Hold your breath and clasp your arms and watch the whole process, pause the playback a few times and take a deep breath before continuing.
On one side is a psychopathic and pedophile who sexually assaulted his perverted father, and on the other side is a weak hypocritical and morbid mother who let everything happen and indifferent. I don’t think anyone can blame Melrose who has been living in the dark all the time. The dry well that he wanted to jump into countless times: claustrophobic, dark, and unable to see a little light.
But he didn't jump.
As an adult, Melrose was addicted to alcohol, drugs, and sex. He needed all of this to numb himself, so that he could relieve the pain of reality and the pain of life a little bit. Just like BoJack, the horse boy who was also unable to reconcile with his parents as a child, and BoJack was only subjected to the indifference and verbal violence of his parents, Melrose's pain was much greater.
Melrose's memorial service where he went to the wrong funeral home after his father's death was so similar to BoJack's mother's speech at the funeral that he went to the wrong funeral, it reminds one of the famous opening line of "The Outsider" - "Today Mom Dead. Maybe yesterday, I don't know." What a huge absurdity and pain. His father, whom he rightly hated, died so flamboyantly that there was neither revenge nor forgiveness. Just leave yourself with endless pain and torture.
But Melrose eventually confronted the pain and trauma of the past with unimaginable strength. No one should be treated like this, and no one should spend their life making up for the evil and atrocities others have done to them. He worked hard to become a normal person. Even if he fell repeatedly, he would strip away the poison in his blood, and give his wife, children and family an ordinary but so precious future.
Finally, he walked out of the dilapidated and cramped apartment building facing the sun, and I believe he did it.
"It gets easier...Every day it gets a little easier...But you gotta do it every day—that's the hard part. But it does get easier."—this line from Horseman, which can be used as an annotation for Melrose . It was Melrose's little desire to save himself that he never gave up that finally restrained the shadow of his parents and ended this vicious cycle.
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