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"KILL YOUR DARLING"
time flies, it's been quite a long time since the last time I swayed my pen. It feels like knowing Miss L has been so long.
I have always had some unwritten agreements with Miss L, such as the film review I am going to write today. It is not so much a fulfillment, but rather a confession from my heart. . . . .
Well, let's end the abuse. Last night, I watched "KILL YOUR DARLING" recommended by Miss L, a realistic gay theme movie. The plot introduction is skipped here, and I will directly talk about my viewing experience. In fact, I have always kept aloof from gay-themed films. The reason may be my never-ending hormones towards the opposite sex. Because it is my dear Miss L, I resisted the urge to turn the tide in my stomach several times, and quietly admired (painfully tormented). I even brooded a few times how strong Miss L's unending desire for men was (presumably she would be crushed if she saw it
) Generation" The Crazy Life at Columbia University. At the beginning of the film, a boy with a naked upper body and stained with blood appeared on the screen. His stern face was filled with inexplicable despair and sadness. I almost fell (bent). He is Lu, this pure and dark angel. Lying in his arms was a slightly older man with a sexy beard. Then came the title of the movie - smack! Snapped! Snapped! of three English words appeared. Haha, isn't it very emotional, with its own sound effects.
After the flashback, the movie began to narrate. When Allen, one of the male protagonists, appeared in front of my eyes, I only had two thoughts in my mind: Mansao and Ai (end) Lun (round). Ah, the filming of Harry Potter was very upright, why is it such a virtue now? Is it my substitution reaction too strong?
Allen's appearance has always been a depressed and depressed expression, cleaning the room in desperation. So much so that I thought he was an oppressed laborer. It wasn't until he danced to the sound of jazz on the gramophone that I saw him being suppressed (suffocated) and suppressed (showy), and the interruption of his father's appearance made me more convinced of his inner longing for madness. In the face of a mentally ill mother, Allen showed his delicate feelings. In front of his mother, he can be alone, as a man. His maturity is based on such an unfortunate family relationship. Until his father handed him that admission letter from Columbia, well, I know, the show is about to begin! (Policewoman Caitlin to Bai Youmu)
As another male protagonist, Lu and Allen met unexpectedly in the library. In front of the freshmen including Allen, the unconventional Lu stood on the table and sang about sex. and freedom. Such a rebellious and indulgent teenager is destined to ignite the wild flames in Allen's heart. The bold and explicit poetry in Lu's mouth has become the most seductive beauty in Allen's eyes.
So then the plot naturally made Lucian and Alan acquainted, and then they discussed ideals, discussed poetry, and their mouths were full of rhythm and beautiful words, and then William, the rich N generation of drug addicts, appeared, and then dropped out of school. jack. These four people are the representatives of the Beat faction: all the order of the arrogant, anti-traditional, indulgent, advocating freedom, and contempt for reality is almost anti-human, and the most terrible thing is that they are all cultural people. ! (The hooligan is not scary, just afraid that the hooligan has culture!!)
When watching them partying in a dark private apartment, the rotten atmosphere was heightened to the extreme. Alcohol, drugs, and sex pervade the image, even in my room of reality. This depraved scene is unacceptable to me, so much so that I am disgusted. When the marijuana in their hands was passed in each other's mouths, the innocence disguised as mature and sophisticated reminded me of the situation when I smoked when I was a student. The look of enjoyment and ecstasy, self-indulgence, if I can see what I was like now, I just want to say. . . . . It was a rude look. Miss L said that she really wanted to accompany me to try smoking, but I said no, I couldn't teach you badly. 32 likes that are honest in my heart, and even this image came to my mind: two pairs of eyes full of longing in close-up, room filled with sex and tobacco smell, throat with hunger swallowing, rough gasp, smoke from me kissed Miss L's mouth once, twice, three times. . . . I think this is the typical psychology of Chinese men. In the daytime, she scolds Pan Jinlian's bitch, but at night she holds her lower body and fantasizes about Jinlian's sister.
When such a group of people get together, something earth-shattering is bound to happen. When the dying bearded man (David) appeared on the party, he read Lu Nian's poem to Allen: "Life is a circle, like a wheel, we go from birth to death, in an infinite loop, until Someone broke in." I guessed that their relationship was unusual! As soon as the triangle tearing is over, the battle is coming!
Let's talk about the character Lucian, light blue and clear, with a little cynical eyes, handsome face, contemptuous but attractive thin lips, thin body, and he already has the aura of the protagonist, but he is full of beauty Unwilling to be ordinary, rebellious and crazy thoughts, he successfully captured the hearts of everyone, weaving others together with the net of fate, binding others, and trapping himself. Said he was an angel, because he gave people around him dreams, direction and vision for their lives, even if it was just a beautiful bubble. Said he was the devil, because everyone who met him was involved in this absurd and cruel journey. So for Lucian, I have always looked at him with a respectful distance. He is lovely, pitiful, and hateful. Said he was cute because he had the naivety of his age, the innocence of the world, and the innocence that belonged to that age. Said he was pitiful, he had never experienced the warm family affection, so that when he saw the deep love between Alan and his mother, he burst into tears. It's not so much sympathy for Alan's impending loss of his mother's company as it is his indignation at his tragic past. There is also the greatest pity, that is, being faked and murdered by Allen with a knife. Killed the David who had been haunting him but loved him deeply. I once thought that in addition to resisting David, Lu still had a sincere love for David in his heart, but it was so dusty that he was not found until he was on the cliff of death, and it was painful. The dead are long gone, but they will love forever and release their hatred, but the living are tormented in daily purgatory. There are several Zen sayings in "Infernal Affairs": "The highest of the eight great hells is called the Infernal Hell, which means to suffer great suffering without interruption. Those who suffer from the Infernal Affairs will never die, and longevity is the great kalpa in the Infernal Hell. Time is boundless, space is boundless, karma is boundless, those who commit sins of disobedience will fall into this world forever, and they will experience the ultimate boundless boundlessness." Lu's rest of his life lived like this. To say that he is hateful, I hate that he has too many naive ideals and criticism of the world. When he laughed at the useless young people who joined the army in the Anti-Japanese War and defended the country, when he said that he would travel to Paris and liberate mankind, I really wanted to step forward and slap him hard. He has changed the trajectory of too many people's lives and the lives of others. I have always felt that the scary thing about a person is that he has a dream, and you will never find out how charming that dream will be, how much it will bewitch you to change, and lead you to embark on an unknown road. Perhaps, a road to despair more cruel than death. Allen, Jack, William, and David were all spared, because Lu weaved a beautiful dream for them.
Well, talk about their bull (silly) B (X) feat. In David's room, they shredded and dismembered books of literary classics and pinned the spoils to the wall as if they were victorious. The last shot stopped on a page with a brain printed on it, and Lu was a nail on it. I think the director wants to use the camera to express their inner portrayal of their desperate desire to break through the confinement, but I always feel that the director is also saying that this is a group of funny people with a pit (is it only me who has this kind of understanding)
when Allen When his mind was wide open because of taking drugs, when he fantasized about being free, when he and Lu cut his palms and had blood intercourse, when Lu sucked his fingers, the spiritual sex was explosive. Not a climax, but a climax.
Lou Ellenjack saw a small boat in the port, so their absurd ideas went on a journey to freedom after a fever. On the wooden boat, Allen gave Lu an obscure love thought, "Be careful, you are not in Wonderland, I have heard of the crazy behavior that breeds deep in your heart, but your ignorance is your luck, in your On the day of independence, you are the one who suffers, find where the love is. Give, share and give, lest we die before we open up." This poem still foreshadows Lu's life experience, and also reveals all of them. Before I entered the play, I always felt that this poem was hysterical, how could there be a poetic beauty from my heaven - "there is nothing to say, only a thousand lines of tears" and so on, and so on, everywhere. But when I turned around and read this poem again, I got goosebumps all over (Is it a climax?)
When they decided to break into the library at night and steal the keys, Ellen and Nutuguan came by the bookshelf A passion is fast P. Alan, who was still a virgin, was a complete mess in front of the lustful lust girl. When the lust girl leaned down to be his KJ, teasing him that he would be a mess if he couldn't last for 30 seconds. And just as the bet was going on, Lu appeared in front of Allen, and KJ's Allen looked at Lu in a blur. The bet ended abruptly when Allen counted to 9. I firmly believe that if it wasn't for Lu's appearance, Allen could use his firm lower body to gain dignity. Just because of Lu, Allen's first experience was completely given to Lu in his eyes. Enjoying the gifts of others, but thinking about him.
Speaking of Allen, when he was sunk in love for Lu and couldn't extricate himself, when he heard that Lu was going to choose to leave, he chose to betray and let David, who had been entangled in Lu, pursue him. I've never been able to identify Allen's inner workings at the time: Was it the revenge of love and hate? Is the obsession of love unscrupulous to keep Lu? Or as his father told him, love, you have to let go, give, and give up, and then you can get the gift of love. Is he perfecting David? No idea, I'm already confused. I think Ellen's heart is more confused. Depressed, Allen bought a drunk bar and made an appointment with a passerby who resembled Lu at the P Hotel. It seemed that he was spoiling himself to praise his love for Lu. When the passerby A was going to use the dog style to enter, Alan hesitated, and then changed to a regular position (you understand?) He used a pilgrimage mentality to pay tribute to his first time, to bury his love for Lu, To imagine once again the face in front of him is Lu. . .
David became the fuse of the climax of the film and became the martyr before the fireworks. When his chest faced the sharp blade, the damage was so difficult to shoot, but when he helped Lu stab the first knife, the damage became out of control and could not be stopped. Such a picture is suffocating.
Lou has said that he hates those who hang on the university's wall of honor, those who fear being forgotten. Only, at the end, the news briefing of his murder was hung on the wall full of sarcasm, which was embarrassing. . . . . .
This group of them, this life, this journey, has ended, and it has just begun. This past story is like a poppy flower blooming in their hearts. It is beautiful and fascinating, but the flowering period is only so short. After it withers and decays, it rots and deteriorates in their hearts, producing a stench. Everyone chooses to put them in different ways. It was removed from the heart, bloody and painful. To be reborn at such a price, but, deep in my heart, there will always be a gap, empty and cold, without consolation. . . . . .
A few years later, they each published a masterpiece that affected the world, and Lu was released from prison, went through two marriages, had children, and worked as a newspaper editor. Is it really, not crazy, not a Buddha? ?
——This movie is based on real people and events
. At the end, light a cigarette to miss my Miss L. I miss you, very much.

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