It's hard to be a human being, it's even harder to be a good human being, and it's even harder to be a human being and not be an adult.

Nicholas 2022-11-24 18:51:18

As the saying goes, being a person is hard, and being a good person is even harder.
If you are rich in material, you can have the confidence to buy if you want to buy it; if you are satisfied with your spirit, you can have the courage to walk away; if your career is successful, you can stand alone if you are alone; if you have a stable relationship, two people can share joys and sorrows.
It takes a lot of hard work and luck to make it all happen.
It is very likely that in the process of chasing and satisfying needs, people lose themselves.
In the movie "Air Doll", Xiao Wang, an inflatable doll who wanted to be a human but was not an adult, encountered such a dilemma.

Xiao Wang is the inflatable doll of Hideo, the waiter in the restaurant.
Xiuxiong bought her and gave her the same name as his ex-girlfriend "Xiaowang". During the day, Hideo worked in the restaurant and let her rest on the bed in the old apartment; when he came back at night, he would take a bath with her, take a walk, look at the stars, or do some indescribable things.

One day, Xiao Wang had a heart and came back to life. She opened her eyes, walked to the window, saw the outside world, and felt the fresh sunlight and wind.
She was a little curious and wanted to go out for a walk, so she put on a black and white maid outfit and left the old apartment.

She successively met the neighbor aunt with a broken mouth, a child returning home from school, an old man sitting on a bench resting, and Junichi, a handsome clerk in a video store.
She learned to speak, walk, write, draw, put on makeup, shop, lie, and even went to work in a video store and went to see the sea with Junyi.
She is becoming more and more human.

But after all, she still knew that she was different from others. Such as the forever cold hands, the blurry shadows under the lights and the minds of people who can never be understood.
Once, Xiaowang accidentally cut his finger in order to take out the movie CD on the shelf, and his whole body quickly ran out of breath and shriveled. Fortunately, Junichi discovered that she had blocked her leaking wound with tape, and desperately blew into her body with her mouth.

Xiaowang feels ashamed and sad, and doesn't know how to face Junyi. She wants to live like a human, but she doesn't know what she is.
So, she went back to the old apartment to find the answer in Hideo. But it was found that Hideo had changed to a new partner, an inflatable doll still called "Little Wang". She went to the old man's house who had helped him, and heard the dying
old man say to her, "Those with ice hands have warm hearts."
He found the purpose of his birth - to meet the needs of others.

She suddenly understood, "Life may be created because it cannot be successfully completed by its own power. Just like a flower, even if the pistil and stamen are gathered together, it is not enough to connect the relationship between the stamen and the pistil. It still needs insects and pistils. The visit of the breeze."
She can fill the emptiness of others, and she needs others to fill her emptiness. This is the basis for her to truly become a human being.

Then, she came to Chun's family and planned to be with Chun.
In the dark room with the curtains drawn, Chunyi repeatedly gave her air, and then again and again, while blowing and deflating again and again, Xiao Wang felt that this was probably alive.
After the madness, Xiaowang used a knife to open Junyi's belly button and blow him like a cat and tiger, thinking that this was what Junyi wanted. Unexpectedly, Chunyi lost too much blood and died.
Xiaowang's heart died, and so did the person.

In fact, in the movie, not only Xiaowang has been looking for the meaning of his own existence and pursuing what he wants. So are others.
Xiuxiong found an inflatable doll because he didn't want to put himself in the trouble of love. Junichi and Xiaowang were together to heal the pain of losing his girlfriend. The little girl in the restaurant abandoned her doll and replaced it with a toy ring. The girls living in the garbage station pick up food scraps and overeat.

Everyone's life is not easy, and everyone wants to live better.
Movies are magical and absurd, but life is even more elusive.
You never know if the next intersection will be a shock or a surprise.
I will never know whether what I have been looking for so much at this moment will be held in my hand and cherished at the next moment, or will it disappear and forget my mind.

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Extended Reading

Air Doll quotes

  • Nozomi: I don't mind if I'm a substitute for someone else.

    Junichi: You're not a substitute for anyone.

    Nozomi: I'll do anything for you... That's what I was born for...

  • Junichi: Was everything you saw in this world sad? Was there something, anything, that was beautiful?