan is gay. He has done so many things to protect Zhang Jiahan that hurt their feelings. How can he tell the truth at this time? I don't think I can understand it at a
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