LAST CHAPTER

Peyton 2022-03-28 09:01:02

Night flight to San Francisco, chase the moon across America. God! It's been years since I was on a plane. When we hit 35,000 feet, we'll have reached the tropopause, the great belt of calm air, as close as it will ever get to the ozone. I dreamed we were there. The plane leapt the tropopause, the safe air, and attained the outer rim, the ozone, which was ragged, torn, patches of it, threadbare as old cheesecloth, and that was frightening . But I saw something only I could see, because of my astonishing ability to see such things.
Souls were rising, from the earth, far below. Souls of the dead of people who'd perished from famine, from war, from the plague, and they floated up… Like skydivers in reverse, limbs all akimbo, wheeling and spinning. And the souls of these departed joined hands, clasped ankles and formed a web, a great net of souls. And the souls were three-atom oxygen molecules of the stuff of ozone, and the outer rim absorbed them and was repaired. Nothing's lost forever. In this world there is a kind of painful progress, longing for what we left behind and dreaming ahead. At least I think that's so. ——From Angels

in America over the United States. God, I haven't been on a plane in years. When we get to 35,000 feet in the air, we'll be in the stratosphere, in the perfect windless zone, and even in the ozone layer. I dreamed we were going there. Flying up the stratosphere, to the safe air, on the edge of the outer ozone layer, those scattered and tattered pieces, worn like old cloth, are frightening. But I see things that only I can see because I have an amazing ability to see them.



The soul is ascending, from far below on the earth. Souls dead from famine, war, and plague float up... like reverse skydivers, hands on hips, spinning up. These souls are holding hands and feet by feet, forming a web, a web of great souls. The soul is the ozone layer's trioxide atoms, which are absorbed and repaired by the ozone layer. Nothing goes away forever. There is a painful progress in the world, longing for what we leave behind, and still dreaming of moving forward. At least I think so.

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  • Mohammed 2022-03-31 09:01:03

    Oscar is like this, and you will be given an award when you have reached the full level.

  • Alyson 2022-04-24 07:01:06

    Interesting story, not deliberately dramatic.

Still Alice quotes

  • Dr. Alice Howland: Good morning. It's an honor to be here. The poet Elizabeth Bishoponce wrote: 'the Art of Losing isn't hard to master: so many things seem filled with the intent to be lost that their loss is no disaster.' I'm not a poet, I am a person living with Early Onset Alzheimer's, and as that person I find myself learning the art of losing every day. Losing my bearings, losing objects, losing sleep, but mostly losing memories...

    [she knocks the pages from the podium]

    Dr. Alice Howland: I think I'll try to forget that just happened.

    [crowd laughs]

    Dr. Alice Howland: All my life I've accumulated memories - they've become, in a way, my most precious possessions. The night I met my husband, the first time I held my textbook in my hands. Having children, making friends, traveling the world. Everything I accumulated in life, everything I've worked so hard for - now all that is being ripped away. As you can imagine, or as you know, this is hell. But it gets worse. Who can take us seriously when we are so far from who we once were? Our strange behavior and fumbled sentences change other's perception of us and our perception of ourselves. We become ridiculous, incapable, comic. But this is not who we are, this is our disease. And like any disease it has a cause, it has a progression, and it could have a cure. My greatest wish is that my children, our children - the next generation - do not have to face what I am facing. But for the time being, I'm still alive. I know I'm alive. I have people I love dearly. I have things I want to do with my life. I rail against myself for not being able to remember things - but I still have moments in the day of pure happiness and joy. And please do not think that I am suffering. I am not suffering. I am struggling. Struggling to be part of things, to stay connected to whom I was once. So, 'live in the moment' I tell myself. It's really all I can do, live in the moment. And not beat myself up too much... and not beat myself up too much for mastering the art of losing. One thing I will try to hold onto though is the memory of speaking here today. It will go, I know it will. It may be gone by tomorrow. But it means so much to be talking here, today, like my old ambitious self who was so fascinated by communication. Thank you for this opportunity. It means the world to me. Thank you.

  • Dr. Alice Howland: I was looking for this last night.

    Dr. John Howland: [whispering to Anna] It was a month ago.