In most of the lesbian films I've seen, there's one social environment that doesn't escape it - disapproval.
I don't know if I've been in this circle for too long. In the eyes of many people, it's abnormal or abnormal. For me, it's as simple as drinking water in life, because I'm in it, because I also like Women, so, I think, love is love, there is no gender, age, identity restrictions, same-sex love, not incest, why is it rejected by so many people?
In the movie, because of his relationship with his ex-girlfriend, R went away to live in New York by himself. Everyone thought she would not come back. Maybe, she herself thought she would not come back, but it was because of her father. 's death.
At the beginning of the movie, she is a confident, independent, and strong woman. When taking pictures of an old man, she can confidently tease people about his tattoos, and the strength of a strong woman is revealed in her eyes.
However, the strong woman also has a weak side, that is her hometown and the stories in her hometown.
The camera cuts to her standing at the door of David's house, across a road, like a lost child, timid with nostalgia, panicked eyes, hurriedly buttoning the buttons, and then knocking on the door of David's house crampedly, Embarrassing conversation, awkwardly nodding hello to every unfamiliar and familiar face in the room, her eyes full of helplessness and making people feel distressed, she returned to her hometown, but she was like a foreigner.
Finally, E appeared. To be honest, after I saw the two of them meet, I didn't know how the plot would develop. I didn't read any preview or introduction beforehand, and I couldn't even imagine that they were ex-girlfriends. Because in R's eyes, I can't see any emotion, until she said that, it was the three of us and the surprise and trembling smoking after seeing the ex-girlfriend, I began to realize, oh!
Beneath all the apparent calm, there are turbulent waves, waiting for a fuse to ignite and explode, that is, two women in their father's old house.
The place where the two women kiss in the house is actually an irony, because that's where her father reads the Bible.
Later, the two took the subway to another place to open a room. It was a release of lust and an interpretation of love. It was the first time they left together, escaped bondage, and found the freedom of love.
But in the sentence E said, I will pay attention to the jet lag, and I will know what time you get up, what time you go to bed, and what time you are doing. I burst into tears. How many unrequited loves are hidden deep in my heart, I dare not say it, because I am afraid, if I say it, I will lose it. That was her own concern, and she buried the love in her heart, but did not dare to disturb her. She would rather be shackled firmly than stop her lover's pursuit of freedom. She got married, put on a wig, was a serene Jewish woman, and lived an unfree life that longed for freedom.
After saying this, the camera cut to R, she was silent, her eyes fell into a huge void, which I felt was pain.
It's always easy to leave. not easy. Every time you leave, you have to make great courage and determination, because this place has you, you stay again and again, but you can't avoid leaving. R can stay for E again and again, but E never asks her to stay, because freedom is greater than love, and one cannot bind another person because of one's love. This is the hardest part for me watching this movie. E is too forbearance, and it makes people feel distressed.
Does R really love E, I want to ask, does it? Otherwise, after knowing that she and David got married, he wouldn't question him again and again, why didn't he tell her. On the way to the funeral, helplessly looking for E's eyes in the crowd, at the dinner with my uncle, looking at E's side face in a daze...
It's just that when E and David wanted to give each other a free life, she didn't have the position to speak, and could only watch as an outsider. Yes, she didn't have the right to speak.
She wants to take E away and go to New York together.
Seeing the end, they didn't go together, which is a shame for me, even though it's an open ending.
Everyone likes a happy ending, but perhaps they found the freedom they wanted and lived the life they wanted, which is much more profound than flying away together.
Forbidden love, the most lack is freedom.
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