Some people get stuck because they don't want to come out yet.
(Three viewings, two easy drafts)
There are many people in the comment area who are puzzled and even disgusted that the heroine forcibly intrudes and changes the hero's life. I think, either he missed some clips and lines when he slipped, or he just couldn't understand the passion and love for the time being.
It doesn't matter, movies are a matter of opinion, you don't understand them, but I understand you. Because the male protagonist also went through a process from indifference to rejection to total acceptance. This process seems to be a self-salvation, allowing him to re-comprehend the meaning of life.
There is no one who does not yearn for love, but some people actively pursue it, and some people deliberately hide it.
I may not have fully understood it, but I also experienced a somewhat similar story, who is not very similar to the male lead. I used to think that I was born mature and should be taciturn. Like the male protagonist, I think the advantage of being indifferent is that I ignore you and you naturally don't bother me, so that you can avoid a lot of unnecessary troubles.
Until I met a sunny girl who walked with me for a few hours on a summer night, I was surprised that life can still be like this, made me start to change my stubborn views, let me start to believe in myself again, start Re-accepting the world was such a relief that I felt like I had never had a better day in my life before. So it's not an exaggeration for Ying Liang to say to Haruki that I have been meeting you for the past 17 years. Because I was 21 years old that year.
After watching it for the first time, it seemed that I was still standing under the warm sun of spring, with telephone poles, signboards, streets, cherry blossoms... But I could not feel a trace of temperature, no matter the weather or warmth, I seemed to be standing in the endless void.
I thought I was exhausted and couldn't afford to write this review. But I forgot that thinking does not consume physical strength. It's like there is always something to be excreted from the body, and there are some things that need to be said in the heart. Otherwise, I will be like a anxious child, numb to everything and sensitive to everything. Not for anything else, if it's because I can't find anyone to talk to, I can only hold it in my heart and let it be slowly forgotten by me reluctantly, I'm really sorry for myself.
I wrote in a long review I wrote earlier, "If a movie really touches me, I won't watch it again for a while, or watch it again for a few days. Several times", it seems to have become a habit to write a long review of the movie that got me into it, because this kind of melancholy feeling lost after watching the movie and immersing in the movie must be slowly dissipated through the pouring of thousands of words. Many years ago I found the true meaning of my writing, which is "talking to my future self", and so is my long review. So it's too long and nobody sees it, I'm already used to it.
In the past, if I was hesitant about whether a movie was worth five stars, it was because even though it moved me, there was still something unsatisfactory in it. After all, a movie is a whole, a living art, in addition to the story, there is also audio-visual. And after watching this movie, I gave it full marks without hesitation, because it is a very good work from any point of view. It both soothes my eyes and touches my heart.
Let's talk about lighting first. Just as the weather can sometimes affect a person's mood, lighting can in many cases change the tone of the entire movie. The use of light in the whole film is bright and soft, as if the whole film is covered with extremely soft light, even if it is cloudy, it is very gentle, like a layer of sweet honey, which seems to make people forget the sadness, Totally immersed in happiness with warmth. In those backlit moments, it seems that the white light on the screen attracts me, like the entrance to the kingdom of heaven. I take one step and I can return to the carefree time in the dreamland. I stretch out my hand and grasp the memory in my memory. Shade and warm sun. That summer afternoon wind blew again, the rustling sound rang again, the leaves were swaying with golden light, and everything I could see was my future. But I was just looking forward to it, never thought that I would become what I am now. It was as if he never imagined that she would come in, leave, leave a smile that could never be erased, and a brand new self before he met her.
Besides the picture, the picture of the whole film is very fresh and delicate, and the details are perfect, whether it is the blush of nails, eyes, cheeks, or the luster of objects, the folds of clothes, all are very natural. And the fireworks that night were so beautiful. Long silence, sudden eagerness, fireworks blooming in slow motion, layer after layer of brilliant colors, and then a grand vista overlooking, singing unbridled. And this movie finally depicts high school very much into life. The noise in the corridor, the discussion in the classroom, and the consciously mature behavior of young and young children are all empathetic. The portrayal of the characters is not entirely based on imagination. High school students should have a sense of solidity in body shape, a little old-fashioned innocence in thinking and performance, and a little bit of frankness in the world. And the production team has never forgotten that this is still a group of children, and at the same time, it shows the sensuality and thinness that are unique to children just right. In particular, the heroine Yamauchi Sakura can be innocent and innocent like a girl, but also gentle and generous like a young woman. What kind of clothes do you wear in what status, what do you do in what scene, the production team gave her extra care. . But no matter which one it is, it will undoubtedly show her sunny and positive temperament. Before every conscious mention of the illness in the movie, it even made me feel that the off-screen me was more like a dying person than she was on-screen, as if she was here to accompany me through the last short and regretless journey.
In addition to the pictures, the soundtrack is also a master-level work. The rhythm is firmly controlled. When it is cheerful, you will smile uncontrollably. When it is hurried, you must run nervously, and when it is low, you must cry with heartache. The most graphic soundtrack is in the barbecue shop, which is cheerful and high-pitched, as if a child in a small fishing village came to a beautiful and broad port city that exhibits Vientiane. Filled with joy, exudes enthusiasm, full of self-confidence, setbacks and ups and downs, indomitable. The extremely energetic note announces the beginning of a new life that the male protagonist himself had never imagined. And near the end, Haruki's sturdy pure piano sound after reading Sakura Ryo's diary. As soon as the key is pressed, you can feel that this is a parallel staircase connecting the past to the future, as if all the notes that touched you in the past can be found here, as if all the moving melodies you will hear in the future are already there. Covered here, and created here, is an ethereal realm that is neither happy nor sad.
And, finally, there is a male protagonist who is so similar to me. Cowardly and indifferent, humble and withdrawn, following the rules... The only difference is that my popularity is much better than his, I have many friends, and no one hates me. But the same loneliness is more than that. He can be held by her at a loss, and he can feel her body temperature when he is lost and confused. But what I hold tightly is only the rapidly expanding loneliness. All I can embrace crazily is the loneliness that is about to burst. But I don't seem to be so miserable, after all, I don't live in determination all the time. I have movies. I can find ways to relieve loneliness, find the traces of time, and find the temperature of love and being loved in all kinds of animations that I like. For example, this "I want to eat your pancreas".
The mirroring and composition of the scenes in quiet time are very meaningful. They are full of thoughts about life and death that are panicked and calm, fearful and helpless. There is a unique Japanese philosophy in it. The occasional empty shots add hazy poetry to the film, and the flashbacks that fit the scene bring a sad beauty to the audience. And the scene at night in the hotel can best present this mood and feeling. The luxurious and comfortable suite presents an elegant, comfortable, peaceful haven away from the eyes of others and the hustle and bustle of the world. You can feel the softness of the carpet and the warmth of the wall lamp. And after turning off the lights, compared to the silent city where the cars pass by outside the window, such a closed environment creates an unparalleled sense of fear and loneliness for the moments that reveal the true hearts of the hero and heroine. This night was the most sober and mature night for the two of them even though they were not familiar with each other. The ceiling lamp was turned off, and the table lamp at the bedside exudes a soft and warm light like a fireplace, but it illuminates the cold room.
Haruki unscrewed the water that was meant to be given to her, and the sound was crisp, like a gunshot in the wilderness.
Yingliang heard a flat voice that was completely different from his personality: "To tell the truth, it's still a big adventure."
"Xin Raising Funds (truth)." As he has always said before, there are no ups and downs, no waves. Then Haruki took a sip of water.
"What would you do if I said I was afraid of death?" The empty room was silent.
"Gudu" This was the sound of the saliva that happened to be swallowed before, and the image he was afraid of appeared in Haruki's mind. Countless needles and stacks of pills. He remembered why he suddenly appeared horrified when he was rummaging through the facial cleanser for Ying Liang.
Long dark nights, disturbing silences.
"Big adventure." He changed his choice because he couldn't give an answer, his fears were the same as the girl who was lying in bed talking to him.
"Then please lie down on the bed too, and accept neither defense nor refutation." As if this were a question and answer she had prepared, her tone and tone were like that of a prophet, and it was like a ghost, uneasy about the confusion. The world warns.
Haruki did so. That night, they were back to back, as if there was a world between them, and no one spoke.
Besides, the scene of Haruki and Yingliang returning home alone in a room, the scene in the live-action version here is like an old couple who have no love for a long time, come and go in a hurry. The theatrical version here completely restores and presents the restlessness and confusion that a seventeen-year-old should have when faced with youthful hormones. It was an adolescent boy, a withdrawn, quiet, repressed boy who had never felt the opposite sex up close, out of instinct. When Sakura Liang's face approached, Haruki resisted by his own character. The camera cuts to the outside of the house, the rain is still falling, and the bean-sized raindrops hit the leaves of the green plant. This is the tranquility under the patter, in contrast to the turbulence under the silence of the house. When the breath with body temperature was exhaled on his face, when Ying Liang's soft lips slowly pressed towards him, he diverted his attention in order to concentrate, and glanced at the schoolbags on the ground scattered by Ying Liang's most The book by Natsume Soseki that a good friend accidentally destroyed. Kyoko's words and deeds came to his mind one after another, "Yingliang, she is far more fragile than you think! ... Can you protect her from harm? ..." He was shaken, not knowing what the so-called "Protect" must stop this ridiculous joke and take responsibility for Ying Liang, or obey the heart of the dying girl in front of her to help her fulfill her long-cherished wish before her death. Don't turn your head away or put your mouth up, he didn't have time to hesitate at that moment. When Ying Liang stopped abruptly, he quickly changed to another face, and told Haruki that he was joking with him with a childlike smile when the prank was successful, Haruki was stunned, and after a brief stunned Irrational anger and instinctual urges. It was a lion who had changed his mind to a vegetarian diet and was suddenly provoked by a wild beast.
He rushed over and threw Ying Liang, who had not recovered, onto the bed. "Are you following my jokes? You are very cooperative today..."
The tighter and tighter the hands. "Okay, okay, I know...let it go, it hurts..."
Strong, rapid exhale. "I said let it go! Don't you think it's too much to treat a girl like this?"
A girl who is neither a lover nor a friend is terrified like a prey. "Stop...please..."
In the same small and closed space, the same contrast of light and darkness inside and outside, time seems to stand still, and the air seems to be stagnant. No sound could be heard other than the hero's own breathing. Silent anger, silent struggle, silent outbursts, silent tears. The film cleverly and cunningly leaves a foreshadowing here: what are the young boys and girls thinking at the moment? Is it blank, or is it crazy restraint... You say you can control it, but I also say I can, that is in a state of sobriety and rationality, but when you are impulsive, when you are angry, when your nature is suddenly awakened? Therefore, it is not enough to bring some scenarios into the imagination. If you don’t experience it yourself, you really don’t know what you can do. Suddenly, Haruki came back to his senses and ran away like a rabbit who saw an eagle circling overhead. This scene full of skin lust and swelling and splitting hormones adds just the right balance to the unreasonable plot: an age that is the most likely and most capitalist to make mistakes, which may not have been experienced but everyone has imagined. Youthful stimulation.
Life is full of flaws, and beauty is more pitiful because of flaws. Ying Liang proposed to play another game of Truth or Dare in the hospital because of a question she had always wanted to ask, but she lost, and the question could only be written in the diary with her own answer. Ying Liang and Haruki spent such a splendid night together, and it was the first time that she felt so warm to be missed, but she cried so sadly in the dead of night. As Chaplin said: After the show, there will always be limited warmth and infinite sadness.
The most distressing thing about this film is the merciless huge gap, which is another wanton and ruthless mockery of the irresistible heavy fate. On that fireworks night, seeing Haruki asking himself seriously and anxiously, Ying Liang put her hand on his chest and said as if promising: "If I'm going to die, I'll let you know in advance." But this The soft promise was eventually smashed into powder by a sudden accident and could not be fulfilled. Everyone in the movie knew that she was stabbed to death, but they didn't know that she was terminally ill; everyone outside the movie knew that she was dying, but they didn't expect and couldn't accept that she died in the whole beautiful and sad story. A nameless blade outside. One moment was full of happiness, sending and receiving childlike naughty text messages, and the next moment ushered in unquestionably infinite silence. When the close-up shows the dried bloodstains on the edge of the evidence board that were once warm and now blurred, I think of that cheerful, fun-loving, beautiful and generous girl, who was ruthlessly ravaged and crushed in this way When I was forced to leave this world that was a little cold but filled with warmth because of her, I seemed to dig out my internal organs and swallow them alive. This huge sense of drop shown in the movie brings me a powerless emptiness off the screen. But in the end, it is still a beautiful ending like a trip to the little prince planet. The exaggerated colors and the innocent imagination make the most barren corners of the heart bloom. Just like the hero who was numb due to grief, he burst into tears when he saw that she received a text message from him.
When I recommended this movie to a friend who prefers Japanese animation, I said that it is the master of Japanese love animation. In fact, I haven't watched a few so-called Japanese love cartoons at all, and among the works I've watched, only "Your Lie in April" and "Hear the Waves" gave me similar feelings. To say that the most similar to this film, it should not be the parting in "Your Lie in April", but the youth in "Hearing the Wave", the 17-year-old small world that belongs to us. For me, "Hearing the Waves" is more real, what I see from it is what we have experienced, the similar beauty and shortcomings, that is ourselves; and this "I Want to Eat Your Pancreas" ” is more like what we may or want to experience in the future, which is what we hope for, the self in our hearts.
At that time, I was moved by Hearing the Waves, which made me happy. At this moment, I was moved by I Want to Eat Your Pancreas, which was silent. I'm too easily moved while watching a movie, and I can't count how many times I've sat in a movie theater or in front of my computer and cried. But this time, I didn't shed a single tear, not even a tear was brewing in my eyes, and my heart didn't tremble or twist. Roaring and whirling silently with a sweet smile. The sun is still warm all around, and the beauty of the spring is like new, but I can't touch it.
From the day before yesterday to yesterday, I have watched it twice. Today I wanted to watch it again, and then I wrote this on the e-ticket check mark: "Three brushes back. One more day before you left me, and my love for you has continued to grow. ”, and then posted a Weibo that had been edited a long time ago: “Looking at the pancreas for three days, I can really find abuse for myself.” But I didn’t go, I saved time in the theater and wrote this in a small apartment. A movie review. It's not because there are no good screenings, it's not because the theater is too far away from me, and it's not because I suddenly have a lot of thoughts, but it's just because I didn't think about whether I should go through another parting. When we don't know how to love, we get restless, overwhelmed, do everything we want and do nothing at all.
The above paragraph was written the day before yesterday. It is rare to get off work early today, so I immediately bought a ticket and watched it for the third time. Then I came back and expanded the more than 2,000 words to more than 5,000 words like crazy.
Why I like this video. It's because I'm a tense, scarred, weary soul beneath my fragile, dignified exterior. My friends thought I was warm, but I was gloomy; they thought I was peaceful, but I was irritable; everyone thought I was strong, but I was more sensitive than anyone else. In this film, I found a good reason to live for each other, found the positive meaning of loving life, and saw the warm, sunny, confident and cheerful self. Beauty is more pityed because of its flaws, and the more sad it is, the stronger the beauty of this flaw is, and the more it can hold people's fragile heartstrings. This kind of sadness seems to be enchanted quagmire, full of needles but extremely sweet, making people bruised and bruised and willing to push harder and harder.
I know that we will be separated, but I still choose to meet you. Even if I am sad a thousand times, it is not as good as the time I met you.
The first time I watched it, I was indeed cursing the male protagonist, how could he come out so quickly, how could he get used to a girl who brought you positive changes suddenly left. But I suddenly realized today that if we don't have time to say goodbye, then in fact we will never say goodbye.
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