I can't live in a world without Alicia, without even her hairpin...

Keegan 2022-03-21 09:01:58




This is a line from Almodóvar's "Speak to Her". Benino has decided to commit suicide, leaving a voice message for Marco, he knows that he can't go out, or that he has no hope, he said quietly, I can't live in a world without Alicia, She didn't even have her hairpin by her side...


Almodovar told the story of two men affectionately, don't get me wrong, it's two stories, two men's stories. Benino, a lame man, chubby, a little sissy, but with enough care, patience and love, every day he looks out of the floor-to-ceiling windows at home, there is a dance classroom opposite, he watches every day inside a man named Alicia's girl, just watching silently, but he knew that was love. He does what all people in love do, strikes up a conversation, sneaks home with her... Until one rainy day, she got into a car accident and became a vegetative, and Benino decided to go to the hospital to be a nurse in order to take care of Alicia... ...then four years passed, and then he met Marco.


Marco is a columnist. Because of an unsuccessful interview, he met Lilia, a female bullfighter, and fell in love with her. However, Lilia was in a competition and was picked on the head by a bull, and she became a vegetable. , was admitted to the same hospital as Alicia, and before the game Lilia said she wanted to talk to Marco about something, but it was no longer possible... He met Benino in the hospital.


They talked to each other, moved their beloved women to the sun, drank together, and told each other's stories, until one day, Marco heard what Lilia's ex-boyfriend said to Lilia, who was unconscious in the ward, It turned out that what Lilia wanted to tell herself before the game was her reconciliation with her ex-boyfriend. Marco knew that he should not stay here anymore, so he decided to leave. Before leaving, he said goodbye to Benino.


When saying goodbye, Benino suddenly said to Marco that he wanted to marry Alicia, although she was not conscious, but he loved her and he wanted to marry her. Marco warned Benino not to have such thoughts, or he would be in trouble. Then Marco left, but what he didn't know was that Alicia was pregnant at this time, and Benino did it with her. Although Alicia was not conscious, Benino couldn't hold back his love for her, and The pregnancy was known to others in the hospital...


Eight months later, when Marco was working in Egypt, he suddenly read the news of Lilia's death in the newspaper, he immediately called Benino, only then did he know that Benino was already in prison... He hurried They went back to Spain and visited Benino in prison. They talked a lot. In fact, Marco didn’t blame Benino, he just wanted to help him get out as soon as possible. Alicia was always the one who supported Benino. He didn’t know Alicia. Whether it is still in a coma, whether it is still alive, whether there is a child, whether the child is alive. Marco promised him that he would help him find the news of Alicia.


Marco moved into Benino's house in Madrid, and then stood at the floor-to-ceiling window and looked out. Suddenly, he saw a familiar and unfamiliar person - Alicia, who was sitting in the hall of the training room with a calm and peaceful expression. Inside, he looked at Marco silently. He wanted to tell Benino the news, but his lawyer advised him not to tell Benino, otherwise Benino might escape from prison. So they fabricated a news of Alicia's death. However, Benino, who had been relying on Alicia to support himself, had no courage or strength to support him. In the voice message he sent to Marco, he said quietly. Well, I know I can't get out, they just keep moving me to the next prison to the next prison, I can't live in a world without Alicia, and I don't even have her hairpin around... That hairpin, yes Four years ago, when Benino was following Alicia, he took it by accident when he came to see a doctor from her psychiatrist's father under the pretext of having a mental problem.


Benino committed suicide. When Marco packed up his belongings, he found the hairpin from the clothes that the prison helped him keep, and then the tears flowed uncontrollably.


Marco found Alicia again in the audience during a stage performance. She still looked at herself calmly and smiled. She seemed to know that they had met before, but she had absolutely no idea what it was. Sometimes, they just smiled and looked at each other.


Alicia asked Marco, who was a little nervous, how are you?


Marco said, I'm fine, thank you.


…………


Please forgive me for Almodovar, I did not follow the sequence of his shots, it just seemed more convenient to tell. Talk to her, for four years, Benino lived in Alicia's world like this. Did she know that there was such a man who persisted for her for four years?


I have passed the age where I can love someone selflessly, so I can easily move myself with such pure feelings, I can't do it. In the film, Benino tells a story to Alicia who is in a coma. It is called the shrunken lover. It is said that it is a pair of lovers. The woman has developed a shrinking medicine. In order to experiment on the woman, the man drank the potion himself. , the result became smaller and smaller, and finally, it was so small that he was only a few centimeters tall, and in order to give the woman he loved so much the feeling of orgasm, he got into her XXXXXX and never came out. Benino knew that such feelings and his own story had the same place, not normal, but all love.


Call, hit the shutdown, what should I say.


Suddenly very sad, she is like Alicia, and she also does not have her hairpin.


When I was writing this, I was listening to the voice of Grid, such a quiet and sad voice, telling trivial things, trivial things.


I'm going to top up.

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  • [last lines]

    Katerina Bilova: Nothing is simple. I'm a ballet mistress, and nothing is simple.

  • Marco Zuluaga: Love is the saddest thing when it goes away, as a song by Jobim goes.