they still decided to meet. The two exchanged cautiously in an overly cautious tone. Pretend to greet with ease, respond politely and discreetly, and lean forward with restraint. The two of them acted as if nothing had happened, but they were clear in their hearts that they must not mention those thunder ponds that were in chaos if they were not cleaned up.
They didn't mention too much about their bitterness this year. He didn't say how many shop windows and how many hotels I stayed in without you; he didn't say how many lights were broken and how many eyes burned out when I slept in that double bed alone. .
For Patrick, this year was a year of escape. Leaving suddenly, closing the door of my heart suddenly, trying to make a clean break with the past to anesthetize myself. Don't think too much, don't face it, don't ask questions, in the displacement, restraint, forbearance, indulgence, abnormal, everything is just to relieve yourself. He thought that trying to leave, trying not to think about it, was to let go.
Before the meeting, Patrick would have fantasized to some extent that Kevin might still be in the shadow of his feelings. Or at least, he didn't have the heart to find a new love.
But when he heard that Kevin had found Jon, his face still couldn't hide his surprise. I didn't expect you to fall in love so soon. I didn't expect you to get back together with Jon.
But Patrick doesn't know that Kevin is not necessarily happy at this point. Walking back with Jon, it is not that he lost his way, and he is not once in the sea, but he was too afraid of being disappointed again, so he decided to stop wandering and simply settle down.
Kevin and Jon don't have much fiery love between them, some are just familiar with each other's habits. Relying on this familiarity, it is not enough to achieve something else, it is enough to go on together.
Love cannot be transferred. Kevin's love for Patrick will not be transferred to Jon because of Patrick's departure. The passion, the intimacy, the madness between Kevin and Patrick, because of Patrick's departure, it's locked, shelved, and abandoned.
Love is not charity either. Patrick's heart lock, Jon may not have the code to unlock it, this intimacy locked in Kevin's heart will have to wait for dust and rust in the future.
Patrick didn't know what Kevin was thinking. Kevin also complained that Patrick couldn't understand this. At the coffee table, Kevin couldn't stop his anger and resentment despite his utmost restraint. He was dissatisfied, unwilling, unwilling, and Patrick ended like this. The love he sent had not arrived at the mailing address and was returned intact. . Kevin still has a little bit of fantasy in his heart, fantasizing that Patrick has no coward this time, and is willing to take a risk for him.
Patrick's heart is also mixed. He wanted to love, but he couldn't believe it. So he thought, at least we can still be friends.
However, he didn't know that people who loved deeply separated, how could they still be friends. Seeing the man who lives in your heart and his lover flirting in front of you, how can you send your blessings sincerely and sincerely.
we could. I thought we could.
Patrick was woken up, only to find out that the couple they used to love couldn't even be friends. The joys, sweetness and troubles of living with him are not counted, not counted. Everything they had had to be written off. As if it never existed, never happened in this world, as if it didn't happen to him. This moment's awakening, the belated moment, made him stunned.
I created this love with my own hands, and in the end I destroyed it with my own hands.
Maybe many years later, when the white moonlight shines beside the bed, and there is a snort in his ear, Patrick turns to his side and thinks of the man who gave him unsafe sex for the first time, the man with the moonlight white The man with the round buttocks, the man with the sexy cinnabar areola. He would remember that in the same quiet night, his breath, his smell, led him into a dream like soft music.
Or Patrick appears in a loud party, listening to crazy music, eating Molly, dancing like crazy, in the bright lights, looking at the excited crowd, crazy faces, he will suddenly stop The swinging body, looking around blankly, turned a few corners in his heart, still thinking of Kevin. The man who really made him crazy, the first man he wanted to call to share his happiness.
All of this reminds Patrick that the past is not the past.
He may be wondering if Kevin misses himself like this. Whether Kevin will still have a corner of his heart and spare a few inches to insist for him. On the streets of London, is Kevin talking and laughing and burying this exotic yearning deeply and deeply, leaving no trace and showing no emotion.
He doesn't know anything. But he knew they couldn't go back.
Two Patrick & rickie
screenwriters let kevin finally come together with rickie.
But I don't think there will be much spark between Patrick and Rick. It may be enough for them to support each other and raise their eyebrows, but it is not enough for them to sway their hearts and minds.
Patrick is more like rickie, walking together because he is moved and tired. Or, they came together after a trade-off calculation. The gravitational force between them is not as natural and hot as the magnetic attraction between the north and south poles of Patrick and Kevin.
Most of those who support the PR party think that Rickie is a good person. In fact, a person like Rickie is a safe personality and can get along with anyone. A man with a strong desire for control like Brady can also talk about rickie for a year without being salty or light. It can be seen that rickie itself is not a picky person, and belongs to the person who will do whatever he encounters. If rickie is allowed to be with brady forever, it doesn't necessarily mean that rickie will be in so much pain. So it doesn't mean that richie is only a natural pair with Patrick.
On the contrary, as soon as Kevin and Patrick separated, they showed their own decadence. Even if Kevin invested in a new relationship, he was still indignant and unwilling. The happiness of the new relationship could not comfort him too much. Patrick's reaction was even greater, and he left the city where he had lived for ten years without saying goodbye. Without so much love, where can such a big decision come from.
Suppose that the same breakup happened to Patrick and rickie. For example, if rickie suddenly found out that rickie was very active in gay software, Patrick would also be extremely sad. It is never enough to say goodbye to the city in a fit of anger.
So Patrick and Kevin are the true love of the show. It's just that in life, true love does not always bloom and bear fruit. Flowering and fruiting often happens to meet a good time and good soil.
Patrick finally chose rickie. I don't think that's growing up. It's more of a compromise. It's because you don't want to work hard, don't want to look for it, don't want to get hurt again, and simply solve it in principle. This reflects the mental atrophy of a young man with a midlife crisis.
But tragedy still shatters good things for others to see. This is the writer's design. In life, two types of people like Kevin and Patrick each have obvious shortcomings, but if they rely on a little love for each other, they may be able to gradually eliminate some suspicion and distrust in the future. Maybe they would adapt well to each other.
Rickie's character is too much in line with traditional moral values. So the character will be recognized. But rickie is not so perfect. At the end of the play, rickie confesses that he has been with someone he doesn't love for a year. Such a sentence, almost negated all the feelings between him and Brady. In Brady's eyes, rickie is a veritable scumbag. Rickie is the scumbag who cheated on his relationship for a year. rickie and brady can be together, not out of love, just out of need. Rickie got hurt after breaking up with Patrick, and brady showed up, so accepted brady. Rickie is supposed to be a good guy, but love doesn't make extra bets because of who is nice to whom. Morality has almost lost the right to speak in the face of love. Kindness does not bring two people together.
In the end, in love, it is useless to care about right and wrong, winning or losing is what matters. However, there is no one who has not lost a lot of holes in love.
Three Patrick
patrick should have lacked love when he was a child, and his father was prejudiced against him. His sister wasn't particularly close to him either. From the first two seasons, we can see that the father is authoritative and perfectionist. Patrick and Brady's conflict, blurted out that he did not live up these standards, a large part of it is the complaint of neglecting his parents' emotions and his dissatisfaction with his sister's position. Both project to brady. Of course, Braddy's self-defense and sharp counterattack also added fuel to the fire, allowing Patrick to tilt out all his suppressed emotions.
Patrick is a typical anxious personality who is unwilling to give. Spiritual cleanliness, beginning with bottom shame, to monogamy, all have to make sure that love is 100% stable before landing. Never take risks. As soon as there is a gap, the first thought is to leave. This kind of person is entangled in their hearts, but in order to protect themselves, they choose to overthrow them and fly away. Why waste trying to do something if you know it won't work. After all, he has low self-esteem and pride, and he doesn't believe much in himself or in others. This kind of person is always afraid that a tragedy will happen, and always thinks it's useless for me to cherish you again. Could it be that I won't fail this time by holding you tight.
The lack of love and emotional neglect as a child made Patrick particularly sensitive to danger. At home, his parents asked him how to behave, including when he became an adult, his sister would still criticize, criticize, and angrily reprimand him for being a third party to interfere in Jon and Kevin's relationship. No one thought from his perspective. He really just wanted a love. My mother also pretended to be a good person for decades. She was tired and finally felt that she should live for herself, so she decided to divorce. In such a deeply lonely family, it is very difficult for Patrick to get love. The love he cannot get is always extra sensitive, he is easy to smell the crisis, and he is easy to lose confidence in the world, so he generally does not fight with the world. , When there is a problem, the first one is not to change, but to try to escape, not to try to solve the problem. So when he found out that Kevin was not the imaginary lover in his heart, the image of Kevin in his heart collapsed, and he felt deceived, betrayed, and isolated. Inferiority and fear made him choose to flee as soon as possible. He is afraid of being abandoned and the tragedy of the family will repeat itself, so he wants to control, and he first ends the relationship in exchange for taking the initiative. By ending it with my own hands, I have proved my assumption that we could not work out.
He was afraid of the feeling of sadness, so he stopped it first. In intimate relationships, Patrick is insecure. Extreme fear of being abandoned, of this feeling of helplessness. This time, he's going to end it. He chooses to escape, chooses to end this method to make himself better. This sudden withdrawal is undoubtedly self-abuse in disguise.
But fortunately, Patrick looked good, and when he came back, there were rickie and Kevin.
Director Andrew is still kind enough to care for and support the love in the gay world. In real life, often, Patrick comes back suddenly, Kevin is already with Jon, and rickie and brady are also in chemistry. In real life, it is very likely that the two choices he once hesitated have slipped away. In the end, neither Bai Yueguang nor Cinnabar Mole got it.
This kind of person also stumbles in love. When love comes, he will be afraid of losing it. Such a person will spend his life learning how to love. But Patrick is lucky, he happens to be loved by two people he likes, and sometimes it's a sweet trouble to choose which one. But in life, not so many people have so many choices, and not so many people can meet a person they like and like themselves.
Patrick ended up with rickie. Maybe stop looking. But he was never responsible, and as soon as he found a problem, he ran away. I don't want to be responsible. This kind of person often can only fall in love for a short time, and will be dissatisfied for a long time. Unless Patrick can really change himself, or adjust himself.
As for how to love, many people spend their whole lives learning, hitting the wall, exploring, and cultivating. But not everyone can eventually learn to love. If you are lucky enough to meet someone who lets you not need to practice how to love, you are the luckiest.
But in the final analysis, people's life is long is suffering, short is love.
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