"You are the reason I am."

Deron 2021-10-13 13:05:37

The sun finally shines into the west window at the brightest moment, brushing the black and white photos of blooming flowers, falling on the soft yellow cashmere quilt, just behind me, so casually stretched, using some beautiful words and ideas to relax. Captured me, such as light, such as hope, such as a nap in the afternoon, such as reading a book on a thick and soft cushion. The tears on the corners of my eyes have not yet dried, and I am still immersed in the lonely world of Josh Nash. The warm light in the afternoon makes people dizzy so timely.

"A Beautiful Mind" recently came into my sight again because of the last comment of bbs, because of the sentence "You are the reason I am." For some people, life needs to live out of self, need Understand their true inner needs; for some people, the always capitalized "I" seems to mock the eternal loneliness. God is fair, it reminds you to ask more "whys", it gives you the ability to constantly get answers and search for questions, and keeps you searching on that road, it also makes it possible for you to lose in darkness, Because the unknown light is too dazzling, it can make people blind, can not see where they are, and forget God must be a painter. Otherwise, how can there be so many colors in this world?

"I'm always believe in numbers, in the equations and logics that lead to reason. But after a lifetime of such pursuits, I ask, what truly is logic? Who decides reason? My quest has taken me through the physical, the metaphysical , the delusional, and back, and I have made the most important discovery in my career, the most important discovery in my life: it's only in the mysterious equations of love, that any logical reasons can be found. I'm only here tonight because of you. You are the reason I am. You are all my reasons."

Everything changes, Time Changes, Love changes. When one day, the silly star-watching person with you starts talking to himself in the air, when one day he said, "Get out of here, I do have mental problems, I can’t guarantee It will hurt you. When he is completely immersed in his own world and stubbornly excludes you, you know he loves you or he once loved you, but he still can't get out of his lonely world, will you stay? The person you love is no longer the man you married, you are not a little girl, you watch him cry, you wait, you are helpless, you bear it, you are angry, you shine, but it seems that you can never be his sun, You can’t see hope. What is it? You can let her stay and tell him that you and I are real, and our hearts are real. There are some problems that can never be solved with our brains, but See everything clearly with our hearts.

People who are too smart, too accustomed to relying on their own minds, often forget where their hearts are beating. I think Nash has always been in love with his wife, deep down in his heart, but he separates his mind from his heart, and allows his love and his truth to operate independently. In the process of persistently searching for a reason, he always thinks he is himself It is lonely, although in fact it is not, because people's thoughts and feelings can never be completely divided. It's just that he is blinded by some light, like a naughty child, just looking at the flying kite, but knowing he is getting farther and farther away from home.

Alicia must be his angel, although she doesn't understand those complicated numbers and logic. But I have always believed that all the beauty in this world is essentially the same. There are so many beautiful colored glass balls under the candlelight, making people feel that his heart, although childlike and naughty, but so sincere and clear, I don't know, I just believe. I am a very dull child, like Like the male protagonist, he likes to repeatedly verify whether the relationship exists and whether we are still in love, until one day someone writes, "Emotion is the most wonderful thing. If you believe it, it will exist. If you don't believe it, it will disappear." From then on. I ran out of this sentence from time to time, took a walk in my mind and turned back. I didn’t understand it all. It’s just like a child who just learned to speak and chanted a few words from time to time. It didn’t matter very much, I just felt that it had something to do with me. Just when love is the superstition of the right time and place, and because of "you are here", the only thing we can be sure of is that we can't be sure whether the relationship will change or whether the two people will last forever. Mathematicians can't solve forever with logic. Fortunately, the artist paved the threshold of marriage proposal with feeling and intuition, and supported it with her endless love like sea water.

In the eyes of many people, their love and marriage are a bit strange. He is weird, but she can accept all his weirdness, because she is that kind of person, I don't know, I just believe. She can feel his heart, can feel the beauty in his heart, she can't see The world in his eyes, but she firmly believes in feelings and feelings, and that love is real and that each other is real, so he can definitely return to reality. Let's try it tomorrow. Every tomorrow is worth looking forward to, because I can't let go of the softness of my heart, can't let go of that person, can't let go of the fragile, lonely but beautiful child. In fact, they are fighting side by side. Love has given him the strength and courage to face his other world, to face the darkness and loneliness in human nature, to face the addictive poison, and to face the imaginary one. A world that can meet his own inner needs, and his combat behavior gives Alicia the motivation to persist. There is no "perpetual motion machine" in this world, but there can be a cycle of love that lasts forever.
People changes, Love changes. However, it doesn't matter, because "You are the reason I am." In the past, present, and future, all changes are inseparable from you.
Love is impulsive, disturbing, exciting, upturning, and exhausting.
Love can also make people quiet, make people think, make people feel at ease, have the power to sleep peacefully in the dark, make people go beyond the humbleness and vanity of human nature, have the courage to face the ordinary, face the truth, and defend happiness.
There is no logical reason for love and feeling.
But people who do not have love and feeling can truly not appreciate the meaning of life, nor can they find the so-called truth if it exists in this world.

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A Beautiful Mind quotes

  • John Nash: And then, on the way home, Charles was there again. Sometimes I miss talking to him. Maybe Rosen is right. Maybe I have to think about going back to the hospital.

    Alicia Nash: Maybe try again tomorrow.

  • General: You ever... just know something, Dr. Nash?

    Nash: Constantly.