"The only way to stop the chaos is to face reality."
Since when, it is difficult to express even my own emotions. Things to say are cluttered and crumpled dry, things to be done are swayed by mindless pleasure, and the daily checklist is never fully ticked. At first I wanted to pretend not to be so stupid anymore, but it became easier and easier to blurt out unthoughtful expressions, and I was slow to respond to things I didn’t understand, so I was often overwhelmed. Begin to seek more attention, frequently click into various social software, in order to have more red dots and forget that the original intention is to improve your ability. Tell yourself every day that tomorrow is a new beginning, and then repeat the same mistakes tomorrow. Why am I afraid to face myself, why fear gradually engulfs me, and why, just like now, I still despise my own words and myself who can't do anything.
When self-expectations are too high, motivation becomes a hindrance. Or I lived calmly, without the wake-up call of Xi's shot, and I was tired of running. Or do I forget that life is an exciting adventure and dare not go into the water to find that ship. Or, have I lost my curiosity about the world, blindly rejected viewpoints that do not fit my position, and got into the information cocoon that I knitted myself? No, at least the previous sentence is wrong, I'm not rejecting it, I'm just afraid to admit my ignorance, I want to pretend to be a powerful adult, I'm overwhelmed by the previous compliments, and I can't find a heart that both belittles and elevates myself to its own place, but I don't want to go on like this, I want to set it up, see it red with enthusiasm, and beat with novelty, save it from the brink of death, before I have to face society When judging, I first judge myself correctly.
When people around me were surprised that I chose not to take the postgraduate entrance examination, when someone explained that I could not endure hardship, when someone persuaded me with the gold content of postgraduate study, I just wanted to say to myself, I will not regret it later, but I know the path I want. I want to read many, many books, watch many, many movies, take many, many photos, meet many, many viewpoints, and meet many, many people. I want to seek a life that is different from most people, not compromising, not going with the flow, loving what I love, giving everything its meaning. Bravely fight against the law of increasing entropy, even if the process is difficult, even if it is not perfect at times, but don't be afraid, just take one step, and then take it one step at a time. I am better today than I was yesterday. Like Yang Qihan, ask yourself every night what you have learned today. I can't write anymore, this terrible article, as a starting point for a fresh start, I will save it bit by bit.
My life is the result of my own choice, so now I will swear my dominance.
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