Idaho is always on my heart

Hermina 2022-03-24 09:02:14

This is the third time I've watched Idaho, the first for the subject matter, the second for Keanu Reeves, and the third for River Phoenix. Although the motive is simple, it is true that in the process of repetition, I understand what I did not understand before. After watching it two times before, I felt regret and sadness in my heart, but this time I saw it, but it was a desire to tell that was difficult to dispel, so I had to try to respond with difficulty and express the broken thoughts that stirred in my heart.
In Idaho, most people will admit that Rui Fan's brilliance completely blew Keanu. If Keanu can still see a hint of bluntness and deliberateness in his performance, Rui Fan makes me completely believe that he is Mike himself, he is not Acting, just expressing. But thinking about the character in the play, Keanu should be the character who can advance and retreat, so his calmness is not necessary. Especially after knowing a little about the friendship between Keanu and River, the boundaries between Mike and River, Keanu and Scott have blurred for me.
I still don't understand the reason why the movie is translated as "The Unruly Sky" or "The Other Half of the Man", Idaho is a metaphor, like Salinger's wheat field, it is the private field in Mike's mind, here, the suffocation His love is intertwined with distant memories, and it is the place where he takes the initiative to enter and is forced to stick every time he wants to escape reality (when he sells his body for money, when he discovers his father's true identity, and when he loses Scott) , he fell into that road either voluntarily or passively, he subconsciously sought the arms of his mother, but could not always do so), loneliness always followed him, whether in the streets of Rome or in his own memories, Even when he's with Scott, he doesn't feel close enough to each other, and like a sensitive and vulnerable poet, he seeks a spiritual connection, and this extravagance confines him to his own Idaho. The line next to the bonfire was written by Rui Fan himself. It seemed like a few faint lines, but it was the biggest highlight of the whole play. The most exciting thing here is Keanu's helpless turning of his head, which he used to say "I understand what you mean, but I can't respond to your feelings." The furthest distance in the world is not Tagore's poem, but I know you love me, but I don't want to give you the same love.
It's not that I intentionally compare it with Brokeback Mountain, but this kind of "love" that is intentionally and ruthlessly isolated from its nature, and it's not even certain whether it exists or not, is more desperate than the fierceness of expressing one's heart.
Looking at the character of Scott, he is a replica of Prince Henry. His life experience naturally follows the story of Henry V written by Shakespeare. (of the thieves), he recognizes Bob as his true father and friend (with Falstaff as a friend, and Bob, like Falstaff, is just a real general and leader who has abandoned chivalry), Yet he always knew his mission, as Prince Henry said:
"I know you all well, and now I am foolish with you, but I am imitating the sun, which tolerates filthy clouds overshadowing its majestic appearance, However, once it breaks through the ugly fog barrier and shines brightly, people will be especially surprised and amazed because of the long-awaited look at it. If all the seasons of the year are the holidays of the game, then the game will become like work. They are tiresome; they are only expected because they are infrequent; only occasional and rare events have the power to seduce the world. So when I abandon this debauchery and pay for what I have When the debts that have never been allowed to be paid, I will overthrow people's wrong preconceptions and prove that my worth is far above my usual words and deeds; just as bright gold and silver are placed on a dark underside, my change is due to being Set off by my past mistakes, I will be extraordinarily eye-catching and easy to win the favor of the Chinese people. I will use my debauchery as a means to turn against my old ways when people don’t expect it.
” So, after Scott inherited his father's business (becoming Henry V), Bob came to him with friends and expectations of being reused, he just turned his back and said the same thing as Henry V: I don't Knowing you, you taught me a lot of bad behavior when I was young, and now I have changed my mind.
So maybe in Mike's view, Scott is dashing and ruthless, there is no poetry and unbearable love in his life trajectory, there is no past that can't let go, because they are pursuing different things. Even when Scott left Mike with the woman he loved (sorry forgot her name), he first said: I'm sorry. Just when I thought he was finally willing to apologize for breaking Mike's heart He immediately added a sentence: I'm sorry you didn't find your mother. He deliberately emphasized that he was sorry for Mike's unrelated grief, to clear it up, or to hide his sincerity, and no one was allowed to And know.
But I still fell in love with Scott/Keanu first, because I firmly believed and knew that Mike/Rivean was actually me, and I felt sympathy and infinite closeness to him, and secretly hoped that he would be happy in the end, but with him. Like Mike, I hate myself, I want to find the meaning of life through others, and what I envy and love is Scott, who has a normal life and personality. When Rui Fan slowly fell into this role, I also slowly substituted myself into it. Mike's parents are a combination of close relatives, and childhood memories have created Mike's broken personality. He remembers the experiences that affected him, and I don't remember my past, but I know that I am not much different from the mentally ill person who lacks personality. And I long for someone to share with me. But I don't have Mike's courage, and that guy doesn't have Scott's consciousness. The whole play did not directly emphasize the relationship between the two, just like Mike forgot his heart under the impact of other things. And I have also forgotten the original intention of my love in the long time of keeping secrets alone. I don't even want to think back to the time we spent together, she and Scott were just as unaware or deliberately unaware, and I envy them being so normal and not bothered about it. But life, like a movie, always continues at the end, and I firmly believe that it was Keanu Reeves who picked up Mike at the end, but I'm not sure if that person was Scott.

In addition, when it comes to the friendship between Keanu and Rui Fan, I have to sigh about the lack of youth in this era. The twenties are the golden age of life. They have a sensitive and increasingly mature mood. They are just able to understand Shakespeare and Ibsen. And the age that can also arouse spiritual excitement is the age where you can play with literature and art without being swallowed up by literature and art. The teenagers were the same age as we are now. They played rock music, read poetry, acted, and wrote lines. They rode motorcycles around the city, went clubbing, and even took drugs, while I lived the same life as an old man. This is a good time that will be hard to make up for in the future. I know that when my generation is old, it will feel that we have never been young, but we have to do it, and I feel sorry. This is also the reason why we are active in countless social networks. We all want to find a group in which we have the same passion and hobbies, and can express our youthful ignorance and arrogance.

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My Own Private Idaho quotes

  • Gary: Dude, if we can't steal from them going into the bar, Dude, we can get them coming out! See, Bob-dude?

  • Mike Waters: I love you, and you don't pay me.