This is a day in the winter month of the Gengchen year of the lunar calendar.
Just after the solar term of Xiaoxue, Hunan people started to kill the New Year pigs as usual. Except for some fresh food, most of them would be marinated with five spice and star anise powder for four or five days. After drying, they would hang on the firewood stove to cool down Smoked roast, called "winter bacon". The color is bright red, and it can be eaten until the next year.
Yi Yang Qianxi was born on this day and belongs to the dragon. According to the solar calendar, it is November 28, 2000 AD.
His name always reminds me of the writer Lao She. Lao She's birthday is New Year's Eve. When his grandfather thought about it, he would use the birth of this child to celebrate the New Year, so he named him Shu Qingchun.
The same goes for Yi Yang Qianxi. Gao Xiaosong asked him why he had such a strange name. " My father's surname is Yi. 'Xian' means welcome in our hometown. Qianxi means the millennium, which means welcoming the millennium. " He explained it this way.
It sounds more elegant than "Qingchun".
Qianxi's name was given by her mother.
This ordinary woman from Jiangxi, her dream during her student days was to be as versatile as the art committee member in her class, and to attract attention. But because of poverty, he had to drop out of high school and went south to Shenzhen, but met Qianxi's father in the workshop.
He is a taciturn man who runs a small factory, eats and lives with the workers, and has a real responsibility.
Later, when the woman returned to her hometown to give birth, she would talk to the man every night. The content was to look up the dictionary together and decide the child's name. "It must be four words, so that it is special enough. I hope he will become a different person."
East Asians worship by name.
Dream pillow tapir wrote in "Onmyoji", "The shortest spell in the world is the name." In Hayao Miyazaki's "Spirited Away", Granny Yu took away the name of Chihiro, leaving only one "Qian" The word is to make Chihiro forget her name and be a slave forever. Different names represent different identities and destiny. When a person gets a name, he also gets a connection and bond with all things in the world.
So, from the age of five, Qianxi's life has been highly stressful.
He moved with his mother from Huaihua, Hunan to Changping, Beijing to study dance. The students in the same class were all older than him. He was timid and retreated to the inside. His mother carried him to the front and told the teacher to do the same .
In 2009, Qian Xi joined the Feixuan Youth Group, often taking the bus for ten minutes to go home to change clothes, then take the 919 bus to Deshengmen, and change the subway to go to Beixinqiao for classes. On weekends, I have to get up at six o'clock, squeeze the subway for two hours, go to Changping Children's Palace for class first, then take the bus to dance classes, and take the last bus to go home at night. .
I can't complain that he is taciturn and mature, because he knows what it means to be exhausted as soon as he understands a little thing, so he grew up in an instant for ten years. I sometimes look at him, and even think that he is more weathered and decayed than his parents.
After junior high school, he quit Feixuan Juvenile, and in addition to his homework, he mainly studied dance and calligraphy. The reporter picked him up and asked, are you happy that you have learned so many things? He paused for a moment and said, " I'm not very happy, I'm just used to it. "
When he said this, his young skin seemed to hide an old soul like a hidden weapon.
Jiang Fangzhou wrote, "Who doesn't want to have an old soul? There is a heart of vicissitudes under the body of youth. Living with self-knowledge and restraint, life seems to be a long rest of life." After a few lines, she continued, " But the old soul also has to pay the price, the old soul will always go against the world, the world is happy and excited, and the old soul is secretly hurt;
It's easy to seal Qianxi with this sentence, and I don't think he will object.
Wilde said that the tragedy of the elderly is not the aging of the body, but the aging of the body, but the heart is still very young. Qianxi, on the contrary, his body is still young, but his heart is already old.
So when he first debuted, a reporter asked him what he was doing, "Is this an activity or an acting?" He thought about it, and picked out the word "work" from the many terms that did not match his age, " I'm here to work. of. "
At that time, he was 13 years old, and he could count the number of times he went to school on one hand, because he had a new identity, a member of TFBOYS.
He came by "airborne" without the popularity accumulated by the other two players. He was quickly questioned and attacked by fans. Some people even yelled at him at the airport and told him to get out of the group.
Anyone with a discerning eye can see that among the three boys, Yi Yangqianxi is not good-looking, has a likable personality, doesn't like to talk or laugh, and lacks the desire to express.
The agent asked if he was tired, and he replied, "It's okay." The host asked if he had anything for the players, and he said, "I don't. " Jian, because when he didn't speak, he would always grit his teeth subconsciously.
A pursed smile is also his hallmark, because someone mocks him for his grinning appearance. Later, even after orthodontic treatment, he was still used to pursing his lips and tightening his upper lip when he smiled, which is also reflected in "Youth of You". Psychology believes that "the shape of the mouth is the wave mark of the heart", and the purpose of this deliberate "tightening of the orbicularis oris muscle" is to "not be affected by the feelings of oneself or others".
I think of Eileen Chang's writing about the movie star Yan Shan, "I saw him going down the stairs, clenching his arms, rushing past, wearing a long robe, no makeup, and a look of alertness, he slid away."
Qianxi has such a guarded look, pursing her lips, frowning, always speaking less, and the words "to-do" appear to be written on her face.
This is a person who can be alone in public.
So the host asked him who his best friend was, and he replied, "Myself." The reporter asked if he had any potential he wanted to explore, and he said, "I hope the older I get, the better I know myself."
I remember that when Faye Wong was still called Wang Jingwen, she once sang softly in [Tianlong Babu: Tianshan Tongmao]: I used to cherish each other, thinking that I would always have a confidant in my life, and I would never give up and never leave. It turned out that I was the only one.
I think Qianxi is willing. He once said with emotion, "As an adult, not laughing is a hard-won right." engage in protracted dogfights.
In this fight, he was quite in love.
There is a sentence in Yan Lianke's "Sleep Together", "When a person is too precocious and is called a genius, he must be accompanied by his simplicity and even stupidity, just like a real fool's hidden IQ will never be forgotten. People will find out that way."
Yi Yang Qianxi always easily fell into that simple and even stupid state, such as the college entrance examination.
When "Story of the Stars" was released that year, Su Youpeng went to study under the huge pressure of further education while appearing on the show. In his weekly diary, he wrote, "I'm going to die. I want you to know that social pressure, fans care, it's all pressure."
The brokerage company couldn't bear it, and suspended all the work of the Tigers and let him study in retreat. But it was still nightmares, and when I woke up, my heart was so heavy that I could stick to my back. "I'm afraid that if I fail the exam, some mothers with children will point at me and say to their children, 'Look, that's a good tiger who can only play and can't study'."
This shadow also draped over Yi Yang Qianxi.
He received the variety show "This! It's Street Dance", it was only four months before the college entrance examination, so I had to sit in the babysitter's car after recording the show, eat a few bites in a hurry, and then do my homework. The five-hour journey was enough for him to study two classes of mathematics. "The psychological pressure is a bit high, and the resistance is also quite large. I really want to give up. "
Everything seems to have gone back to 2009. He and his mother always took the subway back to Deshengmen at 11 o'clock at night, and then changed to No. 345 to Changping Dongguan, and then went back to No. 13. On the way, my mother would take out a chopping board and use it as a desk for Qianxi to do her homework on the bus.
After all, it's a double job. In a letter written by Lu Xun to Xu Guangping, he said, "When you do both sides, if you are not serious, both sides will be smooth and shallow. If you are serious, your blood will boil at one time, and your heart will be calm at the same time, and your spirit will be exhausted."
Qianxi probably couldn't bear the exhaustion, and was even more worried that she would not be able to pass the exam. In April, she began to retreat and went back to her hometown in Hunan to study for the third year of high school.
There are hours in the school, early study at 7:00, class from 8:00 to 9:00 at night, and then self-study in the evening. In the past two months, his grade has reached 473, becoming the first in both the performance major and the cultural class.
Liu Haoran also won this first place.
They are all people with a strong sense of crisis, because they became famous too early, "it's too happy, you will be held in the hands of many people", so, "all your thinking and senses will be less sensitive to this society, Lost creative passion because of ease.”
Zhang Yishan was also afraid, so after he became famous, he was unknown for a long time and focused on his studies. He never skipped a class in college because of his acting.
It's strange to say that people who were born as child stars, the two emotions of "not in a hurry" and "hurry up" mostly follow the order. I was immersed in happiness first, and then I started to fear, trying to find a way out after some cuteness faded.
But they did the opposite, and in the bonus period that they should be immersed in and enjoyed, they first began to doubt themselves.
Yi Yangqianxi has mentioned more than once that after every scene, the director will say that it is ok, but he is not satisfied and always feels that it is not good enough. He couldn't wait to prepare for the exam, because he wanted to settle down and become more content, otherwise it would be easy to be unable to stand scrutiny.
After the exam, I didn't rest, and then I filmed "Twelve Hours in Chang'an".
He was the first role set by director Cao Dun because he was "steady and has an idea in his heart". Zeng Guoxiang also praised him when he photographed [Young You], "The eyes are full of emotions, there are thoughts and things in them. I rarely see a young man like this. "
Of course it's rare, because he's not young anymore.
No one under the age of 20 would speak like this - in the face of the opponent's compliment of "seeing but not knowing Mount Tai", he would say "Sit is not arrogant for Mount Tai"; in the face of the reporter's suggestion to "release rebelliousness and aggression", he said "A gentleman is worse than Pu Lu and Qu Jin, and it is better to be sparse and mad."
He has also been reading, bought "A Brief History of the Future" and "A Brief History of Time", watched Yu Hua's "Alive", "Xu Sanguan Selling Blood", and also liked Ban Yu's "Winter Swimming".
This is a collection of short stories by Ban Yu, and he also has a book "Xiaoyaoyou" that ranked first in the "2018 Harvest Literary Ranking", followed by writers Mo Yan and Yan Lianke.
Yi Yang Qianxi's love directly led to a surge in the sales of "Winter Swimming". The manufacturer hurriedly printed it, but it was sold out as soon as it appeared.
Ban Yu said, "This child is very good. He should read this book because he needs self-exploration."
In the late Qing Dynasty, two generations of emperors and teachers Weng Tonghe taught his disciples, "Every time there is a major event, there is stillness."
For child stars, the biggest danger should be growing up. No matter how big the stage is when you are young, you will lose much face when you grow up, because there is no way to continue to rely on innocence to realize it.
But Qianxi is different. At the age of 18, he deliberately grew a beard because "it will look more mature." When Yang Zi, who was a child star, was still pretending to be a girl, he was not afraid of "getting old" at all, and was more willing to take on the attitude of a man.
Be prepared for danger in times of peace, and be calm, this is probably the only way to escape the tragedy of child stars, in addition to avoiding long-term disability.
During the filming of "Twelve Hours in Chang'an", Lei Jiayin said that Qianxi was "quiet, capable, and not overbearing." When he was about to finish, Zhou Yiwei said, "If I didn't remind him, I would never think he was only 18 years old."
Once, he had a fever and endured it alone. At two or three in the morning, the team sent a WeChat message to the producer, saying that Qianxi had just finished trying the watch, and it was 39 degrees 6. The producers felt that this was not something a child could shoulder. Later in the interview, the reporter asked about this matter in a somewhat resentful tone, "Why don't you say it?" Qian Xi was surprised at first, then embarrassed, "Do you want to say this too?"
It turned out that "hard work" is not a compliment word that can be used to flaunt himself, but a duty.
He was embarrassed to say something like a fever, because he is an actor, shouldn't it be right to work while sick? You just know how hard you work. If you always take it out and shake it off, it will inevitably make people feel like you are taking credit.
Thinking of this, I think the only youthful part of his body is probably that pair of skins.
No, I'm afraid it's not even a skin bag. I thought about it, just in terms of appearance, what is he most attractive to me? The answer is the kind of burnout that doesn't belong to his age that hangs between his eyebrows and the corners of his lips all the year round.
I can't tell the reason, maybe it's because he wants to show his emotions and anger in the play. Perhaps because he became famous too early, he was exhausted, and spent ten years in one night, so he was clearly still young, but he was hung with vicissitudes and fatigue. This sense of contrast is really charming.
Yes, charming. I don't know since when, the one of the three who is not very talented has become charming.
It seems that in the past two years, he has lost his mellowness and turned into a man whose bones are better than skin. Flesh - a typical movie face.
There was a writer in the Qing Dynasty named Li Yu, who wrote a book "Occasional Love", saying that the most important thing for a person is to have a state. Precious."
The state of Yi Yang Qianxi lies in the faint calmness and casualness caused by tiredness.
I remember Yi Shu wrote a star, saying that ordinary looks are not good enough, "It must be the kind of beauty that catches the eye."
"Bounce eyes fall eyes" is a Shanghai dialect, which means to see people's eyes wide open. How to count? Yi Shu wrote again, "Beauty is not knowing it, never feeling that you are beautiful, it is the most beautiful place."
There are not a few men in the industry who are better-looking than Qianxi, but most of them are guilty and lacking confidence, and the other half has a sharp edge but can't take it back.
The reason why it is not beautiful is because it is too beautiful. The real beauty is not to care, to be light and indifferent.
This kind of face is the most unscrupulous, it is malleable, and what it looks like can hold it.
Therefore, in "The Twelve Hours of Chang'an", Li Bi is elegant and calm.
Therefore, in [Young You], Liu Beishan is decisive, and there is a wildness that he can't hold back.
Andy Lau, who starred in movies about the same age as him, often provokes Huang Qiusheng to curse, "What kind of artist are you, you only know how to pose!" The hard-to-find paycheck is "I will embarrass the director".
However, Yi Yang Qianxi came up with a crisp, resounding note, his emotions and sorrows were as distinct as Yan Kai's, and they were pressed on his face.
He played Liu Beishan, who always frowned, single-handedly blazing a bloody path, and when he roared, the muscle lines of his arms were driven.
Towards the end, he pressed on Chen Nian's body and tore it, was dragged back by the police and pressed on the ground, his side face pressed against the stone, but he still tried to keep his eyes open, ruthless and hot, fierce and affectionate.
Those are the eyes that only the gongs and drums on the stage can knock out, tough and sharp, with a weapon-like beauty. For no reason, I remembered the beginning of a novel by Gu Long, "The sword qi is 30,000 miles across, and the sword is light and cold in the nineteen states."
Domineering, lethality is hidden in the bones, even if it is silent, it will not go away.
So I burst into tears, but I finally understood Rilke's "Premonition": I recognized the storm and was as excited as the sea.
But he still doesn't know how to precisely control his own retraction and release.
It's not that you have to make a full expression, shrug your shoulders and wave your arms, and hoarse your voice. Sometimes you just need to raise your eyes quietly, and it is already overwhelming.
Yi Shu wrote that in the 1970s, when Zhang Che filmed [Revenge], the heroine was Wang Ping, a charming and charming woman. She did her homework on the corners of her eyes and brows, but Zhang Che said, "Wang Ping, don't move your eyebrows."
I think of the collaboration between Lan Yingying and Zhang Ziyi in "Tsing Yi". There was a scene where Lan Yingying burst into tears. She volunteered to do it again, because this scene shouldn't be crying.
Yi Yang Qianxi made the same mistake as Zhang Yishan, that is, using too much force.
In Zhang Yishan's "Remaining Sin", the eye sockets are congested and the blue veins are bursting at every turn. From the neck to the court, a blood rushes up the blood vessels, and the skin is flushed. Yi Yang Qianxi's Li Bi and Liu Beishan also had nervous tension and exposed blue veins. Because they were too saturated, they looked tired and oppressed. They wanted to pierce it desperately, even if it was just a small hole. .
Too hard, often too much, very bad.
So what I like the most is that he rides a motorcycle with Chen Nian, the corners of his mouth are raised, and he is wearing sunset rays.
He really doesn't laugh much. He always reminds me of London, which is cold in winter, hot and humid in summer, foggy and rarely sunny. When he smiles, it is like good weather. He is the fish that swims the most alive in the river in winter.
It wasn't a show, and there were no extra moves. He really melted into Liu Beishan's body. After knowing that he was exhausted, he withdrew his edge, smiled casually, and hid a pool of water in the lake.
Too much consumption may not be a good thing, the only good thing is that he is only 19 years old.
Thinking of this, I felt sad for a while. He should have grown up like a 19-year-old, and became a boring office worker who read lengthy columns in financial newspapers. It may also be a bit harder, then as he said, be a taxi driver and be busy with a living. In any case, it shouldn't be like now, exhausting energy, but also being picked by an article.
So, when he looked at Chen Nian and said, "I like someone, I will give her the best ending", I suddenly wanted to be selfish.
It's really scary to be laughed at when I say it. In fact, I also like a person, and I want to give him a good ending. Because it's too hard, I want him to live in a movie with a happy ending all his life, and it's best to stop at the scene where he smiles in the sunset.
Then the next shot went black, and a line of subtitles was written, and after writing about him for many years, everything was fine.
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Author/Aunt Liu
This article was first published on the WeChat public account [Brocier (ID: pocier)]
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