To be ,or not to be

Eleanora 2022-03-23 09:03:13

"Suicide Room" was like a nightmare to me, the gloom and confusion in the film turned into vines, holding my breath, I couldn't breathe.

It's not a horror movie, it's just an art movie. A low-budget movie, watching a pair of irresponsible parents, a lonely boy, and a group of people who are still alive all day long clamoring for suicide stage a farce-like life. The movie has the title of "The Coolest Movie in Poland in 20 Years". I don't think it is cool. If I have to say that "cool" is also "cruel", I just feel bad.

The protagonist is a handsome boy with a thin body, dark hair and pupils, and deliberately deepened eye makeup, with a touch of decadence, just like the main theme of the movie. His father is a senior government official, and his mother is the backbone of a clothing design company. From this point of view, this family has given him enough financial support, but it is only economic. His heart is nothing but an empty and withdrawn boy who has been working hard to integrate himself into life.

To be precise, the story started at the dance on the eve of graduation, joking with his classmates, he kissed another boy, the kissing video was circulated on the Internet, and because of a physical friction with the boy in judo training, finally, Classmates go crazy, he is gay. The moment he saw his classmates reply to the misunderstanding like clouds, surprise, humiliation, despair, and madness appeared one after another on his face. He couldn't believe it. When his psychological defense was at its weakest, the girl on the other end of the cable entered his world and began to lead him step by step to the final outcome.

In the game called "Suicide Room", he opened his heart to the girl, and the helplessness, pain, despair, and darkness that he had hidden in his heart came out. I remember him and the girl sitting on the big golden tree in the game and whispering in a low voice. The night was dark and the shadows of the trees were swirling. His tone was a little helpless and mocking. The things in his tone were none of his business. I suddenly felt that Polish has a nice tone and rhythm. The girl said that the participants in this game are a group of people who want to commit suicide. I was shocked. The protagonist accidentally entered the settlement of a group of suicide people. In this game like "The Sims", he and the girl talked and had heart-to-heart. , until addicted. Unconsciously, the boy has regarded the girl as the mentor of his life and the support of his spirit. She is indispensable to him, irreplaceable. But until the end, I didn't think that the boy fell in love with the girl, he just took her as his only spiritual sustenance. The girl told him to go to school to scare those who laughed at you, the boy listened, put on the pistol and went to school, but did not pull it out, maybe it was cowardice caused by long-term isolation. The girl told him that she stayed in the room for three years and never left, and the boy locked himself in the room. The girl shows the self-inflicted wounds of the arm like the boy, and the boy also has his own scars...

The neglect of his parents or the only economic attention paid to him makes him go unnoticed when he is most vulnerable, and the girl who appears at this time is destined to take him lead astray. His parents brought him back from the hospital, and he has been at home for ten days, with a scar on one hand. The "suicide attempt" doctor came to this conclusion. And before that, they knew nothing. Surprised that a pair of parents can be irresponsible so far. The boy glanced at his parents resentfully in the hospital, and the back of turning and walking away made people feel lonely. "We gave you everything." His parents said to him, even I laughed out loud, the director's most wonderful irony, the increasingly busy work of the parents ignores the most real thoughts of the children, but still thinks that they know the children thoroughly , The child can only be grateful, how can he complain. But is this true?

When life became a farce he dared not face, he exiled himself into that game. The gloom in the character gradually prevailed, and the protagonist and the girl became more and more difficult to separate. He laughed at the fact that he was desperate to communicate with his parents when he told the girl the beliefs his parents had written under the guidance of a psychiatrist to communicate with him. My heart hurts and I can't bear to continue watching, but I continue to watch it, hoping that there will be a turning point. Frowning, he watched his father rudely unplug the network cable, trying to get the child out of the bondage from the network. When the computer showed that the connection could not be connected for many times, the boy's emotions exploded, screaming wildly, and cursing unbearably, like the last struggle of a dying little beast, intense but desperate, it was the girl who was inviting the boy to a certain bar Meet, let the boy hand over the medicine prescribed by the psychiatrist to himself, and he will swallow it and commit suicide. She said if you don't come, I will never see you. Terrified, the boy sneaked out to the bar late at night. While waiting, he felt that he could not let the girl die, so he went into the toilet and poured the medicine into the toilet, but looking at the one or two leftovers in the palm of his hand, his desperation for life finally drowned him at this moment, and he burst into tears. Swallowing the pills in big gulps...

I remember him frantically laughing and dancing before he died. The louder he laughed and the more mad his movements became, the more he felt puzzled, disappointed, ridiculed, and even hopeless about life. The misunderstanding of his classmates, the indifference of his parents, the sensitivity and loneliness in his heart... All of them were mixed into a thick ash that enveloped him and slowly eroded. In a trance, only death was the sharp blade that cut through everything and revealed the light. In the near-death vision, he saw himself and the girl kissing on the dance floor, the background music was cold, and the surrounding sunshine was bright and warm.

Finally, he was still dead. The moment the protagonist's mother logged into the suicide room to announce the death of the protagonist, those players went offline one by one and disappeared. Only the girl was stunned. In front of the computer at the other end, the girl screamed and rushed out of her. After three years of not leaving the room, he fell down on the lawn outside the house, hysterical. I will never deny that I hate this girl, after all, she instigated the boy's suicide, but she is also the one worthy of sympathy. She was equally dazed and confused when dealing with this world, and her heart was too sensitive, which made her feel that the world was dirty and she didn't know how to handle herself. Otherwise, how could she have closed herself in a small space for three years without seeing the light of day.

The movie is undeniably dull, but it presents these hidden issues in life to the audience in such a blatant way that blood is dripping and they cannot bear to look directly. I never thought of watching this movie for a third time, as I said at the beginning, the suicide space is like a nightmare for me. I can't help but wonder if I am confused by the male protagonist, do I know what I want, and what attitude should I take to face this world. For the first time, there was a movie that made me start looking at my outlook on life.

The boy's parents also ended in divorce, and they had already cheated on their own. The relationship between people will finally be indifferent to this point. Everything at the beginning of the movie, those seemingly harmonious things are finally broken, and people have to face the cruelty behind it. The boy's departure is regrettable, but should we examine ourselves? Do you know what you want? Do you dare to face the gloom in your heart? Are you resentful about life? Human affairs are noisy and chaotic, have we ever maintained a balanced heart and wandered through it? The male protagonist is lost in these problems, and even more in life. The classmate's misunderstanding was just a fuse, detonating the darkness that had been buried in his heart. The first time he appeared in the movie, the emptiness and numbness of his eyes had set the tone for the movie. How should we behave in this life? This is a question that boys and girls have been thinking about but never figured out. Being sensitive, he doesn't know how to integrate into life, and in the end, he can only confront death. Why don't we try to remove the sharpness around us, treat the people and things around us with normality and gentleness, and try to live in harmony with life, so that it is not only good for others, but also for ourselves. hurt myself. Du Niang Encyclopedia said that this is a movie about teenagers and Internet addiction, I don't agree, it is more like a torture to the dark side of our lives.

The boy's dark eye makeup and the cool and translucent picture quality of the movie always appear among the boys. I don't know how to end it. If I have to say it, it is cruel, a film that faces cruelty.

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Suicide Room quotes

  • Dominik Santorski: I went to school, I walked through the corridor, I went past my class looking them all in the eyes, and I looked at that loser, and he just looked away.

    Sylwia: Was he scared?

    Dominik Santorski: Yes.

    Sylwia: Was he?

    Dominik Santorski: It was incredible. I was in total control of the situation. I was... I was... I can't describe it! I felt like an animal. Like... A murderer.

  • Dominik Santorski: They know nothing. They play pathetic, ridiculous parts in a hollow, ridiculous play.