EVA Preface (The newcomer has not seen the TV version, and I have not watched the following ones before writing this text. I am just a beginner to talk about my feelings after reading the "Preface")
From the time the army attacked the third apostle to the second time Ikari lay in the hospital, after hearing Zero's goodbye. The atmosphere was suppressed to the extreme. Huge machines roar, fights for no reason, indifferent dad, cynical vanguard of justice, beloved dogmatic girl. Let Ikari's words always choked in his throat. Loneliness, incomprehension, and meaninglessness make Ikari, who is sensitive and longing for love, miserable. He relied on music and daze to relieve the depression accumulated in his chest... The confession before the war and the conversation with Zero could not move that numb heart. At 0:00, the battle begins. Confusion and regret, indecision and escape, the first shot missed. What followed was a stormy counterattack from the apostles. Maybe just die. Death in a world without love might be a good choice. See you later. Night has come, and death has come. Zero stood in front of the god of death. Whether it was the constraints of dogma or the truth that could not be concealed with a cold face, someone really stood in front of me at that moment. (I mean Ikari, the same below) I am loved. You can't let Zero die, you can't let the world be destroyed, you can't run away, you must kill the beast in front of you. Lock on the target, pull the trigger, this moment is not just a mechanical joint movement, but a roar full of love and anger. No numbness, no doubt and confusion. Cheers remembered that mankind was saved, but that was not important, it was nothing more than boiling raindrops. There is only one person who actually has a link with me - zero. At this moment, I just want to see your appearance. I ignored the burning of my hands and opened the cab. My emotions finally erupted. "Don't say anything like nothing else", "And don't say goodbye when we part." We have each other, we are not alone. If possible, I would like to hold you, feel your heartbeat and body temperature, and feel the line between the two people. But now I can only cry, the sadness of fate, the excitement after the killing, the fear of the rest of my life, the unspeakable emotion of a fourteen-year-old girl, all dissolved in the body fluids and slipped out with tears. "I'm sorry, I don't know what kind of expression to make at the moment." "Just smile." Whether it's a dogmatic girl or the girl next door whose emotions have been hidden, you have become my important person. Just smile.
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