I picked out the film I chose for a long time, but I didn’t expect it to be black and white, and the more I watched it, it didn’t look like a comedy film. The process of watching the film was not easy, and I was stuck with various emotions, probably because I was in the predicament of Frances. It: I am not young, love is an insulator, crazy pulling between ideals and reality (it is still art, the heroine is dancing, I am painting), a strong sense of dislocation... Worse, I have no female The Lord is optimistic.
Maybe I used to be very optimistic. I can often see my own shadow from the heroine. I participated in a self-cognition course a few days ago. One of the questions was asking relatives and friends to evaluate themselves. Many people mentioned the "insensitive force". Sluggish...slow, sometimes clumsy or out of place, you can be silly when others are anxious for you. Watching the part where the heroine used the tax rebate money to invite the boys to dinner, I felt inexplicably cordial.
However, now that I am no longer optimistic, when I see such a heroine, I am more embarrassed or even disgusted, probably because I can feel the same way most of the time. For example, being criticized by a new roommate; quitting a friend's party because of financial constraints; calling home in [Nature] and telling the family that he will find a solution; hiding at home and enjoying a moment of comfort and then realizing that it is not Long term solution; relegated to volunteering with students at your own university? Work...I can't understand why it's so miserable, she can still act like a normal person, still be silly, and be brave (especially the part of running to Paris). When she turned down the opportunity offered by the teacher, I even got confused, and then I saw a barrage:
"I don't know what she's insisting on..."
"Clap", soon! I didn't have time to dodge suddenly remembering something that happened last week or so. A relative and friend told me on WeChat that an acquaintance of hers was recruiting an interaction designer, and the salary was good. Can I do it? At that time, I was surprised. I should have told her that I wanted to switch to painting, and I replied, "That's what I did before."
But she immediately asked, "Then can you do this?"
"I can't squeeze out the energy to do it now, and I've lost a year." I had to continue replying.
"What are you doing you can't squeeze your energy out (with an embarrassed look)"
My emotions were instantly blown up because I felt that what I was sticking to might mean nothing to others. It’s been almost a year since I started learning painting from Nakedi last year. Although I have the foundation before, the cycle of painting improvement is also relatively long, and it is not so easy to meet the market demand (of course there are bad jobs, but I have not yet been accepted by the market). to that step). When I made up my mind, I planned for the worst, and I expected all kinds of hardships. The big deal is that I am not in Beijing anymore! If you continue to study in a low-cost place, you can always find something to do. When you start, it is inevitable to start from the most basic!
But the expectation is just an expectation, and the actual experience is another matter. Especially after a long time, enthusiasm is also consumed a little bit, maybe my so-called "insensitive power" is also slowly lost. I seem to be uncontrollably paranoid and sensitive, I need constant affirmations to get me to the next step, and on the contrary, if anything directly or indirectly negates the present insistence, it is a blow to me. That's why I have such a violent reaction to the words of that relative and friend...
"I don't know what she's insisting on..."
This sentence turned out to be the same for my situation. I looked at Frances from a bystander's point of view, and I didn't understand her insistence; other people looked at me the same way, there was nothing strange about it. In short, it is a wonderful nesting doll cycle of "I despise myself".
At the end of the film, it seems that the heroine has "compromised", but in fact I can't say for sure. Maybe she just found another way to persevere. After all, the ideal is about to starve to death, and occasionally she needs a bite of real soil to continue. grow.
It seems that this is the first time I have written such a long film review. There is no logic, and I mainly follow my emotions, but it can be regarded as a kind of self-organization. On the whole, the idea is negative, but it is an attempt to move forward to recognize yourself positively, and the end of the film also provides an answer. This is not a story in which the protagonist finally realizes his dream and creates miracles through arduous efforts. She truly reflects the many difficulties encountered by an ordinary person in the process of approaching his ideal.
If you can't achieve what you want and "get rich overnight", then come to Japan to grow.
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