I am not okay with This Chinese name "It's Not What I Wish", the play was adapted from Charles S. Fu Sman's new series of comics of the same name. This configuration of the production team has already added a lot of points to the show.
When the film starts, maybe you think this is not another "Fuck Him* World"?
Are these two dramas similar? There will indeed be some.
First of all, the color scheme of the movie quickly makes you feel the retro and nostalgic style. The colorful tones make you immediately return to the vibrant youthful memories, and every frame of the screenshot can be a good wallpaper.
The protagonist of the story is also the underage boys and girls. Only this time it was a cute boy and a grumpy girl.
Stanley and Shine, like James and Alyssa, their native family has a broken side, and life seems to be a bit sad, and sometimes it makes people want to escape from it all.
The inner core is still exploring what you really are in adolescence, exploring the ignorance of adolescence, the complicated relationship with the family, and learning to reach a reconciliation with your heart.
But in fact, when I look at "It's Not What I Wish" as "Fuck Him*'s World", it's a little different.
They are actually quite different.
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The beginning of the film begins with the heroine Xini's account of the diary "Dear Diary...". The diary symbolizes a kind of privacy and privacy. Xi Ni’s straightforward self-reporting allows you to enter the secret corner of her heart from the very beginning. No matter what position you are in, this setting suddenly gets closer. The distance between you and her, enter the perspective of this teenage girl to observe the world she lives in.
In the eyes of outsiders, Xi Ni is a boring and unobtrusive 17-year-old girl. Even if the class reunion invites the whole class, she will be forgotten. And her friend Dina is a very popular girl in school. These two very different people are best friends. As the dialogue between Xi Ni and the diary gradually unfolded, our understanding of Xi Ni also deepened. Dina was the first person she met in this small town. She didn't alienate Xiny because of her weirdness. Instead, she took the initiative to approach and play together, becoming the important person to accompany each other in their growth.
When her only friend fell in love, Shini felt she had been ignored and returned to the state of loneliness a long time ago. But it's not just that.
Because of her father's suicide, Xi Ni became a child of a single-parent family. Also because of the departure of her father, the relationship between her and her mother is often in a tense state. Although they always avoid topics related to her father, Xi Ni hopes her mother can talk to her and wonders why her father chose to do so. End yourself.
Because the mother has to bear two children alone, she is often busy and tired. She often asks her to take care of her younger brother. She often expresses dissatisfaction with her, and feels like she has become a mother. But the younger brother is very well-behaved and sensible, and often eases the relationship between mother and sister.
In this state, Shini met Stanley, a strange but cute boy nearby. Stanley has a wild imagination, likes to listen to unpopular but nice songs, and can always be positive and optimistic about life. It is completely opposite to Xini. In this way, they gradually came together and started an ignorant love relationship.
But Xi Ni felt that she was starting to be a little different.
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The existence of the diary allows Xi Ni's inner world to be shown in front of you. It turns out that she is not boring, but is really different. "When I'm angry, bad things happen." The thoughts triggered by the angry emotions allow Xi Ni to shut up Dina's annoying boyfriend's nosebleed; she can stare at the bread machine and the toast will automatically Popped out; when a person is in the room, a big crack can be made in the wall.
She likes Stanley, not between men and women, just like him as a good friend. At a class reunion, Xi Ni kissed her good friend Dina. At that moment, she suddenly understood her heart. She liked Dina. At this time, Xi Ni was at a loss in the face of her "identity" and "emotional cognition".
Xi Ni was scared and overwhelmed by these changes, so she could only tell her diary. This kind of inner monologue expression, the state of adolescence that no one understands and has nowhere to talk is well explained. Teenagers seem to have lost the channel of communication with the outside world at a certain period of their growth. They feel incomprehensible to the world just as the world cannot understand them. This kind of self-talking state appears from time to time, allowing you to enter Xi Ni's heart while constantly jumping out into the real environment, looking for a certain lonely and helpless substitution and identification of adolescence in this internal and external interaction.
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Can't tell her true feelings, can't choose her own family, and be treated as a strange girl. All of this seems to have reached the tipping point of the outbreak. The super power in Xi Ni's body also became stronger and stronger.
Superpower is like the resistance to everything that is bad in reality. Resistance to the inability to choose is an opportunity to break all orders and constraints and find new outlets. When Xi Ni could not control this energy, it also heralded that her life was about to undergo new changes. How to change from the "old me" to the "new me", how to solve this uncontrollable everything, I believe there will be an answer in the second season.
Write at the end
Growth is a process of finding oneself. How to deal with your imperfect self, and what to do when facing everything you can't choose. Exploring one's own heart, becoming strong and brave, having a firm inner strength, is also an exit and growth against all of this. We have also become a "new self" in a sense.
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