From the first-person perspective of a patient with Alzheimer's disease, this film vividly depicts the confusion of time and space. When I was in it, I even felt the same, and could feel the great fear of the ever-changing and complex living environment and time.
"I lost all my leaves." This sentence brought me to tears. I felt the powerlessness that people feel when facing their own life is withering at the end of the road, and the brilliance of the past will eventually fade away.
One of Anthony's most common words is: "Please don't leave me alone." How terrified he is of being eroded by loneliness. I can't help but think of my dearest loved one, the same story is happening, although he often forgets what I said, who I am, and even himself. Although he is often emotionally capricious, he is often even furious because he dislikes his current clumsiness and sluggishness.
But now I seem to understand him better, and it's not his fault that someone I love is sick. Sometimes he is like a stubborn child. Pushing others away does not mean that he does not want to be loved with concern. He wants the attention of his family all the time just because the collapse of his self-awareness and even the surrounding environment has caused him to fall deeply. Painful emotional vortex. I don't know how many times, how scared, how anxious he was, he was so familiar and so unfamiliar with everything in front of him, he tried to express but his words didn't make sense. The more I tried to understand, the more painful I felt. The pain is that I love him so much, But it can't help him bear the crushed world.
I'm full of regret now, how many times my impatience has interrupted our conversation, how many times he's called me and I've turned a blind eye, yes I've been overwhelmed by the trivialities of life and the heaviness of work, but he How much the world needed me, but I didn't know it at the time.
He is my grandfather, but he played the role of my father to raise me. They seem to belong to a generation abandoned by the times. He is always so curious and so afraid of everything in the new world. Born into an intellectual family, he was one of the most knowledgeable people I had ever met, and he was a good hand at writing. After being ill, he lost his ability to express language, often no longer remember this world and us in this world, and no longer recognize words. He often felt anxiety and pain from the details of life, and he often longed for the company of his family all the time. I used to get along with him sometimes with negative emotions, but I didn't take it seriously, and I always changed the law to excuse myself.
This movie woke me up, I can't help but want to say to you: I'm sorry, sometimes my attitude and my choice of words may hurt you, I didn't think about it at the time, please forgive me. At this moment I realize how much I love you, I realize that when I have a chance now, I must hug you more and tell you not to be afraid, although we all have our own life trajectory, but you must be on my trajectory The person who walks with me, no matter what happens, I will be with you.
You might have lost all your leaves, all your wind, but please don’t be afraid, I’m always with you, I got your back.
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