Last year's review for NGE and EOE. On this special day, I was sleepless again because of EVA, so I simply added and deleted it and put it here to commemorate the company, inspiration and emotion brought by the old EVA.
——————I am the dividing line————————— I believe in the benefits of a healthy intimacy, but EVA is not a love story. If the ending of this story is that Shinji fell in love with a beautiful boy or a beautiful girl and lived a happy life since then, EVA would not be the EVA in my heart. Childhood-Adolescence is not something that can't be solved by selfishly asking for it. Pure altruistic behavior, protection, care and dedication, is the source of all security and the best imitation on the way. Friendship may be a kind of friendship that is relatively easy to ignore, but there is an element of "friendship" in many relationships. We often say that a family is the best friend, and a tacit partner is also each other's spiritual friends. Shinji is a difficult child to understand, and his eyes are the window through which the audience observes the world in the EVA, so I will call all the characters I will discuss "Shinji's friends", and use this as an outline to recall those bizarre and heartbreaking. EVA past. 1. Zhu Xun reasonably speculates that the prototype of Zhu Xun is Demian: the same "friend of the male lead", with a strong religious temperament, better conditions than the male lead in all aspects, and always able to solve the male lead's worries and doubts . In terms of appearance, Nagisa Kaoru has both the beauty of a teenager and the sexual appeal of a youth. In a sense, he is a "better Shinji", which is also very similar to Demian's neutral temperament. Kaoru's Endless Love: Holding hands while swimming in the water. Confess. You are fine. His last smile. die. ——Salvation only happens for a moment, and the flawless savior must not survive in the world for a long time. With the surrounding isolation, the perfect Nagisa Kaoru descended into Shinji's heart with the appearance of a virtual master of the wind. Finally, someone completely affirmed his existence, but he still had to kill him in the end—does this mean another denial of himself? 2. Miri's 29-year-old sister Miri has a 15-year age difference. She is too young to be a mother and a little older to be a lover. She is heroic and charming, intelligent and brave, empathetic, and has a cute side of slovenly. Such sister Misato brings Shinji and Asuka together and forms a temporary "home". I like Sister Misato, I will always remember many of her words. Similar to Shinji's life path, Misato stepped on the thorns and walked through it, and finally seemed to gain a firm foothold in the adult world. Looking back at Shinji, that kind of pity and anger are indisputable, is it aimed at this fourteen-year-old boy, or is it difficult for him to be at peace with himself? "I'm sorry, but in the end I couldn't be Shinji-kun's mother." - But, Misato has worked hard enough. She was the one who tirelessly searched for the truth, she was the one who took the lead in escorting Shinji to the elevator, and she was the one who ordered Asuka to be put into the second machine. With Shinji, mother and son/sister and brother/lover, and Asuka, mother and daughter/sister/rival in love, in this intricate relationship, she still chose to lead teenagers and girls to rise.
"What's the use of crying now? If you don't do anything now, I will never forgive you, and I will never forgive you for the rest of my life. Because that's how I make mistakes again and again. In empty joy and self-loathing It goes through the middle cycle, but every time I go through it, I feel like I've grown a little bit."
When I watched EOE for the first time, this quote from Miri brought me to tears. Later, at a moment of near despair, I thought of Misato, and said to the other person, "It's alright. Many times I throw my enthusiasm into the void, but every time I pass it, I feel like I've grown a little bit." It was an important goodbye in my life, but it was so peaceful and calm, neither humble nor arrogant.
At that moment, I was actually very vulnerable.
However, I still remember fragments of memories about "Katsuragi Misato". I am grateful to Sister Misato who gave me a little support. Never forget her last kiss, her tender promise. Sister Misato saw Rei Ayanari before her death, which may mean that she is independent enough. Sunset is magnificent. 3. Why did Asuka arrange for two Sagittarius girls to be Shinji's "family"? Maybe there is a "reincarnation" between Misato and Asuka. On the way to Japan, Asuka told Kaji that she didn't like Misato because the other party was sometimes too "deliberate". "Deliberately" is probably what these two women have in common. Their outer packaging and core are quite similar: they also use their energetic appearance as armor, and they both have an unfortunate childhood and unwillingness to touch. They are also brave and strong to overcome their past and fight to the last moment. Called two sonorous roses. Asuka is a domineering, arrogant, unpredictable Berlin girl. I don't really understand the emotional line of NGE Li Xiang, but I can only understand it as the mutual exploration between adolescent men and women, ambiguous, immature, and playful, and they can't respect each other and think about tomorrow at all. A change in the style of painting in EOE, Shinji suddenly desperately desires Asuka, and Asuka shows naked contempt and rejection. What was Asuka thinking? First of all, she is a girl with a precocious personality, which may be related to the scene where she discovered her father's cheating in her childhood and was stimulated. On the one hand, she is very concerned about her "feminine characteristics" (such as expecting plump breasts and constantly shaking her hair), on the other hand, she is the only EVA female character who has been described as having dysmenorrhea, and said that she will not have children in the future. She despised boys of the same age, and frequently expressed that she only loved the blessing of handsome uncles. However, many psychological qualities can only be obtained through years of growth, even as a young genius, Asuka cannot cross the torrent of age. She was almost shocked and furious to find out that she was in love with Shinji (a guy who was a boy of the same age, weakness, immaturity, and many other qualities she despised), and this "discovery" was basically a psychological breakdown with Asuka Synchronous.
Regarding intimacy, Asuka's attitude is undoubtedly contradictory. She has a warm and active side, and she does not shy away from her love for blessing, even though the girl's feelings for Huaichun are fragile and vulnerable in the cruel EVA world - she can't compete with Miri at all, and blessing to Miri is beyond life and death. Fake, unchanging love. Kaji's death was the last straw that broke Asuka, and we saw a distrustful Asuka. She said she wanted to live alone, and she said she would not want children. Perhaps, she didn't expect anything from the beginning. When the insults and damages were superimposed to an unbearable level, her self-destruction began. Asuka died twice. The first time I committed suicide by cutting my wrists (usually I threw my skirts and bras casually, but this time I folded my clothes neatly, which means I really don’t want to live). In "The Realm of the Sky", it is said that jumping off a building is self-determined in front of others, There are still expectations, but Asuka chose to quietly cut her wrists, which shows complete despair. The second death is to lose to the mass production machine. Asuka, who has died twice, as a lonely, powerful and resentful "woman", expressed complete contempt for Shinji before finishing: It is shameful to escape, and it is hypocritical to escape under the pretext of not wanting to hurt people. Anyway, in the end, it was Shinji who strangled Nagisa Kaoru with his own hands, and it was Shinji who was eager to die while watching Asuka lose the battle. longing people. Fortunately, Shinji finally refused to complete it with Rei's help, and finally Asuka and Shinji returned to the world of the table. Shinji once again fell into a cycle of despair, thinking about strangling Asuka (Asuka's three death experiences were almost all mixed with Shinji's "escape" and hypocrisy), but Asuka was mature enough, she stretched out her hand, expressing her unique understanding and understanding. Be considerate. - The amazing Asuka. I'm not a sixiang party, I just feel that everything is just fine. It's not uncommon for two people to stay warm together, and it would be great if Shinji could find someone else to fall in love with. Embrace each other, or forget each other in the rivers and lakes.
4. Lili and Xiang are not separated from the hairpin, and the hairpin is not separated from the hairpin. Rei once said that she was "a woman without blood", but when Rei and Shinji met for the first time, Shinji had blood on his hands - her blood. I sometimes suspect that the "blood" that Rei refers to may refer to menstrual blood. She is cold and holy, soft and moving, she seems to lack gender awareness, and she is indifferent even if her whole body is pushed down and hits her chest, which is the exact opposite of Asuka. The two of them didn't deal with each other (the incense party presses the claws: to be fair, it's more that Asuka has nothing to do), and the biggest conflict broke out when incense said that Rei was a doll, and Rei clearly expressed her denial: "I am not a doll. ." Xiang lived so sharply that she pointed out Shinji's hypocrisy and uselessness. Keri lets us know that Shinji is, after all, a very kind child. The relationship between Rei and Shinji reflects the natural love between people. Rei lacks gender awareness, and she may not have a crush on Shinji. Before that, the top priority she had to solve was "Who am I?" In Shinji's place, Rei played the role of Yui to a certain extent, and the protection method of "giving up his life to accompany a gentleman" made Shinji feel the affection of his family. Shinji protects Rei, relieves Rei, accompanies Rei, accompanies her to school, jokes with her, and makes her feel like a "human" over and over again. Two weak and helpless children, supporting each other in the vast, mysterious and terrifying world of adults, trying to "live" is moving in itself. It is precisely because of Shinji's kindness that Rei said "I'm not your puppet" when she rebelled against the commander. Sincerely for you - for you, my heart. Thank you for giving me the feeling of being a "human", and I hope you are happy in the future. Shinji-kun. ——When the slender figure gradually disappeared from sight, could Shinji hear Rei's voice?
5. Do not give up treatment:
No one is completely free of illnesses and disasters and grows up smoothly. Looking at EVA, there is an illusion (perhaps an illusion) that "everyone is sick". I can also feel it when I communicate with my colleagues. Everyone has a variety of entry points, but they can all be immersed in it and get a rich emotional experience.
Sometimes I wonder, at the end of the story, why did Shinji strangle Asuka's neck? Could an attack be a cry for help? Even if it is very excessive, indecent, and has no sense of boundaries, it is better than ignoring no one and looking at each other indifferently.
——With the thought of dying like this, should it be said that EVA really makes people dark and crippled? wwwww Even so, it is better than giving up treatment.
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