But here, I don't want to talk too much about how sexy Brian is, how handsome Justin is, how compatible they are. Just wanted to talk about Michael behind the scenes of BJ's love story. I personally like Michael very much, because in him, he fully embodies all the qualities that a Cancer person can embody, good or not so good.
I saw Michael as I saw myself.
Like all Cancer people, Michael is innocent, kind, gentle and submissive, never dazzling in the crowd. When he is quiet and unassuming, you can hardly notice his presence. And he is so special that even if he sits quietly in a corner, it is difficult to conceal the special charm that he exudes intentionally or unintentionally. This special charm is actually a kind of "home" feeling. Cancer people love their home, they need home, and they are good at giving others the warmth of home.
They are attentive and sensitive. Michael's mother commented on Michael that when he wants to take care of you, you will feel that he understands your own needs better than you; By their side, comfort and encouragement; they are timid and inferior, Michael seems a little hesitant and hesitant when dealing with feelings or anything; they long for stability, Michael always likes to talk about the word relationship, because he needs a home , requires a stable relationship. He doesn't like fresh excitement or radical changes. And this is precisely what Brian, the man he loves and loves the most, is the most difficult to provide him, and it is precisely because of this that they have been in love for many years but have never been able to achieve positive results.
Writing here, many people may question, do they love each other? Of course they are in love!
Michael loves Brian, the love lasts forever, and the love lasts forever.
Brian loves Michael, his love is bleak, and his love is broken.
Michael's love for Brian is a kind of protective love. Over the years, he has been quietly standing by Brian's side, supporting and accompanying him. No matter what happened to Brian, Michael was always the first to get to him.
Brian's love for Michael is a hurtful love. In order to let Michael get rid of his attachment to himself, he did not hesitate to let Michael leave. But after Michael left, he was sad and couldn't let go.
But they don't fit.
What Michael needs is not just a great love, he needs stability, he needs a home. On the day of Brian's father's funeral, Michael refused to have sex with Brian, very firmly. Brian asks Michael, "Isn't this what you've always wanted?" Michael replies, "What do I want? Is it just a drunken orgy?" Of course not, we all know, Brian knows, Michael needs more than This is more.
Brian needed more than just a guardian, he needed to change, he needed someone who had the ability to change himself. Remember what Brian said to Michael in the first episode when he climbed onto the balcony ledge? He said to Michael, "Come on, come up and stop me!" So Brian actually wanted to change himself more than anyone else. He is constantly looking for fresh sex stimulation, wakes up the next day and can't remember the name of the man next to him; he can't have real feelings for anyone with whom he's been in a relationship, and can't let himself fall into any stable relationship go in. He subconsciously knows that this is wrong and bad, but he seems to have fallen into a vicious circle, formed a habit, and can do nothing about himself. He is so powerful and yet so helpless.
So they don't fit.
What Michael wanted, Brian couldn't give him. So when Michael met David, Brian used such a fierce and sharp method to push Michael to David's side.
David is nice, wonderful, the perfect lover for Michael and all Cancer people. He is older, but still sexy and handsome, has such a good professional and social status, loves Michael deeply and takes good care of him; he is elegant, but not childish, and occasionally acts like a spoiled child Michael to show the Cancer-like tolerance and full of maternal love. But Michael still can't, he can't completely open his heart to David, and he can't give David that desperate love.
Why? Simply because David is not Brian.
Cancer people are nostalgic and long-term in love, they can always remember the little things when they were young, and they can never forget their first love. It is probably fate. This person who entered the heart of Cancer for the first time is destined to stay in this heart forever. If the Cancer man can meet the right person at the right time, he is undoubtedly very lucky. Otherwise, this first love will surely torture Cancer people for the rest of their lives. So no matter how good or perfect David is, he is just David. No matter how many shortcomings Brian does not meet the requirements, he is still irreplaceable in Michael's heart.
Brian's 30th birthday was so bad he was delirious, and Michael reassured him by saying, "Whether you're 15, 30, or even 50 or 100, you'll always be beautiful, you'll always be young, you'll always be Always attractive! Because you are Brian Kinney!" This is not what Michael said casually to comfort Brian, this is indeed Michael, and it is also a true portrayal of the psychology of all Cancer people!
When David went to the public bathroom to play, he was unfortunately hit by Brian who was hunting there. After David confessed the truth to Michael, Michael was very calm, and he didn't do anything to David at all. It was easy to let the matter pass. Instead, after Michael learned that Brian also went to the bathroom that day, he asked Brian, "Have you two...?" So what did Michael care about? What he cares about is not whether David cheated at all, what he cares about is whether David's cheating object is Brian?
For Michael, Brian is such a perfect image in his heart that he is forever young and always beautiful, and he will never allow anyone, irrelevant or irrelevant, to blaspheme. Michael was hesitant about moving to Portland with David, explaining that it was because David didn't respect his opinion, because David arranged everything, because he felt like David's toy, and so on. Is that so? Obviously not, David pointed out sharply, these are not reasons, Michael's hesitation is just for Brian!
David was right, and later episodes confirmed that even when Michael had already decided to get on the plane, a call from Brian easily called him back. David is wrong in saying that Michael protects his perfect Brian from anyone's fingering and blasphemy, thinking it's all private and secret (even if everyone actually sees through the secret). As a person who loves Michael deeply, even if you know it, you must keep this secret for him. After all, it's you who really owns him, isn't it?
What Michael wanted, Brian couldn't give him. And it was difficult for him to accept the David that he could give him. This is a dead end that Cancer people often fall into. Michael is critical of the near-perfect David, but clings to Brian, the sanctuary of his heart. In his heart, Brian will always be perfect, always the most beautiful one who is like first love and first love! Even those imperfect places will be gradually repaired to perfection by Michael during the long years of love and waiting. So Michael couldn't change and didn't want to change Brian at all.
When Brian might go to NY because of a job opportunity, Justin asks Michael to persuade Brian to stay. Michael didn't agree, just said he would always respect Brian's choice. How to respect? Anyone with a discerning eye could see that if Brian really went to NY, then Michael would give up everything and go with him without a word.
But Justin was different. After listening to Michael's words, Justin was stunned for a moment, but then he frowned and asked, "Is it just like this?"
"Is it just like this?" Wake up the dreamer! That's what Michael, and all Cancerians should ask themselves the most. Ask yourself, is that all it is? Is there nothing else I can do? Can't you just try to change something?
You know, blindly paying and waiting can't wait for the favor of love.
The sad thing is that most Cancer people have a hard time understanding this truth in their entire lives, or they understand this truth, but they can't make changes. This is Michael's sadness, and the sadness of all Cancer people. Of course, if Michael really got out of his shackles and changed Brian, there wouldn't be Brian in our show, nor Justin, nor the QAF story.
Therefore, when Brian finally met Justin, who he was destined to meet, who had the confidence, perseverance and ability to change him, the story of BM began to slowly come to an end. And when Justin finally walked into Brian's heart, the love of BM was truly over - it never really started, but it ended forever.
From this moment on, the love between BMs can be family or friendship, but it has nothing to do with love.
Who said what is the furthest distance in the world I stand in front of you but you don't know that I love you?
The furthest distance in the world is obviously, I stand in front of you, we all know that we love each other, but we can never be together!
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