raise the sails, raise the sails, bring memories, we search together, we are together, to this day, can you still remember
the sorrows we have experienced
? Or long forgotten?
The small palm also contains the strength that surpasses yours and mine.
Under the ripe grape trellis, I wave goodbye to those times full of tears.
With these little hands, even if they are separated from each other, they can still move forward on this road,
until one day in the future, they will deeply bury those precious memories.
The seasons change silently, and the once cold wind
also quietly falls asleep, in the song of spring.
The small palm also contains the strength that surpasses you and me.
The face full of tears, reflecting a dash of beautiful smiles, those past.
With these little hands, even if we are separated from each other, we can still move forward on this road.
When that day comes, we have already buried all our memories deeply.
With these little hands, one day we will surpass the hurried pace of you and me.
When the day finally comes, it will gently open for us, a new time.
——"Little さなてのひら": "Clannad After Story" chapter 22 insert song
I still can't help it. I felt that it would be too immature to be greedy for one meter of sunshine on the Jingjing campus and refuse to accept the abrupt edges and corners of real life (I admit that it is mainly for watching such wonderful cartoons!), so after two days of maddening, I finally put together "Clannad" After Story" (hereinafter referred to as AS) finished. From the warm and sweet continuation of the upper part at the beginning, to the plot changes that are too fast to follow since the 16th episode, and also exhausting the body and mind, until the last 22 episodes, the overall situation turns sharply, which is painted in the most primitive tenderness and warmth. A complete rest. As for myself outside the play, from the moment when Xiaozhu had to give birth at home and suffered an accident, tears fell exaggeratedly, and wept intermittently with the development of the plot for more than two hours until the end of the play. Even at the end of the big reversal, I couldn't help crying, as if the happiness that had been lost so easily had miraculously returned to my heart, it was too beautiful to believe.
I have heard people say before that the real essence of the story of "Clannad" lies in AS. I used to think that the height reached in the first season of "Clannad" has surpassed all the animations I have read before. It is no exaggeration to become a masterpiece. However, after watching AS, people really understand what "Clannad" wants to convey.
As mentioned above, AS still followed the unfinished campus story with a little sweetness from last season at the beginning. Continue to use light colors to render the life hidden behind others - whether it is the figure of bravely standing up to protect the younger sister in the sunset, or the unrenewed love under the lights of the autumn festival, it is as familiar as the exclusive mark of "Clannad", which is very familiar. Find the lost touch in the slow-moving plot.
Slowly Clannad developed at a pace that was completely out of our control. In the winter, Xiaozhu fell ill again, and the silence of the passage of time disappeared in the drowsiness all day long. After the graduation ceremony, Nagisa and Tomoya started on different paths. Nagisa had to re-read the third year of high school because of too many absenteeisms. The situation of being alone was only as lonely as the fallen leaves in the bleak autumn wind because he was separated from the support of his former friends, and there was no way to complain. Okazaki Tomomi also began to walk into the society, from a bakery helper to an electrical company maintenance man, working in the town from 9 to 5, and fell to the ground tired at night, unable to move... People often say that the campus is a condensed society , it is true that there will be successes and failures, will communicate with different people, and will make their own choices at critical moments. But at the same time, the long ramps on the campus, the laughter of classmates, and the happy past stored in the ministry room lightly cover up the cold edges and cruel faces of society.
Therefore, Haruhara Yanghei, who has always been cynical and stupid, will honestly dye black hair back, and in the past, he would only spit out the mouth without any cover, but out of time to say "what the company wants me to do";
therefore, the Fujibayashi sisters will She was too busy to find time to meet her good friends;
therefore, Okazaki concealed the fact that her right shoulder was injured in order to save her hard physical work;
therefore, Kotomi would pack her bags and travel across the ocean alone. The figure has never been nostalgic...
Although the story has always tried to use a more beautiful and warm way to unfold the lives of different people, the hidden struggles and helplessness afterward make people even think back to the first season. The thought no longer exists: just because In the face of such a real life, people will doubt whether the smiling and carefree memories of that year really existed or it has always been just our delusion...
However, Okazaki and Nagisa are still married. They fulfilled the oath they made before in the heavy rain. Facing the cruel cutting and embarrassment of life, they still held each other's hands with all their hearts, and persistently walked towards the common end point. The stable first half of AS ended when Tomoya Okazaki ran again and again on the court to his future father-in-law Furukawa Akiyo to propose a big game in the form of a baseball game. Knowing that Okazaki's right shoulder was injured, Qiusheng still asked Okazaki to catch the ball back. He didn't know whether this was embarrassing Okazaki, Nagisa, who was worried, or himself who couldn't bear to let go of his weak daughter. The last time I tried my best to return the ball successfully, accompanied by the endless pouring rain, it seems that all happiness has found a place to stay, and we can also look forward to the emotional end of the whole 36 episodes with blessings.
Then we watched with a smile as Nagisa Furukawa turned into Nagisa Okazaki, and watched the years the two of them spent together in a dilapidated and dilapidated hut. Xiaozhu is also a high school student who has never graduated and jumps wildly all the way to his fiancée, and then to the expectant mother with a child. Just at the dusk and sunset when the sun halo rendered the sky and the earth, on the undulating beach, the writing of the three words "Okazaki Shio" condensed all the fantasies and hopes of the parents for the child to be born.
—I have been able to give my child a surname. So, hopefully he has you in his name.
——Ah, is it Nagisa or Xiaozhu or something?
- No, it's all about your name.
——Then call it Shio. As wide as the sea. I am just a river.
Unexpectedly, it was very bloody, because the heavy snow blocked the road and could not go to the hospital for treatment, Xiaozhu could only give birth at home and finally exchanged his own life for Xiaoxi's life. The hands that were clenched but still drooped, the cold body that couldn't sense the temperature, the silent silence that no one responded to no matter what... The world that was carefully built and maintained collapsed in an instant. as others have said. Walking alone in the dark night in life is not scary, what is scary is that a bean light that appeared while walking alone was blown out by the strong wind in an instant. Happiness is so easily given and yet so easily taken away, whether this is the essence of life or just a joke.
We don’t understand, and Okazaki doesn’t understand either. So what happens next is incredibly simple. All day long with high-intensity work, endless alcohol indoctrination, and the lifestyle of lying in a cluttered and deserted house to numb myself, the gear of time has been so peacefully tossing and turning for five years. A deceptive outing was the first time Okazaki Tomiya and Okazaki Shio traveled side by side in five years. Looking at the same similar face, Pengyao's heart must be full of disappointment instead of sighing. If it wasn't for Xiaoxi, perhaps Nagisa wouldn't have passed away so early; if it weren't for...Xiaoxi's hot and cold attitude, her unpredictable expression, and her indifferent remarks, Tomoya has always used this inhuman face to go to bed. To deal with Shio Okazaki—the future that once gathered the strength of his life and Xiaozhu's life-but, Xiaozhu is gone, and a life without a future has to sacrifice the past. What's the point of such an absurd script? ?
Xiaoxi, who first appeared on the stage, is unexpectedly cute and lively, with a hint of hidden inner strength. To bow his head sensible to accept the unreasonable accusation of the man called "Dad", he can cheer for a small robot toy, and the small figure shrouded the whole summer of the wheat field. The most profound picture in my memory is that Xiaoxi secretly hid in the toilet and cried because of her father who lost his temper. When Tomoya asked, he also pretended to be strong and shook his head. At this moment, Tomoya realized that maybe her daughter knew something from the beginning to the end, but she had been indulging in the pain and had never thought about her feelings. At this time, Tomoya said lightly: "Cry as much as you want now. When you grow up, there will be many times when you want to cry, but you won't be able to cry." It was just a light and indifferent sentence, but it made me unstoppable. crying wildly. I have to secretly admire the screenwriter's skill, and the mood reflected in just a few words, I can imagine how Okazaki walked through the lonely years after the loss of the loved one in his life in the past five years that he deliberately ignored. This method of not relying on the character's own heart-wrenching crying, but exchanging the audience's tears with a bland and self-seemingly sad setting is indeed successful (I have to complain, I started scolding the screenwriter from chapter 16 for why they are so cruel these days. People are abusive!!!!!!).
When Tomoya Okazaki was dragged back to the end of the narrow and long ramp by memories, he once again felt the screenwriter's good intentions. Okazaki met his grandmother, the mother of the man who he hated all his life called his father. Facing the bewildered but stubborn grandson's eyes, the old man slowly revealed the secret that had been buried for nearly 20 years - the
same youth, the same ignorance of the world, the same loss of love, the same departure from home. , the same hard work, the same despair, there is no reason for depression, but the only belief that he is the only child. Even though he later became alcoholic and depraved due to excessive work pressure, even though his dream was ruined because of a dispute with his son, he never forgot that his shoulder was the only support for his young son. Tomoya, who was in the same situation, just blindly escaped, escaping from seeing Xi, for fear of involving memories that he did not want to touch; escaping from life, wasting time in a daze every day; escaping responsibility, unwilling to take on everything that his father should do... and finally awakened The friends who were friends suddenly saw clearly the path they should take in the future, and the father and daughter, who embraced each other in the setting sun, surrounded by clusters of wheat ears, understood what was worth waiting for for the rest of their lives.
The five-year late awakening has the support of the family and the understanding of Shio. In the end, Tomoya, who woke up in the middle of the night under the darkness of the night, listened to Nagisa's parents' conversation through a thin layer of curtains:
- Over the years, you haven't cried since that day. Now, can you cry?
Qiusheng, who has always been rude, spoke to Sanae in a serious tone that was rarely indulgent, while Sanae on the side burst into tears in an instant. Haruka remembered that when Nagisa died, there were only Tomoya and Nagisa in the camera, and the sadness of Qiusheng and Sanae who were standing beside them seemed to be unbearable for the camera and chose to skip it. How they endured the death of their beloved daughter, how they cared for their friend who was devastated and gave up, and how they took care of their ignorant grandson... We don't know how they supported each other during these inhumane five years, and the screenwriters were stingy. Only when Tomoya woke up, he left us a silhouette of two people crying to the moon.
it is more than words.
What follows seems to be a return to Clannad's usual rhythm. Fengzi (that is, the chairman of the starfish support group!) who had been sleeping for nearly ten years finally woke up and hugged the cute Xiaoxi tightly in his short and exaggerated tone; a piece of paper was just a glimpse of a wild boar-like drawing, but it made a group of stepmothers party. Excited: Fujibayashi Xing, who was unrequited in love with Tomoya, unexpectedly became Xiaoxi's kindergarten teacher; Qiusheng and Tomoya, who were secretly competing for the bonus sports meeting, just so that they would not lose face in front of Xi; Let Xiaoxi say to others, "My father told me about my mother. She loves to cry, but she works very hard to give birth to Xiaoxi, and she is a person my father likes very much.
" Clannad has always used warmth to wrap cruelty, peace to cover up waves, and illusion to disguise eternal bridges. Yes, here we go again. After being fully mentally prepared, I watched helplessly as Xiaoxi suffered from the same disease as her mother Nagisa, and finally died in the middle of the snowy street. The one who experienced all of this was our unfortunate hero again, Tomiya Okazaki.
At this moment, the picture quickly turns back to the lonely girl in the end world and the little robot who has been guarding her, which has been interspersed since the first season. The two of them watched the flowers bloom and fall in a lonely world that was so empty that only the echoes of their thoughts were left, and the remote sensing clouds curled up in the clouds. The sudden arrival of a heavy snow made them determined to embark on a journey to find that warm and noisy world. Before the raging wind and snow swallowed their pace, the girl finally fainted in the ice and snow. Just when she was dying, her dialogue with the robot revealed the meaning of the whole play - the
girl is Xiaoxi, and the robot is Tomoya. They once lived together in a two-dimensional world parallel to the real world, once chewed the pain of loneliness alone, once held hands and hoped to pray for happiness together. Their encounters in the two-dimensional world fully insinuate everything in the real world: life is so short and full of unknowns and variables. When I was young, I was ignorant and fearless to squander, willful, and freewheeling. I was bumped, fell and injured, and gradually touched my own limits due to frustration and scars. What can be done and what can't be done, what can be asked and what can't be asked; the continuous accumulation of calm, strong, calm, more rational and more responsible maturity. The eyes that have gradually become transparent because of growth are finally able to distinguish what they want in this world of colorful people and scattered people.
The scene snaps back to the ramp where the two met at the beginning of "Clannad". At this time, Tomoya is no longer the child who let his heart do whatever he wanted, and his eyes are full of humility and confusion. He didn't know if it was a complete mistake to meet Nagisa in the first place. If life were to start all over again, yes, they were now on the verge of re-selection. He would rather he never appeared in Nagisa's life, like two parallel lines. There is no intersection. Maybe all the sadness in the future can come to an end. But——
the girl in the two-dimensional world destroyed that cold world with her own death, and made a promise to meet the robot on the other side of the world. Tomoya suddenly came back to his senses and understood the prophecy of this fate. He turned back and shouted: "Zhu!" And flew back and hugged Xiaozhu tightly. At this time, Nagisa said softly to Tomoya:
"It's great, you can stop me.
I thought Tomoya-kun would feel that it would be fine if I didn't meet me, and I felt very uneasy.
I think it would be great to meet Tomoya-kun. Now, I feel very happy.
So please don't hesitate, no matter what happens in the future, please don't regret meeting me."
We can think that this is a dream or a reality, but we can be sure that this is a test. "Clannad" is an animation work adapted from the popular game of the same name. I heard from friends who have played this game that at the end of the game, both Xiaozhu and Xiaoxi have "died", and then there will be a reappearance of Po, where the hero and heroine met. Dao, if Tomoya chooses to pass by Xiaozhu at this time because he feels guilty for the series of misfortunes caused by his appearance, then the ending cannot be reversed. But if Tomoya can overcome his inner unease and say hello to Xiaozhu as he did at first (see the most shocking opening of the previous log for details), Xiaozhu and Xiaoxi can come back to life. Converting to animation is what it is today. Looking at the two people who hugged each other tightly, they abandoned the self-blame of "if they never met", pushed aside all the uneasiness and regret caused by the suffering, and chose to break free from the barrier of fate even if they encounter life and death, and let all stories start again. Finally understand everything "Clannad" wants to tell us:
How many people and so many things pass through their fingers like a broken hourglass, only this little gold, this little flame, has always brightly warmed their way forward - in this seemingly long but not rich life time, How fortunate it is to meet this person, get to know this person, fall in love with this person and be loved by this person.
If the initial relationship between Tomoya and Xiaozhu was love, then it extended to family later. This also fits the meaning of the title of "Clannad" - family, an immortal legend that continues with love and hope.
Yes, we are family. No matter what happens, the fact that you are a family is suffocatingly powerful.
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