The one I like is a man wearing a red suspender skirt, a red schoolbag, and red leather shoes. He is full of great enthusiasm for something that adults generally call "life". curious and enthusiastic fifth grade girl. She always gives herself all her expectations for things unconditionally. Even when her expectations fail, she still wraps up all the unsatisfactory edges and corners with kindness and tolerance, and pretends that they don't exist. She seems to be born not to complain, the kindness of a savior, or she doesn't think so much. There are also many paranoia, and when they are not understood, they still use crying to solve the problem.
In fact, Taeko doesn't have much to admire and praise, she is just as capricious as all children. I like Taeko, maybe I should say yes, that willful and stubborn she always makes me feel so kind. It seems that when I saw her, I saw the self who was still running wild at grandma's house, or who was forced to restrain himself when he first arrived in Xiamen, was domesticated for the first time, and still had short hair.
When you were in fifth grade, what was on your mind? In the fifth grade, it should be very angry to be treated as a child, but things that are always big in their own eyes are trivial in the eyes of adults. The worrying thing is probably where to go in the summer vacation, when will my sister give me her shiny leather bag, how to prevent the annoying boys from finding out that I am menstruating, can I skip radishes and onions for lunch? Gossip about the admiration of the boys in the next class, how to increase the scene in the drama, and so on. Every little thing, Taeko was very seriously worrying about her time in fifth grade of elementary school when she "was between school and home, and nothing special happened".
About willfulness.
In the fifth grade, I always feel that I am too mature, but it seems that I still cannot be well understood by adults. We are still speaking a language from a different country. So I got angry with my parents, because it is very serious for me to go to the show and not be able to carry a bright leather bag in my hand, so I don't go out. Because I also care about dignity, after the second sister threw the bright leather bag to me with a bad attitude, she said loudly, "I'm not going!" Because she was so angry that she couldn't figure out why Dad suddenly slapped me, she was on the spot. Back to howling and crying like a five-year-old and didn't fall asleep for a long, long time that night.
Being blamed by adults for being too self-willed, and being laughed at by my sister, why did the division of fractions only get twenty-five points? Is there something wrong with my head? "2/3 of an apple, how to use 1/4 to divide it?!" I cut and cut the apple in front of me, but I just couldn't figure it out. It's just that I'm not convinced, I just have some insistence of my own, and I don't want to be said to be a picky eater and a stupid child, why can't it. "Don't worry about the apple pull, just invert and multiply the scores!" Why is it necessary to follow the adults' routine.
It is said that those who can master the division of fractions will have smooth sailing in the future. Twenty-seven-year-old Taeko went on to say that Yuriko's grades are always mediocre in her class, but she can always get 100 points in the test of dividing fractions. Today she is married and a happy mother of two children, but I have not achieved anything. No matter how you look at it, the grown-up Taeko is just an ordinary young woman with ordinary looks, ordinary positions, kind-heartedness, and fear of change. Like each of us, we often feel powerless in the face of the vastness of life. But the memories of the fifth grade jumped into my mind, only to realize that I and the stubborn little girl had been separated for a long time. Finally, there is such a day, I am mature and no longer willful, but life has become so plain and mediocre. There is such a day, I also become, a boring adult.
About dreams.
"Mr. Crow, please go well..."
Taeko, who is not good at math, may have his own talent in acting. But the only chance to "maybe be a star right now" was severely rejected by his father. Most people have similar regrets in their childhood. Because I don't know what the choice will mean, I always look back after many years, only to sigh and miss a lot. When Taeko talked about the role she had missed in the troupe at the time, I saw the infinite nostalgia in her eyes.
If there is another beginning, can I be another person now?
Ashin said that if he hadn't had such good luck in the examinations that year, he would have been admitted to the High School Affiliated to Normal University. In this way, there is no band called Mayday in the world, and we cannot know him. But maybe, he will live another beautiful life. Maybe, less trouble, more happiness. Who knows! However, we can be sure that we will be less touched, haha, fortunately it is like this now!
About crush.
"That...sunny day, cloudy day or rainy day, which one do you prefer?"
"Yin...cloudy day."
"Me too!"
Because I was afraid that my classmates would spread rumors about him and the next class Hirota, so Will deliberately hide far away. When the opponent was playing a baseball game, he only dared to keep the thought of "he's so good" in his heart, and on the surface, he had to cheer his class seriously.
It was an accident that Hirota appeared in the alley halfway home from school. But who will compare fifth-grade love? Even the routine of confession can be omitted, and there is no such stupid question as being together. Even if it was a silly, almost meaningless question and answer, it made the two children seem to have known each other for a long time in an instant, and each other's hearts were filled with joy.
Do you have to characterize this as love? I do not know! In any case, it is as pleasant as flying to the sky and traveling through the clouds!
About growing up.
The answers are sometimes written in childhood. It was Taeko, who was in the fifth grade, who helped her adult self to solve a headache. In the words of adults, it is to find the meaning of life. The adult Taeko finally found her own direction under the guidance of her childhood self. They seem to be parallel to the other side of the river, out of reach, but always marching side by side. Time overlapped, and she finally heard her own voice.
Pull to pull, run bravely.
postscript?
When I saw an article about a child written by Yoshitomo Nara, I agreed with it very much.
The article said, I never thought the doll was evil, she was just unhappy, but not mindless. It's just that sadness covers all colors and objects, and it is far less incompatible with happiness and joy than the grinning clown; it is loneliness that occupies every picture, and any sharp tool that is reduced and soft can only be contrasted a little. His or her unstoppable courage and determination to retreat in the pink halo become more and more like a simulated gesture. Those strokes are magnified weak minds.
I don't think it was me or she who wanted to hurt someone when I was a kid, wanted to cause a lot of trouble, and wanted to make adults angry and unlikable. Children have things they want to maintain and express, they just haven't learned the language of adults.
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