Vivian has an incredible secret, hides a brilliance of talents, keeps silent about her life, is full of devastated hearts but has an unexpected compassion for life.
I vaguely feel that she was brutally hurt by the world in her early years, and that no matter how beautiful moments in her life are, she still has a sad color; also because of her injuries, she had to close the door to the outside world and give up most of her intimate relationships. , cling to the rich and colorful world in his heart. Not unwilling, but extremely fearful, life made her grow into a vigilant hedgehog early on, and she could not help but be violent, uncontrollable, and unable to balance. Presumably she will also suffer from uncontrollable weirdness and abnormality, and it will be so calm in the dismissal again and again.
Her life is out of balance, and she has too much inside to talk about. A suit of armor, once put on for fear of injury, is bound for life. The hurt and darkness in the heart are unwilling to show people, nor dare to show them. Over time, if you want to mention them again, self-esteem and fear are not allowed. Therefore, the more closed it is, the more hope is placed on the collection of boxes and boxes of drips. As much as her secrets and packages are by nature, as much as she is forced to.
Susan Sontag mentioned in her "On Photography" that photography is a choice, an intervention, even an aggression. For Vivan, it may also be a kind of talk and consolation. In the imbalance between small space and abundant emotions, she urgently needs a channel to vent. The vast world provides her with such a way. She chooses various characters in the streets, slums, and slaughterhouses, and takes pictures to intervene in their lives and communicate with them. She is sensitive, sensitive to external threats, and sensitive to the external world. She can perceive all kinds of hurt and all kinds of emotions in other people's lives. So there will be old newspapers and broken shoes in the trash, there will be disabled people on the side of the road, desolate men, shy girls, and staggering old women. The joys and sorrows are staged in her camera, but perhaps this is also her projection of the joys and sorrows of life.
In my opinion, these photos are an ode to a pessimist who sees herself in other people's lives, with sadness in her heart but still a little hope and wish, at least the world is beautiful, although life is not as good as it should be.
I prefer to believe that what Vivian did was not to become a secret, but to leave clues to intersect with the world. She kept the clues, not only to relieve loneliness, but also for the arrival of a certain day. But just like her request "please, don't leave" to a friend she met by chance in 2000, in fact, her heart longed for companionship, understanding and love, she wanted to talk, but she didn't know how to speak, because she has never No opening.
If possible, I will tell you my story. Thankfully, now we hear it.
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