As "Tissue Terminator", "Cure (Depression) Classic" and other nicknames, "April is Your Lie", in fact, I have already heard about it. When I was studying, several male and female classmates around me saw it and put it It was recommended to me, but I was too busy with my studies. It took a few days to read it until this holiday. After reading it, it still reflects a lot of things, so let's take it slowly.
First of all, our male protagonist Arima Gongsheng, but before we talk about him formally, two points must be said. The protagonist 9S is very amazing. His seiyuu skills, so I believe that works with such a personal participation will definitely not be bad; another point, his design prototype is the internationally renowned pianist Daniel Barenboim, and his Like the prototype, they are known as piano prodigies. He stood out in various piano competitions when he was a child, and is famous for playing difficult piano pieces accurately. In addition to his own feeling for the piano, he also has a mother, Zaoxi, who is a pianist. When he was a child, he was a classmate of his mother. Inadvertently discovering that Gongsheng has a talent for piano, he persuaded his mother to train him as a pianist. Since then, Gongsheng has been inseparable from the piano. Under the supervision of his mother, when other people were playing with each other, he would play with each other. Every time I practice the piano hard with my mother, I will soon be playing the famous songs of Beethoven, Chopin and other famous writers. This also prepared the conditions for him to win in the subsequent competitions, so that he often took the first place in the piano competition as if he was looking for something.
However, if the story was so simple, there would be no plot. His mother later became seriously ill and could not walk, so she had to rely on a wheelchair to continue her life. At the same time, because of her high expectations for her son, she could not tolerate her son making any mistakes. On weekdays, Gongsheng was often beaten and scolded by his mother for playing a wrong section. As a result, he always wore long sleeves to cover up the injuries he suffered after being beaten, and he also became timid on weekdays. He is reluctant to socialize with other people, so he bears deeply derogatory nicknames such as "mother's marionette" and "human metronome", but even so, he still endures all this because he hopes that he can Playing the piano well makes sick mother happy and well.
One day, my mother went to see his game. Even though Gongsheng's performance in this game was as good as before, no one expected that after leaving the venue, his mother was like a crazy lioness, using crutches He was beaten in the face of Gongsheng's face. Half of his face was covered in blood, and his glasses were broken. He also accused him of playing the wrong two sections. At this time, Gongsheng couldn't bear it anymore. He threw the sheet music in his hand to his mother and said, "I just want my mother to be more energetic..."
Seeing this, I couldn't help but flip through the barrage. The whole screen was filled with words like scolding my mother for being ruthless, and there were no words of approval. Although I was not as obedient, sensible and talented as Gongsheng since I was a child, and I didn't have the experience of showing myself on stage and gaining fame like him, but I can understand Gongsheng's efforts to make his mother happy, after all. No one wants to watch their mother look like she has no vitality all day long because of her illness. When this kindness is still incomprehensible, no matter how honest and honest people are, they will vent all their anger like a volcano eruption. . In addition, it is worth noting that when Gongsheng recalled these things, his mother's eyes were not drawn, because at this moment his memories of his mother were only hatred and dissatisfaction. In his mind, the mother's face was His face was hideous, he couldn't recall and didn't want to recall his mother's expression at that time.
But think about it carefully, if Gongsheng played with his friends since he was a child, if his mother hadn't had such strict requirements on him, he wouldn't have achieved what he is today. He could only live a life like many ordinary people around him. ordinary life. On the other hand, the mother's various strict requirements make people feel cruel, which also makes people think: compared with a warm family and a glittering achievement, if you want to pursue achievements and fame and fortune, you have to give up your family, and you must pay attention to your family and your own. The business will not develop by leaps and bounds. Fish and bear's paw cannot have both, which one is the most important? Because different values will be involved here, so I can't make a conclusion here and say it to death. But you can still express your opinion. Like some of my buddies, I still prefer a warm family. For me, family is the most reliable and warm harbor for me. Rousseau, the father of French romanticism, once said: A happy family is a hotbed for nurturing children and adults, and the joy of family life is the best medicine against bad weather. If a person does not have a home, not only will he not be able to obtain all kinds of supplies (encouragement, guidance, etc.) to face the difficulties of life, no matter how indestructible you are, one day you will be overturned by the big waves of life and sink to the bottom of the sea. It has since disappeared. This is not the ending I want, so I would rather be an ordinary person and live a peaceful life with my family. I don't want to go back and fight with my family after intriguing.
It didn't take long for Gongsheng's mother to pass away because of the aggravation of his condition under the hatred of his son. Gongsheng was just 11 years old that year. After his mother died, he suddenly couldn't hear the notes when he played the piano, and Beethoven is different. Beethoven is really deaf, but Gongsheng’s words are deafness caused by psychological factors to some extent. To say it purely is psychological effect. Because of music, because of piano, music has become the most important thing in his life. One of them was sent away, and Gongsheng was brought on the road of music by his mother, but since then he has become more and more lonely, which caused him to stagnate for the next two years.
In a later concert, he played alone on the stage. The tune was a tune that his mother often played to him when he was a child. He had been listening to that tune since he was a child, and he still listened to it as a lullaby, so I used his words. For example, this song has too much taste of mother. He has been reluctant to play this song. After all, it will remind him of a lot of painful past events, but in the end he chose to face it bravely and make this song full of affection. performed again.
Although it was not as perfect as people imagined, he still finished the performance. After returning, he learned from other people that after his mother beat him that time, she also knew that she had beaten him too much, but she was still very painful, because There are many aspects of her son who need her to help her, and when this son needs her most, she has to leave the world and her beloved son because of her own illness. Presumably every mother will be unwilling. I can still see the gentle side of this mother. After all, she was still reluctant to make her son like this back then, and it was her friend who suggested her to do so.
In addition, Gongsheng also recalled the heartwarming pictures of his mother taking care of him when he was a child, as well as the few scenes of himself and his mother laughing and playing the piano and talking about sheet music. The picture is so beautiful that people can't believe that this mother is the same mother who was violent and beating people up front. At the same time, I also understand that not only do we have to treat people dialectically, but no matter who we are, we, as commentators, have no idea. The so-called one-vote veto. There is no mother who does not love her son, everything she does is for her son to survive independently in her absence, even if her way will make her and Gongsheng miserable, but she has no other choice , there is only one way to go.
After finishing the performance, Gongsheng himself said that he hoped that his gratitude and miss would be conveyed to his mother, and he was right. In our daily life, we all have to rely on something to convey our feelings. When I go to the person in my heart, no matter how much my heart is surging, if for some reason the intention cannot be conveyed or the person is unwilling to accept it, it will undoubtedly be a tragedy. Gongsheng wanted to express his feelings to his deceased mother with this song, but no matter what he did, his mother could not return to him. In fact, for more than ten years, Gongsheng has lived in a very high-pressure environment. When his mother was alive, he had to bear the pressure from both the competition and his mother. After the death of his mother, the pressure not only did not decrease, but It also increased, because he had never seen his mother again. Thinking of this, he couldn't help crying after the performance. After all, this mother-son relationship that started from the umbilical cord connection will never be forgotten in his life. I have to say that this tearjerker is really beautiful.
Before the heroine Kaoru Miyazona appeared, Gongsheng had two friends, Tsubaki Sawabe (Xiao Tsubaki) and Ryota Watari (Adu). They grew up together and had a very strong relationship. Unlike Gongsheng, Gongsheng is good at music, but poor in sports, while both of them are good at sports, but they don't know anything about music. The relationship between the two of them and Gongsheng is not clear with just a few words, and compared to Gongsheng and the heroine Miyazono Kaoru, their roles can only play a supplementary role at most, such as a more thorough understanding than others. public life.
In addition to the miscellaneous things about the two of them and Gongsheng, what impressed me the most was their games in the school club. Xiaochun was in the baseball club, while A'du was in the football club. The two of them In fact, just like the sports students I usually know, I am busy with my sports competitions all day long. From the bottom of my heart, I am quite envious. After all, I can win in the stadium, and the applause can increase my ability and popularity. For someone like me who runs very hard, they are really powerful and hard-working.
However, in the last game of junior high school, they all lost their respective games. Although I said earlier that I am also poor in sports, so I have not participated in sports competitions like them, but I understand that this is not related to studying hard. The essence of the situation is the same, if you fail to get the kind of reward you want for your efforts, everyone will shout: I am not reconciled!
But if you participate, you will train yourself, even if you fail, don't be too disappointed. From walking to running, falling heavily, healing the wounds, carrying new bags and continuing to run, this is actually life. As long as you are alive and keep striving with motivation, the sun will smile on you one day.
The last thing I want to mention is the soul character of this work, Kaoru Miyazono. Like Gongsheng, she also studied classical music and learned violin. This role really has a lot of origins. When I was 5 years old, I went to the Gongsheng competition. I was moved by Gongsheng's piano skills and decided to change from piano to violin. The purpose was to play a song with Gongsheng in the future. It's amazing that, like Gongsheng, the role of Kaoru Miyazono also has a historical prototype. This person is Jacqueline Dupree, who is also a classical music player and also learns the violin, and the two have a little bit of Very similar, that is, the playing style is very egoistic, which has been confirmed later. In the usual violin and piano ensemble competitions, performers need to play in full accordance with the score, and then let the judges add some impression points, and finally calculate the ranking. But Miyazono Kaoru is really a very selfish person. When she is playing, she almost completely ignores the music score. The rhythm of her performance is sometimes as fast as galloping, sometimes as slow as a soft voice, and she is really tired of listening to the audience. The audience, who played exactly to the score, got a doping shot, so even if the judges kicked her out, she still made the audience remember her. In her own words, it is: "Let the audience remember me." She also said that she has no interest in the final prize of that kind of competition, and she just lives a more casual and informal life.
She and Gongsheng met through Xiao Chun and A'Du, and they met in April when the cherry blossoms were in full bloom. The reason why she told a lie was because she told Gongsheng several lies. In fact, except for Gongsheng, who is relatively stupid, he can't deceive other people. Here are a few examples (may not be complete):
1. What I like is Ryota, who is good in sports, not Gongsheng
She asked Xiaochun to introduce A'du to her, and it seemed that there was no problem, but after careful consideration, she found that this lie was untenable at all, because this A'du was a friend of women, and he was close to other girls only for the sake of Just relax and make yourself feel happy. It is said that there are only three girls that Kung-kung knows about him. The reason why Miyazono Kaoru did this was just to get close to Gongsheng on the pretext that A'Du and Gongsheng had a good relationship. And A'Du already knew that, he just followed others and deliberately pretended to be stupid for others to see.
2. I cried when I saw Mr. Arima for the first time
The reason for her tears was not mentioned in the animation. In the original manga, she pretended to be playing too hard, but in fact she was moved to tears because she finally met the person she had longed for since she was a child. But because he was playing on the high platform next to the cherry tree, the picture was so beautiful that when Gongsheng saw her, he couldn't help but take pictures. As a result, a gust of wind accidentally blew and missed the light, which exposed the temper of Miyazono Kaoru's eldest lady. When I came out, chasing Gongsheng like crazy was punching and kicking, leaving a bad impression of a violent woman on Gongsheng, which really made people laugh and cry.
3. Friend A
Miyazono Kaoru has wanted to be close to Arima Gongsei since she was a child, but she also knew in her heart that Xiao Chun and A'Du were Gongsheng's best friends, so she could only call Gongsheng Friend A, and she could only call him Friend A in front of those two friends. Just be a follower.
4. Dim Sum and Piano
Not long after we met, she went to eat dim sum with Gongsheng and lied that she had something she hadn't eaten before. This was a joke. Kaoru Gongyuan's family owned a cake shop. She, she hadn't eaten any snacks since she was a child, she just wanted to keep in touch with Gongsheng. In addition, there is another purpose. The store they are in has a piano. The piano is only for decoration. Only children who don’t understand farts will play it. The connected piano asked him to teach children to play "Little Star". After all, he has been running around for piano competitions, and the gentle and gentle Gongsheng has nothing to do with children.
5. Demonstrate that you are a strong girl
In the middle and late stages of the plot, Kaoru Miyayuan spent her time in the hospital because of her own illness. She is not that kind of strong girl. In fact, she is very fragile, like someone who is still struggling to bloom in the cold wind. Like roses, constantly afraid and alive. All her strength is just a disguise, just hope Gongsheng can cheer up. She was always sad when she knew that she would never be able to pick up her favorite violin again. In addition, I also checked that the disease she has is the same as her design prototype Jacqueline Dupree, multiple sclerosis. The incidence of this disease in women is higher than that in men. Can't stand up, and the disease is so painful that it can make people lose consciousness in pain, although it may be relieved, but then the more serious symptoms are repeated. The illness and psychological pressure made her extremely painful. She was always afraid that she could not hide her illness; she was afraid that one day she would suddenly leave and lose the little happiness of meeting Gongsheng; she was also afraid of the one she liked. Gongsheng once again fell into the abyss of despair and depravity. Her essence is actually the same as Gongsheng, both are very sensitive and fragile.
6. Isn't there still me?
When Gongsheng is decadent, she will always say something like this, but in fact she knows that her life is not long, she is afraid of death, and she is afraid that she will never see her dear parents and worship her since childhood. And I like Gongsheng, so I said:
In Gongsheng's words, she is violent and arrogant, has a terrible personality, and has a very bad impression, but she is so beautiful. This reminds me of a classmate I know. She used to greet me warmly when I was in school, and mentioned me to other classmates. She beats people or makes fun of people suddenly, but she is still so cute, so when I first saw Kaoru Miyazono, I didn't feel that it was strange, because there was such a lively person around me. Moreover, she had already seen this work, so she wondered how she would feel when she saw it.
In the end, it was the very crucial East Japan Piano Competition for Kosho. Coincidentally, Kosho's competition was on the same day as Miyazono Kaoru's surgery, that is, on February 18. Before the competition, he had been decadent, because Music sent his mother away, and now he has to send away this girl who helped him get out of hell. He couldn't accept it from the bottom of his heart, but he suddenly figured out that the reason why he came back to this competition, It's because the people around him have been supporting him, his mother and the classmates who persuaded his mother to teach Gongsheng piano, Miyazono Kaoru, Xiao Tsubaki, A'Du, his two former rivals, Aiza Samurai and Igawa Ei. See you, without them, it is impossible to get to where you are today, so he stepped onto the stage as bravely as before to face this unprecedented and important game.
In Gongsheng's own words, as before, he needs to use his own performance to convey his various thoughts to his mother; to Miyagi; to his competitors; to everyone who silently supports and appreciates. His people, in the end, he showed himself perfectly on the highly anticipated stage and passed this high threshold.
However, in Gongsheng's eyes, Miyazono Kaoru, who could kick the disease away with one kick and said that she would struggle until the last moment, never made it through again. Her life was stuck in the winter when she was 14 years old.
In this letter, in addition to his envy and gratitude to Gongsheng, there is also a photo hidden in it. In it is a photo of Miyazono Kaoru and his friends when he was a child. Gongsheng inadvertently glanced back into the mirror and suddenly remembered. In the less than a year of time together, the two seem to have not even taken a group photo, and this inadvertently left photo has become the most precious memory, which is really heartbreaking.
After reading this, I really couldn't get back to my senses for a long time. The story of the two people finally ended with tears of sadness. One person walked out of hell, while the other person ascended to heaven. I personally feel the most regret, because I recently read on the Internet that many people leave the world early for various reasons when they were young, although people always say that so-and-so has left us Precious things, although it sounds touching, but in my opinion are just empty words that have no meaning. Even if people are taboo or tired of listening, I still want to talk about my thoughts, what is the so-called precious thing brought by a person's departure? Is this precious thing worth his life? Can he be brought back to the people again? Every time I think about this question, my avatar is filled with lead and I can't lift it up.
I also feel very lucky and very happy, because my good friends, family members, teachers, and other people who watched silently, cared and supported me are all alive and well, and my relationship with them is still as close as ever. And I also often try to use various things to express my heart to a (random) person around me, and although it may be difficult at times, I will not give up, just like them. In addition, I am also very lucky that I am still alive. If you can't hug the person you like again because of your illness; you can't develop your hobbies; you can't meet the people who love you again, it must be a This is a very regrettable thing, so we must live well, heal the old creation and move on.
I have no regrets in this life. Entering April, I will be friend A in the next life.
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