I have never been so alive. And now I want to end

Kayleigh 2022-04-20 09:02:28

I thought I was ready. But now I feel like it would be nice if I had another nine months to live.
Maybe what they need is to live without me. The weird thing is. This used to be my worst fear.
but now. I was really relieved.
I'm going to swim to the beach tomorrow. And never come back.
Because from now on. This is my life. My life is almost here.
I've never been so alive. And now I want to end it.
I want to end something by myself.

Let me lift the morphine. Cheers to everyone.
If it's my birthday. You just remembered.
Please remember. I love you all. You have made my life happy.
My life. There is no tragedy.

——"The Third Star"

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  • [first lines]

    James: James Kimberly Griffith. See I... The thing about life is... Oh, what was I gonna say? The thing about life is... I'm 29 today. Won't see 30. But I'm uh... I'm okay. Really. Okay.

  • James: This is how my life is going to be from now on. Because of the pain. Because of the drugs I take for the pain, because of the drugs I take for the side effects of the other drugs. I mean, you've seen it. It's only going to get worse. My life's all up here now, really. It's taking over and gradually I'm going to slip further and further into thinking only about pain and that's not worth living for!