Is there such a possibility that if Wen Gang Tai left his brother who fell into the glacier and ignored him, would he live a little easier without his brother dragging him down? He might finish his studies on schedule like his peers. There may be a very respectable job, and he may even get ahead prematurely with his cleverness. But he was not happy at all. On the contrary, the more he became famous, the more guilt he felt in his heart, as long as he thought that all this was achieved by harming his brother. At the same time, he will also be very empty. Although he is less burdened by his brother, he will no longer be able to experience the warmth of being dependent on each other. He will forever lose his brother who only wants to make money and change his RV for his younger brother.
Therefore, even if he knew that he would experience all the hardships in the world, endure countless prejudice and discrimination from the world, and survive every moment when he couldn't last, he would not leave his brother to live alone. Of course, this does not mean how great he is. Like ordinary people, he is full of countless despicable ideas. He will be hurt because of his childhood being treated differently. Regrettably, he would suffer even more because he had to squeeze out a smile after forcibly holding back these negative emotions. When he kept repressing his original desires, when he kept ignoring who he was, all of this became his subconsciousness, buried deep in his heart, and ready to come out at an inadvertent moment.
Wenying got too much attention from her mother since she was a child, and manipulated her in the name of love. What Wenying felt was suffocating maternal love. When she grew up, she lived a very self-contained life, did not look at anyone's face, and even liked to control everything in her own hands like her mother. On the contrary, Gang Tai has been watching her mother carefully since she was a child, hoping to share more attention from there, but no matter how hard she tries, compared with her brother, her mother will forget that he is still a child. Later, he lived alone with his brother, and he had seen the warmth and coldness of the world. He had never been treated kindly. He had a sensitive heart and could empathize with the pain of others.
The reunion of two people who have grown into opposite looks is not a good thing. Just like their acquaintance, they have been in the moment of life and death. They have witnessed each other's cold blood and cowardice, and they have become each other's yearning and expectation. The Gang Tai that Wen Ying likes is himself, and has nothing to do with her brother, and Wen Ying is also what Gang Tai wants, envy her free and fearless gaze.
In this world, no preference and too much preference are sins. In the name of your love, it is ignored that everyone is an independent individual. No matter what relationship they are in, no one wants to be an accessory to anyone. Even the elder brother, who has been looking at his younger brother's face, only has a not very sound mind, and when he is deprived of himself, he will shout: I am not yours . Even Wen Gang was too aware that he was powerless to resist Wen Ying's temptation and more or less revealed his sincerity when quoting her saying "I love you", and he firmly told her before the relationship started: I Not yours and don't want to be a necessity to anyone. The wounds of each other were gradually torn apart, and the pain struck, let everything return to the original point, and wait for the new flesh to grow slowly.
Behind the antisocial personality in her eyes without warmth, who saw her heart that yearned for warmth? Aside from the decision not to fall in love with anyone, who understood that he was a man who longed to be loved? Even if you throw away the flower in my hand and tear the butterfly cruelly, I will never forget the sincerity that you once saved me. Even if you see the embarrassment of my escape and the hypocrisy in my soul, you will not ignore my courage to protect another person with my life. As Gibran said in On Good and Evil:
"I can talk about the good in you, but I can't talk about the bad.
For is not evil the good that is tormented by self-starvation and thirst?
Indeed, when Shan is hungry, it even goes to dark caves to find food;
When the good is thirsty, it will even drink from the stagnant waters.
When you are one with yourself, you are good.
But when you are not one with yourself, you are not evil either"
Gang Tai said that he recently began to forget the pain, his brother, and the pressure of reality. That's because Wenying's appearance made him face his instinctive emotions and needs. In front of her, he doesn't have to pretend, let alone be great. It doesn't matter if he is an arrogant and superficial contradiction, even a lie can be read by her to be sincere. part. He began to open up about his past, admit the toughest self, and unspoken regrets and apologies, and finally had someone to talk to. He began to release his hobbies. He who had never traveled, yearned for a purposeless exodus.
Brother Gangtai, who came to Wenying's side, brought life to the dead castle. Watching her gulp down the food she made, a satisfied smile spread to the corner of his mouth. So, does Wen Ying want the food she is fed, or the warmth from whose hands? She should want both, and she should be both.
However, in the face of her mother who was still emotionally controlling her in the nightmare, Wen Ying stared wide-eyed and fought against her, trying everything to break free from her mother's clutches, but she couldn't get rid of such a setting in her heart. Mom took advantage of her kindness and threatened to hurt everyone she loved, so Wenying's prickly and cold-blooded appearance was created. In this world, there may be some people who will bow down to her queen's temperament, or be infatuated with her talent, or accommodate her temperament, or hate her ruthlessness, or curse her cruelty, she doesn't care. But if she really fell in love with someone, she didn't want him to be hurt because of her, even though she desperately wanted him to stay by her side, she shouted at the last moment: go away, don't come near me!
And if there is a person, he does not approach her because of her brilliance, does not succumb to her financial interests, or is even tempted by her various tiger and wolf words, but silently realizes her needs, and stretches out his hands in times of crisis. To live with her who was about to fall, and to hold her tightly in his arms when she was vulnerable and helpless, I think he really loves her too!
"Love is not looking for a perfect person, but learning to appreciate the imperfect person with perfect eyes. Because I love you, as long as you affirm me, I'm brave enough." - Hayao Miyazaki, Howl's Moving Castle
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