The most desperate moment I can think of that I have ever experienced was the angry face I had. Over and over again I cursed at the life and people around me who made my existence seem so cheap, and I vowed to flee completely. The point is that to escape is to seek a new life, a strong desire to build a new world, not total death.
So today I am writing poetry, and I will not repeat the same mistakes of my father's fate. Writing poetry is naturally a new life, a life that truly belongs to oneself and that outsiders cannot intervene at all. I must be honest, poetry has brought me more and more serious spiritual cleanliness. The more noble we pursue in poetry, the more ugly the real world will be, and disappointment will come from it, and loneliness will be embodied. This fact is commonplace for artists, but disappointment is not the same as despair.
Disappointment in real life will force us to create, and it will make us more suspicious and distrustful of the world, which will lead to resistance. The theme “Ancient Hostility” at the recent Hong Kong International Poetry Night 2017 in Hong Kong is an alternative expression of this disappointment.
The disappointment of life for poets and artists does not make them despair, much less make them choose death. On the contrary, it is a kind of hope, in other words, it is the nourishment of their lives.
Hope and disappointment coexist, and despair is a misunderstanding that arises as the times require. The suicides of the painter Vincent van Gogh and the poet Haizi are two famous events in the history of art and poetry. People often compare these two events and summarize their deaths as "dedicated to art/poetry", so a large number of The dead believers appeared. They are young, they love art and poetry, they are enchanted by glorious deaths. But for their choice, I will not repay them with any regrets, they are just a bunch of blind poor people. They won't be famous, they won't be remembered, they're a disaster for relatives and friends, and their deaths are worthless. In Yu Xiuhua's words, I would even give them a slap without hesitation.
It is undeniable that the deaths of Van Gogh and Haizi still stem from despair, and art and poetry failed to save them. This was the necessity of that era. They could not choose to escape like me today. They were nailed to the cross of the era and could not resist until the last drop of blood dried.
I once asked the South African poetess Gabeba Badron a question: "How do we create great works in this peaceful age?"
She replied: "It is true that great disasters can make great poetry easier, but the most important thing for writing great poetry is that when we are in the seemingly free, we can also write those who are not inferior to suffering. thing."
In addition to the answer to my question, we can also read the answer to our question today:
Defiance and dissatisfaction are always there, and so are great works. Compared with the miserable times in which Van Gogh and Haizi lived, the advantage of peaceful times is the optionality of life. Times of suffering kill artists and poets physically, but never their work. The optionality in peacetime is that you can choose to die or not. The last thing that must be clarified is that the reason people remember Van Gogh and Haizi is never because of their death, but because of their works and their attitude to life and their noble character, if you want to dedicate your life to the ideal , you first have to think about which of these three conditions do you satisfy?
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