If I go back 15 years, I wore headphones and turned the volume of my Walkman to the deafening level. The capital city I live in is so backward, but I can always find a surprising set in the small audio-visual store on the road. The tapes, the Hong Kong and Taiwan book reading room in the library, can be read all afternoon for one yuan, without the Internet, without mobile phones, the world seems to be only that big... But the dream still grows wildly. When listening to MJ's music, I never seemed to doubt in my heart that one day I would stand on the scene, even if it was only from a distance, with those hysterical fans, calling and shaking indifferently - I always believed when I was young The world is ours, maybe not now, but one day it will be. Faith makes the ignorant fearless. Even if he knows a little about reality, he always feels that he will never compromise.
Later, I left home and went to school, and I grew up slowly in seven years. Amid countless frustrations, frustrations and tears, I became a little bit more mature, but at that time I still regarded the future as a ladder to ascend. There were distractions and depression, but I still walked. , Surrounded by examples of successful people, success is like a promise, asking us to surrender ourselves, and many people do that. Some students go abroad, some join the party, and some take postgraduate entrance exams... Up the ladder, one step at a time, I walked like most people, spending my parents’ money and the country’s money. I had no worries about food and clothing. I gradually learned to accept my fate. I also had some minor desires, which were all arranged on the schedule of life struggle.
When I graduated, the form was not very good. I picked up and picked it up, and there was no ideal job. I received seven years of education that is known as one of the best in the country, but in the end I didn't even have a suitable opportunity. , Seeing that the legs have not yet stepped out of the school gate, the knowledge that is not excellent is doomed to rot in my hands. When I have no choice, I have to choose other standards, so I choose the easiest one, sway around, and a few years have passed. . Now I sit in the movie theater, the days of youthful frivolity and optimism are far away, and suddenly I realize that many dreams have evaporated, not only that your idol is separated from heaven and man, but that real life has become an airtight In the big prison, even if there are seemingly colorful choices, life can only maneuver within the scope it delimits - and within this scope, every look is garbage, black humor, lies and twenty-two military rules.
Don't blame the environment for your frustration, don't live in a world of complaining, don't be a grudge... Like many people, I don't think about the people around me, but I'm good at defending the whole system. It's a little bit, it's the United States that has ruined the world economy, isn't it mature enough to have interpersonal relationships, isn't it too clumsy to learn smooth skills? Is it that we are not suitable for this society and this country? Never willing to admit, in fact, it is very likely that most of the problem is not our own. But what about our own dreams? Ideals, love, truth, goodness and beauty, all of which must be understood with quotation marks. If you still believe in them, will you be laughed at? Being laughed at too studently, being laughed at immature, and even the power of gloating to see reality completely destroyed the little belief in my heart.
Injustice and injustice have become the basic rules of the system. There are many cases where the moral bottom line has collapsed. Lies have become not only facts that have to be accepted, but also props that have to be used. History seems absurd and in fact repeats itself every day. The lively news that they are watching and listening to will come to anyone inadvertently one day, and many young people are beginning to face the huge pressure of prices and housing prices. The quality of life continues to decline... Progress is the biggest illusion of this era, yes, when I firmly believe that I have When I stand at the MJ concert one day, I still believe that I will never become a numb person and a lie machine maintainer, what am I doing now? In fact, like thousands of young people, I not only endure a low-quality life without dreams, even a low-quality life, and share the regression and heavy pressure caused by the entire country and the entire system, but on the one hand, I still blame myself Catch the tail of success.
If compromising with all this is a reality, then I am indeed ashamed to mention any more dreams.
(But in my heart, I still cherish myself as a hidden idealist, just like the pure satisfaction and happiness a child brings to me, I believe in family affection, even though my family always makes me miserable, I also believe in it. Love, I am grateful for a person who is willing to accompany me all the time. I also believe in the feelings of others, in art, in an upright soul, and in belief. Maybe I am not a happy person, nor a successful person, but maybe I would be content with myself and not be one of "them".)
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