I was 28 when I saw this movie. Although I feel moved, I will no longer have tears in my eyes. The sandstorm of the years has already made me immune to chicken blood. It seems that there is nothing to awaken my passion.
However, in the dead of night, I had a dream. I dreamed that I went back to the university to study. When I tried to find two classmates who were admitted to this university from the same high school, I found that they could no longer be found. , I suddenly realized that it turned out that they were no longer in school, and I suddenly felt so sad. The feeling of heartbreak was especially fresh after waking up.
Maybe I'm sad because of the years gone by, maybe I'm sad because of the thick smoke generated by the roar of the big machine of society, lost the starry sky we once looked up to, it still exists, but we can't see it anymore, Can't remember either.
Like the protagonist, I was in middle school when I looked up at the stars. At that time, for the first time, I walked out of the mountain village where I lived for more than ten years, and went to study in the county seat. Because of poverty, I couldn’t eat enough, I didn’t have enough clothes, I was ignorant, and I was mischievous with everyone, but I was very happy.
When I was in junior high school, my family always wanted me to go to a normal school after graduation (because I don’t have to pay tuition fees for normal school, and the distribution is included), and then I will go back to the countryside to become a teacher, have a stable job, and no longer be a “muddy”. As for my younger brother's destiny, it was planned to go home and farm after studying for a few years. The reason why I was exempted from my younger brother's destiny plan was only because I was not in good health since I was a child. Although my family had tried to "train" me, But I couldn't do any hard work after all, and my grades in reading were okay.
Like the protagonist, it seems that suddenly, we realize that there is a bright night sky outside the dark coal forest. It is so vast and so gorgeous that we are obsessed with it, so we are no longer satisfied with fate. arrange. At that time, the family always mentioned that if you dare not apply to the normal school, you still dare to turn the sky, and you will not be given money to see how you go to study. And the mother who is the most considerate of her child often says that "heart is higher than the sky, and life is as thin as paper". Don't think too much about it. A child in the valley can get rid of the established destiny and be a teacher. It is quite good .
But in the end, we chose to fight, perhaps because we couldn't bear the life we have been confined to in the coal forest, perhaps because of our yearning for the sky. In the end, I chose to go to high school, and with the help of teachers and kind people, I was able to maintain my studies. At that time, I only knew that there was a starry sky in the distance, and I, a child who came out of a ravine, was destined to change my destiny, and what I pursued was not only no longer a "mud-legged man", but also He is a person who can honor his ancestors and achieve great things.
Like the protagonist, we all looked up at the starry sky, but the protagonist saw the star he was looking for, and I didn't. Maybe this was destined to be different in our lives in the future, but its inspiration to our lives at that time was the same.
For the sake of my dream, I set myself the goal of passing the three monthly exams to become the first in the grade. At that time, there were more than 400 people in the grade, and I was outside the 100. If I look at it now, I will definitely say that I am crazy. But at that time, I was full of ambition, excited and worked hard for it. I got up at four or five every day, started running when the campus was still silent, and then started studying. The first two monthly exams, I failed to achieve my goal, but the third time During the monthly exam, a miracle happened, I really became the No. 1 in the grade. Looking back, those days were hard, but enjoyable. Although in the final sprint for the college entrance examination, my back was seriously burned, which led to a decline in my grades, but in the end, I was admitted to a famous university with the first place in the county.
But when I walked out of the coal forest, I was lost. The protagonist could happily find the same star he was looking for in the sky, but I couldn't find it. The little boy who pursued greatness and was full of ambition disappeared and was replaced by He is an ordinary, confused teenager who, like thousands of his peers, wasted his youthful time in college. After that, I walked out of the campus and wandered in the social tide. Although I still seemed to persist in my heart, I was just an ordinary member of the lost generation. Always determined to change, but always back to the beginning.
When I was 28 years old, when I saw this movie, I suddenly remembered that I once looked up at the starry sky and conceived a dream of pursuing greatness in my heart. After that, everything returned to silence, as if I left the mountain village, but only came to a larger mountain village, and I haven't looked up at the starry sky above my head for a long time. When I realized all of this, I was no longer youthful, as if I had a dream, and it has been ten years since I woke up...
Fortunately, I still remember the years when I looked up at the starry sky, and now, the starry sky still exists , the difference is that I no longer have to get lost in the vast starry sky, because the years, while trying to kill my will, have also eliminated many falsehoods in my life, so that I can understand more clearly which star is me The pursuit of greatness, and I, still young, I can still go out of the wilderness, let the dream of pursuing greatness burn again!
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