I remembered a picture I saw a long time ago, a girl wearing a blue-black cloak, walking alone in a dark forest with a lamp, the inscription is "I walked into the forest of memories again". Very apt, the memory is such a feeling.
"Nostalgia is a terrible masochism" is a famous quote of mine. Do you remember the night after watching a horror movie, unable to fall asleep, constantly reminding yourself of all kinds of scary clips, afraid but still reminding yourself constantly, like masochism. The process of nostalgia is the same.
In this kind of film, I like to draw a person's head very small and the body very large, with a bit of a hunchback. This makes it even more lonely.
I watched it while soaking my feet in the bedroom where the lights were turned off. When the water for washing my feet cooled down, the short story was over, and the corners of my eyes got wet. I didn't feel sad in my heart, but I knew that a little more inside, it was already sad. Some things are unexpected, and when you think about them, they collapse. The last time I was so sad was a long, long time ago when I watched Naoko Anbo's "The Window of the Fox" as a child. This was the first real tragedy of my life.
At that time, I understood that even if the person you love and the person who loves you are by your side, some things can only be faced alone. such as memories.
I have a particularly good memory, and when I was no longer a teenager, "Do you remember?" became my mantra. Most of the other people's reactions are not remembered. Those things I've seen, or my humiliation, are things that no one else cares about. So many things, only I remember, so did they happen? As if I was the only one on the road, as if this old man was the only one left in the world, and those memories were carried into my increasingly heavy luggage.
Some things should no longer be remembered and take up memory. But I can't bear it. Like Annie said, we don't forget because our hearts are willing.
Probably this is called, love is colder than death.
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