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If you have the opportunity to choose your gender in an instant. Will you choose to be a boy or a girl? A film called The Girl won the Caméra d'Or and the Queer Palme d'Or at the 2018 Cannes Film Festival. I just discovered this movie with an 8.1 rating now! It is considered high among LGBT subjects and it is also the best debut movie I have ever seen. This is a very depressing movie. The protagonist of the movie, Lara, is a boy. She is so eager to become a girl that she has been receiving hormone therapy to prepare for the next step of sex reassignment surgery. Before the sex change operation, she was very concerned about her appearance. Enduring the pain, he pierced two ear piercings and put on ear studs. She wants everyone around her to see it as a complete girl. Her brother's teacher asked: Are you his sister? She replied yes, and her face was beaming with joy. The younger brother got angry with her and called her former boy's name Victor, She is so angry! But at the same time, she is very insecure about her female identity. For her more feminine features, she taped the genitals of her lower body. Make the triangle area flatter! Even in the morning, I couldn't face my morning erection, so I immediately covered it with a quilt. Lara will be shy and blush when she encounters a boy she likes and dare not speak! Even if they get along to a further stage, because he is still a man, he can't take the next step, so he can only kj! For the first time, she felt inferior and ran out! Lara joined the ballet class at the age of 15. Compared with others, she started late. In order to catch up with others, she studied hard every day. But the process was not that smooth, and there were many difficulties in practicing ballet. Because he is still male, his body and lines are different from females. The body is not as light as women's, and the arm lines are not so soft. Even because of the wide and big feet, dancing in ballet shoes always leaves them scarred! But she never thought about giving up. At the same time, she suffered from the colored eyes that people gave her in the pre-transgender period, and everyone thought she was a strange person. Everyone else was drinking water during her break in ballet class, but she never drank water on the spot because she had tape sticking to her lower body. In order to avoid the inconvenience of going back and forth to the toilet, she always goes to the toilet after the class. And every time I have to tear off the sticky tape, this process is very painful. We can see that the place where the sticky tape is very red and swollen. It is conceivable that a sexual organ is tightly entangled every day, and the pain is so intense that it can be felt through the screen. Every day she takes hormone medication, she looks in the mirror to see if her posture has changed. She expects her breasts to be soft and bigger. Expect your facial features and body shape to soften. In short, some obvious changes, she wants to come faster. Because she has endured too many strange eyes. After every dance, the other girls would take a shower in the bathroom, even if she was sweating profusely, she never took a shower in public. A female classmate finally couldn't help but ask. Lara was accustomed to smiling to face the less talkative and she didn't want to argue with him, so she took a bath in public, but she wouldn't take off her last pair of pants. Because of this, everyone's curiosity became heavier and heavier. At a later party, a group of girls asked her to take off her clothes and see her third leg. Lara was very sad and disturbed by this excessively shameful request. In fact, in the process of getting along with her, her classmates did not reject her, but she still couldn't contain her curiosity, but such curiosity hurt her! This struggle, inferiority complex, and painful emotions ensue. She even doubted the effects of the drugs, so she wanted to increase the dose. But the doctor said that this is not good for the body and will affect the subsequent gender reassignment surgery. Her father encouraged her, saying that she was brave and that she had become a role model for others. She said she didn't want to be a role model for others, she just wanted to be a girl. Seemingly simple wish, the process of realization is very difficult! After these days, Lara's physical condition is getting worse and worse. The doctor told her that she is not suitable for surgery now. In the end, Lara makes a shocking and heart-wrenching move while her father is away. She prepared ice cubes to apply ice to her lower body, bit a piece of rag, and took scissors to attack herself! She completely cut out the things that made her a girl! After such a difficult and painful change, she suddenly became enlightened and felt that her whole body was completely new. In fact, Lara is lucky in the film. She was neither bullied nor isolated by her classmates. She was just curious about him. She still had a father who loved her, supported her, and encouraged her! Director Hodt In this film, Lara's contradictions and struggles when facing her body are vividly reflected. There are emotionally broken places in the film, but the director made it so that people can let go and control the emotional changes of the audience watching the film. It's not at all like a film made by a rookie director. On the other hand, a rookie director can make a movie with such a theme in a super realistic way. It feels like even me was brought in! It takes a lot of courage to achieve the ultimate goal by destroying yourself. Seeing this, my heart couldn't calm down for a long time. In reality, there are too many people who discriminate against transgender people. Therefore, transgender people are under tremendous pressure and strange vision. They often need to be stronger than ordinary people. Even if we are not born to choose our own gender, today's booming technology has provided opportunities for some people who are dissatisfied with their own gender, but it will take a long time to be recognized by the public. There are too few examples of this and people usually cannot take it with a normal mind. , but we should give these people greater tolerance! They are not bad people who do all kinds of evil, just a person who is pursuing their own soul. They are stronger than us and braver than us, and they deserve our tolerance and respect!
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