that rain was so strange that it made me meet you again. You are still the same, cynical look, and that shallow smile, damn, I said I will forget that smile, why do I remember it again. I have a new life now. My husband is a small employee in the company. He doesn't know how to be romantic or make me laugh, but he will go home on time and won't worry me, at least. I actually want a stable relationship, a feeling of solidity.
I will forget you ever came, I will forget all that. Yes, "I've been with you for six years. If you want someone, you don't have it. If you want money, I borrowed the money for my abortion from my mother." What can you promise me? Like you said, "If you want to get married and want money, what do you do with me?" "I never thought about tomorrow." However, I don't want you to not call me for three days, I don't want to see you being beaten with panda eyes in the middle of the night, I actually fainted blood, you know, every time I wash your wounds and bloody clothes, I have to endure it. Spit it out. When I sleep alone, I will wake up from the dream when I hear the alarm bell. I am afraid that one day I will wake up and suddenly you are gone. So, let's say goodbye and never communicate again.
I'll forget you ever came, really.
The other day you said to bring some wound medicine back, I told you to come back early in the message, I don't know if you heard that.
By the way, I'm married to the doctor who saved you. We had a good time. Yesterday afternoon, we went to the movies together and read the story of a prodigal son. After watching the movie, he went shopping with me, and I bought eight cups. But I didn't hide one because he can't drop a cup. He always told me to smoke less, but I like to see the lonely light of the cigarette butt in the dark night, just like you smoked the night I saw you.
When I came back from a date with him to meet you, you seemed to be very thin, and you said you found the cup. Later we met at the pier. Actually, I threw something before seeing you. I don't know if it was love. The lights were very dim that night, and I couldn't even read the advertisement on the phone booth, so I couldn't see your blurry face. Those memories of me lingering at the head of the stairs later... are definitely my hallucinations.
When I took you to the station that day, I really wanted to tell you to stay. Tears fell as soon as the car started. I wanted it to drop quickly, otherwise I couldn't see your back in the car. I called you right away and told you to come back early, maybe you didn't hear it, otherwise it would be impossible for me to wait for three years. The doctor has been with me for three years, so I won't be waiting for you in three years.
I'll forget you ever came, really.
View more about As Tears Go By reviews
