. The usual reason is that I’m too busy, too tired, and my brain is too empty. Another reason is that it’s popular to write on Weibo now, so I just write about the big things. Writing is more empty.
I originally wanted to write a diary for myself, because I am 27 years old this year. I woke up in bed in the middle of the night and wrote lyrics. I will compose a song later. Isn't an inspirational song from life born? Later, according to the convention of one movie a week, today I watched "The Biography of Van Gogh", also known as "Longing for Life". He gave me the urge to write this long essay, just to write about the aftermath of the movie. For yourself, the theme is more clear, which is good.
Why did I watch the movie "The Biography of Van Gogh", because the theme song of a song "Vincent" Van Gogh Memorial Museum was specially composed for Vincent. When I checked the translation of the lyrics, I accidentally learned that Van Gogh is a At the age of 27, he began to teach himself to draw. Hehe, is this a coincidence, or God's encouragement to me, please forgive me for being so affectionate. I don't mean to be high, and we are not peers. In fact, I think that the role of idols lies in this.
This movie was shot in 1956. I don’t know why I am always so keen on old foreign movies. Is it because of nostalgia? Maybe. However, most commercial films at home and abroad are indeed difficult to arouse my desire to appreciate.
There is also a little gossip. The first draft of this stuff is handwritten, using the hero brand pen I used in college. Since graduation, I rarely touch him (but I am used to using pencils), let alone write long essays on him. Well, just because I don't have a computer tonight, I went to an Internet cafe, and all the Internet cafes were closed down. It's a drama! In the end, I did a lot of thought work, mainly because I was too lazy to use the computer to type it again in the morning. I have the desire and impulse to write again tonight. You look at the products of this era, it seems that we can't do anything without the computer.
About Van Gogh
(the following views are purely personal first impression records, some details are personal scrutiny)
I know Van Gogh because when I bought a book at the Bertelsmann Book Club in high school, I gave a bookmark of "Sunflower" (still preserved to this day, I admire it), and the date of the painting was written on it. It was in August 1888. It was found to be the work of Van Gogh two years before his death. I thought it looked good at the time, but I still think it looks good now, except for the brighter color and yellow tone style, I still can't understand the specific meaning of this painting. Then also at the beginning of this year, I saw Van Gogh's screen image in Akira Kurosawa's movie "Dream" (sorry, I haven't watched it until now): in a vast wheat field, a man wearing a straw hat and ragged clothes The middle-aged man with a slightly chubby body (the Douglas version in "Van Gogh" is a leaner version) is intoxicated by the scenery in front of him, and he is painting with himself. The last is this biographical film. I heard that there is also a book of "Van Gogh Biography". I have a chance to find it and look at it (generally speaking, most of them have no chance).
Vincent willem van Gogh, English name Vincent willem van Gogh, male, Aries, unknown height and blood type, Dutch, born in a priest family in the south of the Netherlands in 1853, died in 1890 on the banks of the Oise, France, at the age of 37. I have no intention to earn money in my life, no house or car, so I have not been able to get married. At the age of 27, he began to learn painting, which is also the longest occupation he has ever had. He only sold one work when he was alive, and it was accepted by the world eight years after his death. He is a representative of post-impression painting (Van Gogh focused on the reproduction of real emotions. , that is, he wanted to express how he felt about things, not the visual images he saw), the work deeply influenced twentieth-century art. The cause of death was insanity, shooting himself, and his last will: "I'm completely desperate, and I can't see a way out." Family background, my father is a pastor, my mother is a housewife, the eldest son in the family, and two brothers and three sisters, of whom only He is most closely related to his younger brother Theo, who was the greatest supporter and admirer of Van Gogh in his life, as well as his brother, confidant, friend, and nobleman in his life (remember this man, Theo, he is an angel ).
Throughout his life, Van Gogh was entangled with loneliness and enthusiasm. He was stubborn and slightly irritable, but he was frank, honest, enthusiastic, and self-motivated. He was not vain, dared to pursue dreams, and loved life, nature, and farmers. The place is the field, and I like to watch the farmers work. Young and unwilling, frustrated in life, lack of sentiment (artist), and love ended in failure.
Van Gogh's Realities and Dreams
It is said that Van Gogh was also an office worker after graduation. I don’t know if it was assigned by the school package. He was a salesperson and lived a nine-to-five life like an ordinary person every day. Basically no money. Unsatisfactory things in life often come and go. When I was young, I felt that the real world was different from what I imagined. It was normal to encounter some setbacks in work and entrepreneurship. Later, he became interested in religious undertakings. He wanted to inherit his father's business and have a good relationship with his father. At that time, he began to pay attention to the people at the bottom of the society and wanted to save the poor and unfortunate people. Later, he found that there were unspoken rules in the evangelistic industry and resigned angrily. Since then, I have encountered the first period of confusion in my life. I feel that the future is bleak and I cannot find the direction of my life. Later, with the help of his younger brother Theo, he went to work as a salesman in the gallery where his younger brother is located in Paris. Due to his lack of smoothness, his performance has not been able to improve. Sometimes he cannot even complete the basic tasks. In a metropolis like Paris, only a meager basic salary is available. spend the day. Fortunately, with the relief of his brother Theo, he lived in his brother's house, saving him a lot of rent expenses.
During the period of selling paintings, although Van Gogh didn't make much money, he found his lifelong hobbies and finally found that his favorite was painting, only painting can feel his existence, only painting can express self-worth. You must know that living in a big city is very stressful. Coupled with the pressure of work, and often working overtime, Van Gogh did not have enough time and energy to learn painting. So in order to pursue his dream wholeheartedly, Van Gogh once again resigned and returned to his hometown. He studied and studied painting assiduously, and was determined to create his own achievements in the painting industry. He was 27 years old.
Some people think that Van Gogh is escaping from reality, using his interest in painting and dreams to comfort himself. In fact, people who understand it know that this is his self-rescue. Theo was very happy when he heard his brother say that he had found the direction of his life. Then in Van Gogh's ten years of painting career, Theo sent his brother living expenses almost every month to let him paint with peace of mind (to Van Gogh). This is a very important factor for the road of art), helping him sell his works in his own shop, although only one painting was sold.
Van Gogh’s painting lasted ten years. Since he lived in the countryside, of course he liked this simple rural environment. Apart from staying at home to read and study at night, he often wore a straw hat and carried a picture clip to the fields at four in the morning. Paintings of nature and peasants working in the fields, once he enters the painting, he will forget about both of them. Whether it is cold winter or sweltering heat, he seems to enjoy it very much. In that era, few painters painted works of these lower classes. He felt that this was the style he wanted, and it was also a blank in the industry. Van Gogh said: "There are so many things to learn, not only about painting, but also about people, their feelings and thoughts, the world they live in, and you have to understand these before you can paint them, so, I read all the books I could find..." Therefore, he finally established his belief in painting: "Art should be concerned with the problems of reality, and explore how to awaken the conscience and transform the world."
Of course, in such an early society, there were so-called very In the cruel reality, most young people will not be accepted by their families when they pursue their dreams. After all, our family has no background and no backstage. You are not born in an artistic family, and you are not a rich second generation. Let’s not say whether you have this talent or not. Economic and educational background are both problems. Can painting be eaten as a meal? Gao Gao, you are not too young, you are already twenty-seven, and you will run to three in a flash. It is time to mature. Our village is about the same age as you, and the children are about to play soy sauce. You are still a bachelor, face the reality Bar. Hurry up and find a stable job, be down-to-earth, find a wife, get married and have children, just let it go, mess around, why bother yourself. You should also make plans for your future. You see that housing prices have risen again, your conditions are not very outstanding, and your people are not very handsome. You said that in today's society without a house or a car, which woman would be willing to follow you! The path of art is too unrealistic, and your personality is not suitable for this circle. There are too many unspoken rules, and you start late. Everyone learns it from an early age. It is okay to regard it as your hobby. It’s too impractical to use it for food, and you can’t survive without capital... I didn’t expect that more than 100 years ago, society was like this. It seems that the world has never changed, but the way we look at the world has changed.
Everyone was not optimistic about the path he took, and the villagers also sneered and ridiculed from time to time, thinking that this guy was a college student anyway, but he stayed at home all day idle, and what kind of art did he advertise? Dressed like a peasant, with no taste at all, his younger brothers and sisters felt embarrassed. Van Gogh knew that it was not their fault, but their consciousness, which further stimulated his creative desire, his desire to change the society. Van Gogh knew that some things in life cannot be avoided and must be learned to bear, like loneliness. But in the end, due to the affection of his family, he had to go out and wander around and start the life of Beidrift. Among all the family members, Theo is the only one who understands and supports his brother Van Gogh the most. He has always regarded his brother as a spiritual pillar since he was a child, and he is the only one who can feel his delicate emotions and see his works. What Theo wanted to express, Theo knew that the only thing that could help his brother was to help him solve the problem of money, and in order to continue to practice painting, Van Gogh almost invested a lot of living expenses in buying paints and painting tools. ...
Van Gogh is not a genius .
Van Gogh began to teach himself painting at the age of 27. He was entangled with loneliness and passion all his life, and finally became a great artist. There is a very important reason for his brother Theo to help his life, so that he can devote himself to his life. Delve into painting. If you and I are also raised by someone, without considering the money that real life brings, will you and I spend a lot of time and energy doing what we really love? Can you also realize your life value in a certain area of expertise? I think I can, and so can you! But the reality is that no one is supporting us and we have to deal with the money ourselves. Therefore, we are afraid; therefore, we spend a lot of time and energy to make money; therefore, we cannot become great artists. A few days ago, a friend left a message to me and said, "You can still have your own hobbies, but I don't know when I started to become isolated from my hobbies."
Once someone becomes famous, we always say that he is a "genius", or Saying that people are talented and that he was born to engage in art... Saying this will harm many children with dreams. Van Gogh is not a genius, otherwise he would not have sold only one painting when he was alive, he was just a child born in an ordinary rural family, he just spent all his time and energy in the rest of his life on what he liked to do On, a simple person who loves painting and loves life. This is also the transformation of his acquired consciousness, and the so-called potential and talent are also developed the day after tomorrow.
Van Gogh's fame factor
I think there is indeed a way to succeed. Regarding Van Gogh's artistic path, I would like to say a few points of my personal opinion. There are several very important factors that made him successful:
First, there is the relief life of younger brother Theo. I think this is a very important factor. If his brother Theo hadn't helped him solve the money problem brought by real life, perhaps today Van Gogh would still be an office worker struggling to survive, instead of painting in the fields at four in the morning. In dreamland, painting is really regarded as a hobby to pass the time on weekends. Many art masters tell us that the biggest secret to learning the same art is: practice, practice, practice. Take piano practice as an example. Compared with the so-called amateurs and professionals, amateurs practice the piano for one or two hours a day, while it is common for professionals to practice the piano for five to eight hours a day. Whether you are an amateur or a professional depends on How much time and energy do you spend a day focusing on one thing. In general terms, if you can keep focusing on one thing day in and day out, year after year, you will be a master at it ten years from now. Of course, if you want to be fast, it's the second secret: finding goals and methods. One or two hours a day or seven or eight hours a day, you always need to have practice goals. I won this piece today, and there should be many small goals under this big goal. Through this piece, I can completely solve the skill of smooth playing, improve my right finger movement ability, and learn to play with emotion. I plan to practice a song a week, practice the flexibility of my left pinky finger in a month, what style of work I want to pursue, what kind of work I use to express what kind of ideas, whether I paint peasants or ladies, etc., Only when we have goals can we know what we are practicing, how we are practicing, and where we are practicing. The so-called method, it is better to have no book if you believe in the book. If the method in the book does not work, you must re-find and develop a learning method and method that suits you. If the rhythm of one section cannot be eaten, divide it into two sections to practice, from slow to fast to easy to difficult, the method that suits you is the most important, this requires constant exploration and research in the practice, it is a good thing to encounter problems and solve them With him you will progress. Like life, I believe that there is no obstacle to overcome, but the common problem of Chinese people is that they say they can't do it. Find goals and methods that will allow you to do more with less. Back to the topic, when it comes to Theo, he is really an angel. There are two events that show how much this brother worships his brother. One is that he named his son Wen Cente, the other was six months after his brother Van Gogh committed suicide, and Theo also went with his brother out of heartbreak. I still remember the last scene in the movie, Van Gogh was lying on the hospital bed before he died, and said to his brother Theo with a face of guilt: "If I hadn't caused you so much trouble, I would have nothing to regret, at least I should let you The cost of paint and canvas pays back…”
Speaking of the second factor that contributed to Van Gogh's fame, I think it was precisely because Van Gogh began to learn painting at the age of 27 that after experiencing the baptism of society, his mind became more mature and his character became more free and easy, from stubborn to Paranoia is no longer easy to change their minds. It seems that artists are all paranoid. He understood the society and himself clearly. He understood what he wanted to do, not what his parents wanted me to do or what others wanted me to do when he was a child, so he could concentrate more on the things he liked. . I think when he was a kid, his parents must have wanted Van Gogh to be a priest, and that's why Van Gogh didn't have a good relationship with his father. It seems that there is nothing wrong with getting a job first and then choosing a career.
The third factor, non-professional birth. For Van Gogh and even many people, it is a good thing not to be born into an artistic family. At the peak of Van Gogh's creation, he abandoned all acquired knowledge, ignored the dogma cherished by the academic school, and even forgot his own rationality, he said: "In order to express myself more powerfully, I use color more freely. .” In fact, not only the color, but also the perspective, shape and proportion are deformed, in order to express an extremely painful but very real relationship with the world. This is also one of the reasons why some amateur players perform better than professionally-born academics in some art competitions now.
The fourth factor is also very important. I think the academies teach more about painting with techniques, and seldom teach students to paint with emotion, while Van Gogh has a connotation of life, and his works are full of delicate life emotions. It is precisely because he lives in the countryside that he often experiences life with people at the bottom such as farmers. He understands the world in which they live and their feelings and thoughts. Love, so he even wanted to be a peasant painter. Van Gogh was a painter who loved nature and could see pure beauty from simple things. He said that he would rather paint the shadows of trees seen from the window than the beautiful illusions in his imagination. He summed up his creative feelings like this : "I risked my life for it; half of my sanity collapsed because of it; but it doesn't matter..."
Finally, I would like to mention a factor, some people who had an influence on Van Gogh. The younger brother Theo not only helped him solve the money problem, but also introduced him to many famous painters through his own connections, especially Gauguin. Can you find a confidant with similar interests and like-mindedness in this society, is it easy for you to say? ? At the same time, it also tells us that art requires communication. In addition to staying at home and practicing more, we also need to watch more, listen more, and learn more. Although the Internet is very developed, we still need to go out and communicate more. Every communication with the outside world is both self-denial and self-affirmation. At the same time, you must have a strong psychological endurance, and don't cut off your ears and self-mutilate like Van Gogh. In addition, I would also like to talk about the women related to Van Gogh. For Van Gogh, who has no house, no car and no life style, love is indeed a luxury. After eating one meal and worrying about the next meal, you have to stand still and be a model for you all day long. After a long time, women will be boring. I think everyone hopes that Van Gogh can find a great woman behind him, take care of his life, and don't eat some paint-flavored meals every time. Unfortunately, this is not a movie. Van Gogh is destined to be entangled with loneliness and passion for a lifetime, and his love is in the painting.
The above five elements are the major factors that I personally think made Van Gogh successful, so it doesn’t matter whether you live in a rural area or a metropolis, professional or non-professional, handsome enough or not, it doesn’t matter, maybe what you have On the contrary, you can finally achieve it, hold a grateful heart.
But why did Van Gogh sell only one painting when he was alive? Waiting until eight years after his death to be noticed by the world? For Van Gogh, who is far away in heaven, I don't know whether to feel relieved or even more sad. This has something to do with his era. At that time, for the bourgeoisie, painting was a noble art. Van Gogh had no formal professional training. His works were considered ridiculous smears, and you Van Gogh Gao painted some peasants working and eating potatoes all day long, which was vulgar. However, Van Gogh thought it was a beautiful thing, so he also thought it was a blank in the industry. Unfortunately, there is no market! Even for us as ordinary people, we will buy some famous brands, noble luxury accessories from famous brands, etc., to highlight our quality of life, even if we are carrying LV and squeeze the bus, we can advertise ourselves. Will hang in the house shabby pictures of ploughing in the fields.
It is difficult to explain a person's life in a movie or a book, let alone an article of several thousand words. Is Van Gogh's life worth it or not? Only he himself knows... All the above opinions may have some personal subjective consciousness, but I think they should be able to find resonance with some people!
To my 27-year-old self
[a few years ago and a few years later] I don't know why? At that time, when I saw others playing the piano, an inexplicable impulse and excitement came to my heart, and I even shed a tearful joy and emotion, so I picked up the guitar and sang. No matter what happens in the future, I don't want to put it down again...
August 27, 2011 Guangzhou
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