(Just jotting down how I felt after watching it. Not a professional review.)
What did he remind me of? A young child, after discovering that he has an unsolvable problem, chooses to destroy and destroy. Crying and smashing all the surrounding toys. Well, he didn't cry Literally, but the whole thing gave me an inexplicably similar impression. It was the only solution he would have.
The letter after killing a close friend is more like a seven- or eight-year-old child who broke his doll when he was angry, and secretly picked up all the fragments afterwards.
I think his psychological growth in a sense stalled after he witnessed the slightly gloomy death scene of his mother. His father, and even his entire family, was definitely a family that advocated plunder, violence, and authority. The unwillingness of his father's desire for authority to be broken led him to kill his wife, who he thought was contrary to him, for the first time.
The video of him hanging out in front of his brother's house made me think he was pathetic in that moment. Also raised in a Toxic environment, he was the eldest son but was the only one who was old enough to be traumatized when his mother died. His anger towards his younger brother was more like the unwillingness of "why is it me who was hurt, and you who inherited it in the end".
The last paragraph, a little flustered mumbling, is also like a child caught doing something wrong and giving up on himself.
His life is actually like a snowball. Every time you have to make up for the wrong thing last time, every time you have to pay more for it. Because of the childlike nature, in the process of pushing the snowball, he will always have whimsy. (Or I think he has a tendency to self-destruct. This has been there since his youth. Those accidents are his subconscious. self-destruction.)
(Maybe steal a sandwich and try it) (go for an interview) These thoughts are all at that moment, not premeditated. It was the voice deep in the brain that wanted to self-destruct, speaking in a low voice.
(I actually feel very emotional here. I often feel that I also have a tendency to self-destruct. But because there is no trauma, it is not serious enough to be put into action. It is just a thought that will cross my mind, and then be empathized by me too high. heart in time to stop)
It was a very broken and failed life. I want him to be punished by the law, of course. But that doesn't stop me from thinking to myself, if he didn't have that truama when he was young, or if he didn't have such a father, he would have grown a healthy soul. Will he no longer be the jinx that everyone hates. In addition, I really believe that human nature is inherently evil. This evil is simply the kind of evil without empathy. A lot of things done as a child are absolutely cruel. If you don't feel pain, you won't have empathy. So children in my eyes are naturally evil. Only by gradually understanding what pain is like, (psychologically or physically), can you learn how to solve or channel your own problems without hurting others.
It's a pity that he always stayed at the age when he didn't learn pain.
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