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How can I forget him? How can I forget the man I once loved so much? How do I forget the man I once loved but betrayed me? These are the three questions raised by Leo in the depths of his heart. They form a progressive chain structure, even entangled in the past love and betrayal, making it impossible to find the answer. Cow", sad as "there is no way to save the relationship between two people", despair like the "shouting competition" being held on TV, in the venting shouts, he will not hear at all.
She ripped off the string of beads in the love album, she couldn't answer a single phone call with tears in her eyes, she imprisoned herself in the dark without lights, she took the medicine that would let her sleep well and possibly kill her - the Isolated in a room with no one, hiding himself in a world that cannot be seen, Li Ou expresses the loss, sadness and despair of a woman vividly, and this state of falling to the bottom is exactly what makes him betrayed The end of the injury. This is a dividing line. Only by waking up from the darkest, quietest, and most desperate world and getting up can we slowly open the world, slowly find hope, and see "My Secret Flower". If this dividing line is used to divide the two texts of Leo’s life, then the former text that allows the outside world to see his happiness is secret, while the latter allows him to see the “secret flower” from the dark world. Going public is a positive face and a symbol of a woman's true return.
These two texts, like Leo as a writer, are two kinds of novels in writing. She went to the "National News" office, found the editor Angel, and wanted to write a review article on the current literary and artistic works in the newspaper. She told Angel that she had not published any works. In order to let Angel understand her commentary style, she even took with a stack of manuscripts. Angel mentioned a romance writer named Amanda Grace in a chat with Leo and asked her what she thought of Grace's work, Leo told Angel, "Her work doesn't have any emotion, I I personally hate her novels." And when Leo came back and finished his review of Grace's novel, it said, "She's just a typist." Leo was on the typewriter when he wrote this, or Said, she seemed to be commenting on herself, and the manuscript was transmitted to Angel's fax machine as soon as it was written, and in a seamless shot, the mystery of Leo's identity was completed: she was actually some Amanda Grace of Romance Fiction.
Grace, who writes romance novels, and Leo, who writes literary criticism, are different names related to text writing, authors appearing in different media, and women with completely different styles, but they belong to the same person. The other is the same, and this is exactly how Leo lives in reality: on the one hand, she writes novels on her typewriter at home, and then sends them to a publishing house under the name of the author, Amanda Grace, and the publishing house publishes them. The novel, completed the contract between her and the publishing house-according to the regulations, she only provided the publishing house with novels created by "Gris", the number of which was 5 per year, and the publishing house also kept this trade secret, At the same time, she must abide by the contract made by the publishing house: it must be a romance novel, the novel must not involve politics, must not be obscene, not talk about social awakening, and must have a happy ending. This is a secret contract between Leo and the publishing house, and its commercial nature makes Leo a secret romance writer.
No politics, no social awakening, love must have a happy ending. Leo is named Grace, which is the writing of a secret text, and this secret text is also a metaphor for her married life. In addition to writing, the most important thing for Leo is to obtain information about her husband Parker, who is a soldier in the peacekeeping force. The two people have been separated for many years, so she misses her husband more and more, and even the phone ring used to contact the business makes her miss her. More and more sensitive, as long as Parker calls, she always gets excited, but Parker's calls are getting less and less, that time she made a long-distance call to Parker, but Parker in Brussels said it was too late, let her call again tomorrow Called, and the next day she called to find Parker, only to be told that the other person was not there. It seems that Parker is also in a secret place, and Leo's happiest marriage seems to be more and more a secret existence. In fact, it is normal for two people to go from love to marriage. She went to her friend Betty that time. She occasionally saw an advertisement, so she told Betty about the hidden love secrets. "Stone" is their passionate love. The slogan they saw at the time, so the two named it "I love you". This is a code word that outsiders don't know, and this is their story.
Using the name of "Amanda Grace" to create a love novel, with "stone" as the code word for "I love you", Leo is in the hidden kingdom he created, but, like calling Grace Just like the name "typist", she actually alienated herself in this secret text. On the one hand, it is a love novel that does not involve politics and does not talk about social consciousness. On the other hand, it is a literary criticism with a sharp perspective. Ou even allowed himself to continue to split, and this alienation and split became more and more separated from his true self. Leo has been wearing the pair of boots that Parker gave her, which is a symbol of love, but in fact, it is a part of daily life in a larger sense. When Leo put it on, he couldn't take it off. A kind of confinement of her feet, and the happiness of enjoying love on the surface is the pain of self-taste for those feet. When she could no longer bear it, she went to the other extreme: she went to the street, Sitting there trying to use her own strength to take it off, but to no avail, so she asked the beggar to take it off and gave him money as long as she could take it off. At Betty's place, Betty took it off, and at that moment, Li Oucai felt that the pain in his feet was slowly relieved.
Putting on the boots is the proof of love, and taking off the boots is the pleasure of freedom. Leo didn't realize at that moment that going from the secret to the public is a kind of self-liberation, even if she is still outside the secret, Betty takes off the boots is still a kind of self-liberation. A metaphor, because Parker's failure to answer the phone conveys a sense of indifference and evasion, which is a hint that something is wrong with their relationship, Leo is immersed in boot-like self-imprisonment, and it's Betty who takes off his boots -- and It was Betty that Parker betrayed Leo in the marriage. Leo received a call from Parker in Betty's office. She hadn't thought of the truth, thinking that Parker called to know that she and Betty together often. In other words, a woman who lives in the hidden world of love and cannot see reality is becoming stupid in a world of self-deception. Leo is such a woman, she is like that Grace, but she is scolded by herself as just A "typist".
The secret world was revealed, Parker came back, and Leo greeted him excitedly, but in exchange for indifference and estrangement, there were hugs and kisses, but Parker said that he didn't like eating cold seafood rice, and Not wanting to be heated, he always turned his back to Li Ou outside the door when taking a shower. Finally, Li Ou realized that it was wrong, "Why do you always run away from me?" And Parker went a step further and said that he would stay at home for two days. He said that he could only stay for two hours, because new tasks were waiting for him, whether it was Li Ou's exposure The quarrel he caused was still Parker's decision to leave. This so-called love has actually come to an end. And this is a public text that Li Ou has to face. She is sad, painful, and even desperate. She wants to keep herself in the dark forever and taste the pain alone, just like the feet in the boots. But after the "Scream Competition" vent, it was the darkness that turned on the lights to eliminate the darkness, and the warmth when she heard her mother's phone call. She had to let herself come out, take off her boots, welcome the light by herself, and see the "secret flower" by herself .
Angel is another man who appeared in her life. When Leo, who walked on the street after waking up, was annihilated by the crowd, it was Angel who accompanied her. The advertisement they saw was no longer "Stone", but "I love you". You"; woke up again, it was Angel's room, there was a bouquet of bright roses in the water glass, and the window was a big advertisement for "Secret Flower"; what Angel told her was that when she drank too much last night, she said Out of the secret about Grace, "You are Grace." - Grace is herself, this is the unity of the two authors of Leo and Grace, and it completely ends the secret story, just like When she faced the publishing house's contract, she said, "I write sincere works, and I will never be bound by the contract." The contract is like a pair of boots, and now Leo has found himself behind Grace, and has begun The search for the "secret flower": she returned to the country with her mother, "a woman, whether it is a divorced or a dead man, should go back to her mother's home and get some sunshine." It is "a cow without bells", but what she needs after she is lost is to find herself at home: she learns to weave with the women of the country, she sings with them hometown songs, and goes to pray together.
For Leo, it's hard to forget Parker who once loved but betrayed her. Even in the process of her searching for herself, Parker's shadow is still there. After watching the flamenco dance of Blanco and Antonio mother and son, She and Angel were walking down the street at night. Angel kicked the trash can and danced while she was dancing. Leo said, "Parker used to play football like this." She thanked Antonio, "I haven't thought about Parker for 15 minutes." What was left in playing football was the past with Parker, and the blankness of not thinking about him for 15 minutes was still a deliberate forgetting, but Leo still To get herself out, use her own power to take off the boots that make her feet hurt, and complete the real love text with her own name, Angel said to her: "You are strong now, but I still like you when you are vulnerable. Women can be fragile, but they are also fragile individuals, with the strength of vulnerability and resilience." On the night of the New Year, she and Angel were sitting in front of the fireplace, with filled glasses in their hands, in the firelight , in the wine, on the way to find love again, the "secret flower" blooms with its beautiful colors.
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