This is the first time I heard about this film. It has nothing to do with gay sex, youth, or being on the road, but about amnesia. At that time, he thought that this was a process of searching for memories, and Idaho was his only clue. A black-clothed man hugged another sleeping man, orange-yellow shirt and white trousers, the light hit the sleeping face, as focused as the black-clothed man stared at. There are traces of ambiguity in the mist, but the overall tone is cold, like the Qingling after the golden autumn is wet by the rain. Since then, intermittent narcolepsy has become a term I prefer, just because there are still people watching after falling asleep anytime, anywhere. Maybe you can't feel this warmth in your dreams, but when you wake up, you will find that someone is sleeping. What a blessing to be protected.
At that time, I didn't know Rui Fan Phoenix and Keanu Reeves. I don't know how many people's hearts were overturned by these two handsome guys. I was immersed in the emotional world created by Tony Leung and Wong Kar Wai, thinking that this is me The ultimate movie dream. Step by step, I got to know Keanu Reeves, only one "Speed of Life and Death", but he couldn't make people appreciate it. In my definition, he belongs to the first handsome man. After watching it, he is like a cloud of smoke. dissipate.
Ruifan Phoenix, sad to say, I know that he is in his memorial article. Whenever he reads the magazine, whenever he wants to lament that he died young, he will always occupy the first place, because of his name, because of him. age, because of his versatility, because of his appearance, and in recent years, more and more because of his younger brother.
His name is river phoenix, which literally translates to river phoenix. Many people say that his premature death was the nirvana of the phoenix, but who can accept a person with outstanding talent, superb acting skills and a clear appearance in his 23-year-old nirvana? He has not yet finished the fire of his life. He died of a drug overdose and collapsed without warning in Johnny Depp's bar. It can be said that he was the one who brought himself close to the god of death. He was very smart, but he didn't know that it was a road of no return. When his youth had not fully bloomed, he despised his own life prematurely. Why is this? In 2005's "Walking with the Song", Rui Fan's younger brother, Joaquin Phoenix, won the Golden Globe Award for Best Actor. When people are happy for Joaquin, they will inevitably feel sad for his brother. If Rui Fan is still there, then the world of this movie will be How wonderful it will be. Rui Fan left the world so decisively, just like Leslie Cheung turned around and jumped, leaving us forever Cheng Dieyi and He Baorong, Rui Fan left us "My Own Idaho", this is his personal show , Those who miss him can only remember that splendid face from this film.
It is undeniable that I was looking for this film because of its homosexuality, and I was looking forward to seeking the meticulous emotions like "Happy Together", but what I expected was the helplessness and loneliness of love. I finally understand why it is called "My Own Idaho", it is only Mike's dream, not Scott's, and love is only Mike's.
Mike and Scott are both male prostitutes, earning a living by serving men and women, but their mentality is completely different. Mike has intermittent narcolepsy, and from time to time recalls the cottage, wheat fields, clouds, sky and mother he lived in when he was a child. When he fell asleep involuntarily, he was a child born of incest between his brother and his mother. He was abandoned since he was a child and could only make a living by selling his body. If he had any pursuit, it was to find his mother, to find the existence in the dream but actually already Lost family; Scott is the son of the mayor. He fled the formal society and family because of his youthful rebellion. , The reason why he is righteous is because he has a way out. After his twenty-first birthday, he can inherit all his father's property and transform himself into a rich son.
These two different people are entangled together. Scott is willing to accompany Mike all the way to find his mother, from Portland to Idaho to Rome. On the way, Mike falls asleep from time to time, and it is Scott who guards him. Put his clothes on him to keep him warm, and look at him with the same warm eyes when he wakes up. This kind of warmth is what Mike has dreamed about again and again. In the dream, his mother hugged him like that, stroked his hair, and whispered "everything will be fine", the wind blew gently, and he fell asleep.
It is not difficult to imagine why Mike fell in love with Scott. People who lacked love from childhood, especially maternal love, are easy to moor deeply and linger for a long time once they find a warm harbor. However, although Scott's concern warmed him, there was always a kind of separation. The heart was so far away, even though it was so close, that he couldn't really grasp it. So, on that bonfire night, he timidly confessed that he wanted to have a close conversation, saying "I don't think we're close", "I know we're close but...", "I mean, for me , I can love someone even...even if I don't have to pay, I love you and...you don't have to pay." "I would love to kiss you." "I love you, you know, I really love you. "These words, Mike seems to be talking to himself, that kind of vague and soft muttering is like saying to himself, which proves that he is extremely unconfident in his heart. "I love you and you don't have to pay", this is Mike's definition of love. It sounds so unbearable, but it is the best love words he can say. Money is the most important thing to sustain life in exchange for dignity, so he said that not having to pay is actually the greatest sacrifice he can do for love.
And his temptation didn't get the expected response, and Scott just thought he was his best friend.
- What do I mean to you?
- What do you mean to me? You are my very good friend.
- I know we're good friends...we're good friends, it's good for me...it's a good thing.
--So?
- So I'm just...that's fine, we can be friends.
In fact, before Scott answered, he was already prepared to be rejected, so after Scott's words came out, he nervously took all the words, which was trying to deny himself and reject himself. Just keep being friends, at least we can go on the road together, and with Scott's protection, his journey is no longer bumpy.
I've been thinking about how physical this gay sex is. Even though both of them are male prostitutes, they don't see the slightest twist in their minds. They don't have promiscuity, unless they have sex with men as a profession. , they are normal. Therefore, Mike's love for Scott, despite being homosexual on the surface, is actually gender-neutral. Mike just fell in love with this man, fell in love with his meticulous care for him, and Scott took him to tease Bob. , to cover up the police questioning for him, ride a motorcycle to drive him to find his mother, and make his lonely soul feel at home. If he cared about a woman, he would fall in love with her without hesitation. However, no, he only has Scott, then he can only fall in love with Scott, he doesn't care about men and women, because the psychological comfort is greater than the physical carnival. In the whole film, they have no skin-to-skin sex, this is not the beginning of his love, and it is not the end of his love.
In the end, he still lost his only love. Scott met a girl in Rome, said to Mike "I think I'm in love", threw a stack of stolen money, and abandoned Mike with his girlfriend. Scott really only regards him as a friend. Those love may be caused by a moment of youthful passion, or it may be due to adversity and loyalty. In short, after that, Scott's prodigal son turned back, inherited his father's legacy, and wore a three-piece suit. Going in and out of high-end places, and everything in the past, even denied his former soul mentor. He pulled away so decisively that he didn't even look back, and he sent those friends who had been at the bottom. And Mike, after seeing the true face of the prince for the first time, was not surprised at all, curled up lazily at the door of the bar, watching silently, as if there was an unimportant person in front of him. Perhaps, when he was in Rome, he had clearly foreseen the consequences, and his love was not human.
He was destined to be alone, walking alone on the road, talking to himself, looking at the wheat fields, clouds and the road behind him, he fell asleep again, without protection, how helpless, his shoes and Backpack, but he didn't realize it, just slept in nature, as if melted. Maybe, he can still meet someone who cares about him, and the final result gives us a little hope, but who can guarantee that that person can truly understand him and be with him? In this life, he was destined to find warmth only in his sleep.
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