Because everyone kills what he loves. —Oscar Wilde
The first time we met, Lucian, this beautiful young man, couldn't take his eyes off of him. He recited "obscene" literature aloud in the quiet library, listened to Brahms, drank Chianti in the spacious one-person dormitory, and read the works of poets such as Yates and Whitman at his fingertips. Allen, a freshman who was like a blank paper, walked into his trap uncontrollably. From then on, the white paper was colored and the poems had thousands of lines. Just as Wilde was deeply infatuated with Percy, Alan quickly fell in love with Lucian, swaying in every dark night they spent together.
It didn't take long for Allen to discover the problem. It turned out that Lucian could only memorize poems, not write poems (although he told Allen that the words his uncle pestered him were rhyming), and he was angry when he found that Allen joined New Vision but did not write works. Allen, who was in love with the poison, naturally accepted his petty temperament and began to write poems for the organization. Allen finds poetry in drugs and alcohol, and of course, with little Lou as his muse. On the stolen boat, Allen was stimulated, and eating the vinegar of Jack and Xiao Lu, stood up and recited the poem he just wrote. Wonderland is mentioned at the beginning, the world that Xiao Lu took him to. This poem is really beautiful. Jack didn't know, but Lucian probably found out that this talented freshman had fallen in love with him.
The incident of stealing the ship was exposed, and Allen took the blame. Xiao Lu started, and he kept up with him without hesitation. Even if he didn't know what would happen next, he had to keep Xiao Lu and fulfill all his crazy thoughts. Later, Allen asked Xiao Lu to make a clean break with his uncle. He thought he helped Xiao Lu, but he didn't know that this was also his end. That night, a greedy kiss was exchanged for a ten-page paper. The next day, the ten-page paper could not be replaced by a lover. Xiao Lu wants to travel around the world with his "new love", and the two people's journey can't hold Alan. Alan was surprised and cried, and Xiao Lu said impatiently, are you still not satisfied, I have made your life EXTRAORDINARY!
Just like in "Genius Ripley", Jude Law's son-in-law took the poor boy Ripley to play freely in Italy, allowing him to see the infinite beauty of the flowery world. Within a few weeks, the son-in-law got tired and told Ripley to go back and forth. Brother Gongzi's kind girlfriend summed it up well, "The thing with Dickie, it's like the sun shines on you, and it's glorious. And if he forgets you, it's very very cold." Fatal Attraction also has near zero patience. It's like the sun suddenly shines into a dark yard and then leaves suddenly. The one who was left behind, just addicted to the warmth and brightness of the sun, was thrown back into the darkness. Ripley ends up killing Dickie, the boy, his love. Kill your darlings, didn't think it could be used here.
Going back to this movie, Allen was also abandoned by his lover, but he was much luckier than Ripley. On the one hand, Xiao Lu accepted his love and gave him a kiss; on the other hand, Xiao Lu gave him alcohol and jazz, the enlightenment of love, and the rebellious spirit of literature. These new feelings constituted his beautiful Inspiration that helped him become a poet in the future. In addition, although the temporary pain caused him to do the wrong thing - leaking secrets to a rival, it can be said that it indirectly led to a tragedy, but his subsequent actions were soberly considered and wise. Xiao Lu begged him to help him write a petition (probably what he meant?), and he agreed with the love he still had. At first, he also prepared to conceal the facts and wrote that it was "honor murder", but, seeing the explanation in the book "honor murder, it must be stated that the accused is not gay", he turned to the old photos of Xiao Lu and his uncle and the back of "the perfect day" ", He was sober when he heard Xiao Lu's mother say that Xiao Lu called him a "guardian angel". Over and over, the perfect day, the guardian angel, turned out to be Xiao Lu's sweet words dipped in poison. He said this to the uncle, said this to him, and presumably will say the same to others in the future. Another point is that when he went to the mental hospital to find his mother, he confided his difficulties. His crazy mother shook her hair and gave him coldly, "Don't help him." "Why?" he asked. She said, the most important thing your father ever did was to fail me. He looked stunned, as if he had been awakened suddenly. I understand what his mother meant, don't listen to a lunatic, no matter how much you love him. After several struggles, he chose the same path as his father: to live up to his lover.
He still loves him, but he's ready to let go. He didn't condone like his lover's mother, and he didn't entangle like a murdered uncle. He chose to kill his lover. To be reborn, one must die. He knew how short his love was, and also knew that his love could not be restored, so he wrote the truth for the rebirth of his lover. In my opinion, this is the greatest love. I followed you to rebel, sell your body, sell your reputation, and fulfill all your freedom and indulgence. In the end, I will no longer accompany you, but I will watch you escape the quagmire of sin and start a new life.
The ending of the story reassured me: Allen finally understood his father and understood his "for her best". Faced with their lover, they both let go of their hands and let their lover live a new life, freeing themselves from the sick relationship in the past. That day, he sat in the room with his father, smoking and writing in the same posture. The news of victory came from the radio, and the letter in his hand was written with the professor's encouragement to him. He and his father looked at each other and smiled, the war was over, and they still loved each other. Although Allen was expelled from the school, he was approved by the professor, which should be a small victory for this small literary revolution. In Osamu Dazai's "Setting Sun", he said that revolution and love are the two most beautiful things in the world, and they are the reasons why we came to this world. In this way, Allen's short college life, despite the blood and tears, was really beautiful.
Allen and Lucian met at the juncture of fierce war and separated on the eve of victory. This protracted and tragic war is over, and the short-lived entanglement of fate between them, along with the major sacrifices of several people, has also come to an end. This is the end of darkness, this is the early death of my love.
Wait a minute, before the end, the film ends by saying that Allen dedicated his first collection of poetry to Lucian, and Lucian responded by requesting that his name be omitted from future collections of poetry. This is his response. Affectionate feelings are always ruthlessly negative. Such stories can be staged in millions of versions. As Wilde said, a broken heart sells very well.
Kill your darlings, reminds me of Call me by your name I watched the day before yesterday, Elio's father said a lot at the end, one of them was, nature has cunning ways of finding our weakest spot. We are in so much pain that the only thing we can do is kill our loved ones with our own hands. After reading this story, I suddenly feel that CMBYN is not so sad anymore. After all, the two of them have always been in love with each other, and here, one of them turned their backs too quickly, and I thought it was too cruel to watch.
There are lovers, but not many are married. I know that people are fickle and the world is changing, but I still like to appreciate the beautiful moments of loving each other, even if it's only 20 minutes in a movie.
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