"I don't want you to know who I am"
“I am just not ready for my whole world to change”
Simon found out that he liked boys at the age of thirteen, but this awareness was always vague, so that he had always been cautious and could not be honest with him, because it was a secret. It wasn't until Blue showed up that Simon finally opened up, and they encouraged each other to share their secrets. Simon gradually fell in love with blue, and his words and deeds affected Simon. No matter how distressed, Simon finally announced to his family that he came out of the closet. This is a change! As Simon himself said, the reason why he is really timid and afraid to say it is not his identity as a comrade, but it is quite scary to declare the real you to the world, because what if the world doesn't like you? Being gay doesn't bring him any sense of shame, and the reason why he's trying so hard to cover it up is because he's tired of change
"Being a comrade will last forever. Part of me wants to stick to being who I have always been, and stick to it a little longer."
Deep down, he knew that his family and friends would readily accept it, but he did not dare to declare to the world that he knew that once he broke through that point, his seemingly normal life would forever be destroyed, and he was afraid of other people's alternative vision and fear. Change, he is so tired, he has been living in disguise, repressed, repressed... As Simon's mother said, being gay is your business, and some things can only be experienced by you alone , I hate that. You're still you Simon, now you can relax, you can be more like yourself than you were before, you've been like that for too long, you deserve everything you want" Simon said when he first came out that I was gay, and I don't want you guys to feel any different, I am still me!
He didn't want everyone to treat him with tinted glasses. After the announcement, all kinds of complex emotions were intertwined, with ease, fear, worry, pressure... Martin leaked the email on the campus network, which touched Simon's nerves even more. I'm ready to be honest with everyone, but it's all taken away from others, and they're not qualified to do these things.
Simon finally came out. He affirmed his gay identity, overcame the fear of change, and bravely faced the comments of his friends, family, and people around him. This is the real Simon in his heart. All for being yourself.
This is Liya's inner monologue, and secret love is actually a sweet torture.
I love her so I don't talk to her.
I spy on her so as not to meet her.
- Kafka, "Breaking Thoughts"
"What would you do if you were confessed by someone you didn't like?"
"It's like listening to someone talking about dreams, isn't it? You can only answer 'That's it'."
Sometimes I feel like I am stuck on a Ferris wheel .One minute I am on top of the world the next I am at rock bottom. Over and over ,all day long.
This is the inner cry of a gay person, only gay people need to come out, why is heterosexuality the default? I don't think everyone can accept it readily, but everyone has to learn to respect, who said that heterosexuality is normal and homosexuality is abnormal? If the world was turned upside down, would you think heterosexuality would be disgusting and unacceptable?
You are who you are! "If there is anything happy about life, that is, even if something unbearably sad happens, you will regain your smile one day in the future."
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