I remember reading Melville’s short story "Bartleby Scribe": Scribe Bartleby was thin, pale, listless, and indifferent. Later, he died suddenly in prison. Later, someone learned that his occupation was a death letter. normal staff. Dead letters are those letters that cannot be delivered. They are burned in a concentrated manner when they accumulate to a certain amount. Bartleby sometimes looks at a remittance slip that occasionally falls out of the letter, but it can no longer be delivered to the person who may be waiting for it to save his life. Sometimes looking at a ring in the ashes that has not melted, it is like an unreachable promise that has never been worn on the hand of a lover.
It is usually said that this novel is written as a personality abnormality caused by the oppression of capitalist civilization, but perhaps like the author’s final "Ah, humanity, ah, loneliness!" With emotion, the social environment is indeed the inducement of Bartleby’s abnormal personality. The fragility and sensitivity in human nature is the root of his deep loneliness, because the long-term face of the impermanence of life in disguise inevitably makes people contaminated with despair until the vitality is exhausted.
The death letter is nothing more than a deformed death, which means that a certain connection is helplessly interrupted because of the impermanence of the world, and those occupations directly related to death can even oppress people's nerves. I forgot about Zhang Ailing’s novel. It was about a girl who was engaged to a doctor. The girl fell ill and lived in the hospital where her fiance worked. The fiance eventually retired from her and found a plump object. Talking about marriage and marrying, the girl’s father replied with understanding: It’s no wonder he found a fat man and stayed in a place like a hospital all day long. Although the words are vulgar, they also hit the nail on the head. People who are too close to death need some fresh life to inject energy. Therefore, Daigo Kobayashi, who has just seen the dead body for the first time and vomits when he returns home, will eagerly and his wife after returning home. To make love, he needs to use desire to resist the despair of death.
There are many similar examples. For example, in "Green Tea", the girl Lang Lang’s mother was a funeral home worker, and her husband refused to eat her cooking and asked her to do anything and wear gloves. The example I encountered in my life is , An aunt’s daughter worked in Babaoshan after graduation but couldn’t find her boyfriend, and finally had to be transferred. Perhaps instinctive people have a sense of uncleanness for such occupations, and this sense of uncleanness stems from the inner fear of death. To resist this fear requires tremendous vitality.
The reason why Kobayashi Daigou was able to persevere all the time was because he respected death, but in fact it was his fear of life. This kind of awe nourishes his courage to face death. Because only a person who has enough reverence for life can understand how cruel death is, and how to show respect to a person who has survived despite the hardships and twists and then died cleanly, and to the life that is left behind. Compassion can accurately and calmly grasp the sense of ritual to send off life. Flocks of birds and fish swimming under the water are interspersed in the constant death scenes in the movie. It faintly tells the strange reasons why all kinds of characters persist in surviving, and the plot of Kobayashi’s wife’s pregnancy is all using a kind of vitality. In the fight against death, the plot conveyed by the last stone is a beautiful will to try to convey vitality.
Many people’s funerals are accompanied by crying and laughing. The little girl smiled and put on stockings for her grandmother and said BYEBYE. The old lady left a lipstick mark on the face of the dead husband while laughing and crying and saying thank you. The scene was like a The end of the party planned the start of another party, and everyone was able to meet again soon. Death in a smile does not lose its due seriousness, but makes people feel the beauty of life. The vitality is passed between crying and laughing. After all, it is also very happy to say goodbye to the loved one. One thing?
Seeing those people who were muttering "Look at the last face" over and over again, I felt in a daze that when they watched it, they would think that it was a game they used to play with their father in childhood: he lay there motionless. , You shake him and he still doesn't move, you are scared, but he suddenly opened his eyes, so you immediately become happy and hug him and fight. But this person who is lying down really won't open his eyes and laugh and hug you in his arms anymore, a door will be closed forever. Shouldn't you just laugh when you are crying? At least, just like the stone of Xiaolin, it is a real existence. It is gently put in the hand and held tightly in the palm. You have also been literally embraced in your arms.
PS: As a husband, Xiao Lin, his loneliness lies in the scars of his childhood, while the loneliness of his wife lies in the fact that the husband did not tell her about the scars. So the loneliness syndrome spreads like this: when you are alone, you will leave the world behind you, and the world behind you is also lonely because you abandoned it, so the whole world is lonely together.
So everyone don't gritted their teeth and lonely when doing good deeds.
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