There are two sisters who are not too far away from Ningxia and graduated from prestigious universities. One has twenty heads and the other twenty tails. But in the prime of life, they were suddenly diagnosed with one after another. For genetic diseases, every muscle in the body will gradually atrophy and lose strength. There is no cure. The only way to delay it is to take expensive imported medicines. It’s been nearly a decade now, and I’ve gradually watched the two of them go from walking on the wall to being able to move only in a wheelchair. Degeneration), waiting for their continued deterioration will be completely immobile, swallowing will have no strength to do it, and so on.
The Alice in the play keeps reminding me of them. Alice's Alzheimer's disease is in the brain, and the body is not serious; and the two sisters are losing their body freedom, but the brain is still 100% clear. I don't know which disease is more cruel, but I can imagine how fearful and powerless the feeling of watching life disappear from the body every day.
The most cruel thing about this disease that slowly takes away life is not physical pain, but it strips people of self-esteem and decent bit by bit, and makes the patient a little bit inhuman-unable to walk for a long time. , The legs atrophy, the back is arched, and the spine is deformed; if you can't go out for a long time to breathe fresh air, your complexion will be withered and lose all your complexion; if you don't have the ability to think sharply for a long time, your eyes will be dull, and your eyes will become cloudy. In the movie, Alice is almost gracefully sick, but in real life, I am afraid that the process of being gradually taken away by illness is always ugly and dignified.
I originally thought that I had taken life indifferently. I knew that everyone always had to go. Sooner or later, but seeing such an accelerated flow of life, I would still be sad after all. In such an irresistible frenzy, can people only wait for death?
One day last year, the older sister suddenly announced that she was going online, and she was going to a man in Shandong with all the money, saying that he had promised to marry her. Everyone, family and relatives, were really frightened by her-everyone naturally felt that she was in a situation where she was unable to take care of herself. It was impossible for anyone to really fall in love with her, not to mention the netizens who had not met at all. Everyone felt that That man must have scam her money and abandoned her, so he opposed her going to Shandong to get married.
Soon everyone learned that the man was a divorced man with a handicapped foot and a son, and his family was very poor and the living environment was relatively poor, so everyone felt that this incident was like a premeditated fraud. People robbed all their deposits and then were abandoned, or domestic violence.
But she insisted on going, and she would go whatever she said, and would not listen to anyone's persuasion. I think she probably regards this relationship as the last straw in her life-a last chance to get "happiness" before she is completely deprived of her illness. At that time, my thoughts changed. I suddenly felt that if this is the case, let her go. Since she is already on the way to the worst result, why didn't the ray of sunlight that suddenly entered the fork catch it? ? Although I don't know if this is a ray of light from heaven or hell, it may be the last opportunity in her life to gamble.
After several months of disputes and stalemate, she persisted. Her family was unable to find it, so she had to send her to Shandong. No wedding, no blessing, no new house, they just lived together like this. Contrary to the expectations of all the relatives, this time the sister won the bet. Her man treated her very well. In the following months, the family and relatives visited her separately, saying that the man took good care of her and they lived well. good.
Perhaps this can be regarded as a small warm passage in a story that is doomed to a tragic end. Just like at the end of the movie, Alice's youngest daughter moved back to New York to take care of her, and read to her a long and obscure passage from the book "Angels in America". Naturally, Alice had no idea what her daughter was reading anymore, and her daughter did it. Next to my mother, she gently asked her what she said just now, and Alice said: "Lo..ve.....love".
If life is destined to be born to death, understand and accept "all useful things, such as dream bubbles, such as dew and electricity", if there is still some obsession with the human world, it must not be fame and wealth, but these small and warm Love it.
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