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Gradually igniting flames, frantically turning film, flickering characters, man's genitals, cartoons from cassettes, tender little hands, eerie silent films, crawling spiders, bleeding goats, nailed palms, three Two empty shots, a cut-wrist old woman with wrinkles covering her face, and a thin teenager with a white cloth covering her body. He got up and opened a book. He gently stroked the face of the woman on the big screen with his hand, it was her for a while, her eyes for a while, and he closed his eyes lightly for a while.
At the beginning of the film, there are many seemingly meaningless shots, and by showing a group of unusual pictures, it is a metaphor for something. If you want to come to life, it is originally composed of countless fragmented fragments. Due to the complexity and variability among them, the individual who seeks the meaning of existence through life must be unfathomable. The difference of each individual creates a difference in the way he sees things, but its ultimate purpose is nothing more than to prove the value of his own existence through hard work. In this process, human beings are not only good at inserting abstract meanings into concrete life, but also eager to share this experience and experience of continuous efforts with others. It seems that only by being certified by others, what you hear and feel is real and meaningful. Obviously, Emma is such a person.
After three months of hospital physiotherapy, Elizabeth's mental illness is still progressing. Under the doctor's advice, Emma and Elizabeth went to the summer cottage by the sea. After the vacation-like journey began, the relationship between the two apparently grew a lot closer. At the beach, Emma read the dialogue from the book for Elizabeth, and Elizabeth also smiled thoughtfully. Perhaps it was Elizabeth's unusual silence that inspired Emma's expressiveness, and Emma always liked to share her thoughts with Elizabeth. She confided her beliefs, her firmness to ideals, her enthusiasm for her career, and that she believed that the value of a person lies in the same thing from the end; she also confided her love, even though she had been with her boyfriend for many years, although she was always loyal to him, The relationship between the two is still unstable, which makes her miserable; she even confides in an absurd experience on the beach where she had sex with strange boys and got pregnant and had an abortion, but she denied that her mind and body were unified. With that said, Emma's emotions gradually became out of control, and she plunged into Elizabeth's arms and cried bitterly. At that moment, Emma must have thought that she and Elizabeth had reached some kind of emotional interaction. Compared to keeping the pain in her heart and no one cares about it, it was obviously a better thing to be able to have a drink and have a good time, so she said that she felt it. A warm and wonderful like never before.
actually not. Even if Emma hadn't peeked at Elizabeth's letter to the doctor, even if she didn't know that in Elizabeth's eyes, she was just a tool to feel loved, the so-called talk in her eyes was just a one-way vent of wishful thinking from beginning to end. Although this is indeed an almost cruel self-dissection, when she was finally able to dig out the cancer deep in her heart and spread it out in front of another unrelated person, she was talking The moment of completion reaches spiritual self-fullness. This process has nothing to do with Elizabeth, so Elizabeth does not need to say a word or give her any response during the whole process, all she needs is an object to set off her emotions. So much so that Emma would have the illusion that she and Elizabeth were so similar. In the illusion, she heard Elizabeth's care and felt Elizabeth's comfort. Essentially, it wasn't Elizabeth, or anyone else, who was sitting across from her, but herself.
Through that letter, Emma realized that Elizabeth only saw herself as a research object. Even if Elizabeth had a little mercy from God's perspective in the process of getting along, the undertone of this attitude was still indifference. After dawn, Elizabeth neither admitted that she had spoken nor admitted that she had been to Emma's room, her eyes were innocent as if she had never witnessed the hysteria of the previous night. She even judged Emma without any burden in her letter to the doctor, while taking Emma's trust and favor as a matter of course, she regarded Emma's pain as a good medicine to heal herself. In the end, no one could give Emma the answer she wanted, just as no one had ever listened to her.
After begging Elizabeth to speak to no avail, Emma began to ask her angrily: "You don't understand my feelings at all, I think great artists have the greatest compassion for human beings, and their creations come from a deep compassion for themselves and their compassion. Demand, that's stupid... don't lie, tell me the truth, is it that hard to talk in a genuine tone? Aside from lies, excuses, and indifference, can't you talk any other way? Allow yourself to be lazy and Wouldn't it be better to lie?" At this time, Emma didn't know that it was not that Elizabeth was heartless, but that she saw this point earlier than Emma, she saw the uselessness of words earlier than Emma, and understood people Ineffective communication with people. Pain, sadness, despair, relief, once these emotions have nothing to do with themselves, no matter how profound they are, they become meaningless. So do facts and truth matter? For other people, they can neither empathize with you nor relieve your pain. That being the case, it seems to be meaningless to talk and listen.
"A hopeless nightmare, not on the surface, but on the essence. Every waking moment is always on alert, the war between the two... What other people think of you and who you really are. A feeling of vertigo, An abiding desire to be finally exposed. To be seen through, to be knocked down...even to be overwhelmed. Every deceitful saying, every fake look, every bitter smile...suicide? That's inconceivable, You don't do that. But you can be silent and sit still, so that at least you don't have to lie. You can close yourself up and shut the world out. That way you don't have to play any roles, make any fake expressions and gestures. You That's what you think, but the reality is cruel. Your hiding place isn't airtight, it's full of life's deceptions. You have to react, no one cares if you're telling the truth or lying, that It's something that matters only in the theater, or not even there." The doctor sees through the crux of Elizabeth's silence from the start, and she knows even Emma's personality well. Matching the two to coexist and acquiescing to Elizabeth's use of Emma, perhaps this is also a doctor's experiment. In her opinion, two people with complementary personalities can finally reach a reconciliation in getting along and confronting each other.
"I don't speak, I don't listen, I don't understand... This means, I can't... use it to listen." From this later film, the communication between the two became extremely abstract, and the form of expression was extremely obscure. From the blurring of the boundary between reality and dream, to the point of view of not being able to tell whether it is you or me, Emma finally touched Elizabeth's cancer. Emma seemed to have regained the right to speak. Since Elizabeth herself refused to talk about it, she would be very happy to dissect herself instead of Elizabeth. However, trying to force other people's secret privacy, trying to impose their own ideas, these overstepping behaviors will eventually backfire on both sides. So, in the process of repeatedly pressing Elizabeth, Emma herself was so miserable that she could not find a way out. They sat at opposite ends of the table, like the tragic wailing of two irreconcilable sides of a person's character confronting each other. In the end, Elizabeth bit Emma's wrist, and Emma slapped Elizabeth wildly as she struggled, and the two finally broke free for their fragile mask.
Lies and impersonations are inescapable in the world, so pure self-disclosure is pretty stupid and useless. In addition to finding value, human growth is also a process of gradually covering up one's own desires and likes and dislikes in front of others. Rather than relying on others to be the yardstick for her progress, it is better to be like Emma. Although she has been stripped and betrayed, she can still carry her bags and run away bravely after she wakes up. At this moment, she can be Emma, it can be Elizabeth, she doesn't need to talk to others, no need to compromise with others, put on a mask, she can be any one of you and me.
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