"What do I mean to you?"

Constantin 2021-12-22 08:01:19

Some people have been searching all their lives, but the last thing they found was nothing but nothingness.

He fell in love with him.

His name was Mike and he was a male prostitute. He was poor and abandoned. He was the son of an incestuous mother and brother. He often fainted and convulsed. However, he has good-looking eyes and is so clear that he will laugh at the hares on the roadside. Every time he faints, he will see the clouds flying by, the jumping fish, the white house, and he will see his mother stroking him. His soft blond hair kept saying to him: "It's OK, everything will be all right." Then he would wake up in Scott's arms and look at his equally beautiful face.

His name is Scott, who is also a male prostitute, but Different. He is the mayor’s son. He is from a wealthy family and loved by someone. In order to humiliate his father, he became a male prostitute, took nude photos, and mixed with male prostitutes, homeless men, and hidden gentlemen all day long. He was heterosexual. You can get out at any time and return to the upper class, wearing a three-piece suit. He said he loves Bob more than his father. He said Mike is his best friend.

Mike fell in love with Scott.

By the campfire, Mike I didn't dare to look at Scott's face, but muttered some intermittent sentences: "What do I mean to you?...I know it's your friend. It's great to be a friend... "He was just shy and afraid of rejection. Who would have thought that a male prostitute would be so serious and incoherent? Scott said, "I make love to a man for money. Two men can't love each other." Mike continued, "I don't know, I It means that for me, I can love someone, even if it’s not for money. I love you, and you don’t have to pay me. I want to kiss you very much. Good night." Then he buried his head deeply, Before being rejected, I first rejected myself. Seeing this, do you feel distressed and familiar? Such a terrible confession.

Scott took Mike all the way to find his mother, from Portland to Seattle, from Idaho to Italy. Scott is still very handsome and proud, riding a stolen motorcycle. Mike still faints and twitches from time to time. Scott woke up in his arms, wearing his coat, and the road under his feet no longer seemed endless.

In Italy, they didn't find Mike's mother, but found the love that Scott was willing to return to "normal life" for. "Normal", the two have also discussed before. Mike said: "If I have a normal family and good education, then I will be a person of normal personality." Scott said, "It depends on what you think is normal." You know, there is a father, a mother, and a dog. "It's not that Mike doesn't know the feelings between Scott and the girl, otherwise he would not spit out smoke rings at her at the dinner table, and he himself hates others the most. Smoke rings spit on his face.

Early that morning, Mike saw the girl crying, so he stepped forward slightly. She looked a little sad. Mike said, "I understand how you feel." She said, "I miss me It's in love. "Yes, yes, of course he understands, but he doesn't look sad. Even the next day, Scott divides the money from the motorcycle sale to him, and then leaves and never comes back. He still looks unhappy. Sadness. There is also sex with different men, and the life of sleeping on the street, and the childhood abandoned by his parents, and, and... he still does not seem to be sad. There will still be no warning He fainted, but he won't wake up in Scott's arms again, and won't wear his coat again. It doesn't matter, life goes on.

Later, the two met again at the funeral. Scott attended his father’s funeral. He inherited a large sum of his father’s inheritance and took the Italian girl. He escaped from the previous quagmire life and wore a three-piece high-end suit. Sitting there cleanly, listening to the pastor reciting the eulogy. Mike was attending Bob's funeral. This thief who was regarded as the father of the soul by Scott, the hidden gentleman, the king of words tried to say hello to Scott the night before. Rejected. Mike still didn't look sad, just different from the noisy friends around him. He sat there quietly, smelling a fake sunflower, and then, walking through the crowd, he saw Scott. He didn't know how he looked. Did Scott think of Mike's terrible confession at the campfire, did he think of the time on the road, did he think of Mike's unpredictable fainting...At the campfire, Mike said, "I really want to kiss you" , But what Scott gave in the end was just a hug. Knowing that he would leave after all, Mike still couldn’t see the sadness and his life continued.

Finally, Mike stood on the highway in Idaho, which he thought was like a fucked-up face. , Fainted again, before he said: "I am an expert on the road, I have tasted the taste of the road all my life, this road... never ends. "Loneliness is such a similar thing, but I don’t know what will happen next time I wake up. Who is it. I

really like to play Mike's River Phoenix. He was 21 years old when he played this movie. With Mike's role he won the best actor at the Venice Film Festival. Two years later, he passed out at Johnny Depp due to drug overdose. At the door of the bar, I never woke up again.

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My Own Private Idaho quotes

  • Scott Favor: Getting away from everything feels good.

    Mike Waters: Yeah, it does.

    Scott Favor: When I left home, the maid asked me where I was off to. I said "Wherever. Whatever. Have a nice day."

    Mike Waters: You had a maid. If I had a normal family, and a good up-bringing, then I would have been a well-adjusted person.

    Scott Favor: It depends on what you call normal.

    Mike Waters: Yeah, it does. Well, you know. Normal. Like a mom and a dad and a dog, and shit like that. Normal. Normal.

    Scott Favor: So, you didn't have a normal dog?

    Mike Waters: No, I didn't have a dog.

    Scott Favor: Didn't... or... didn't have a normal dad?

    Mike Waters: Didn't have a dog or a normal dad anyway, yeah. That's alright. I don't feel sorry for myself. I mean, I feel like I'm... I feel like I'm... you know... well-adjusted.

  • Mike Waters: This is a nice home. Do you live here?... I don't blame you.