I haven't come out of the pain of Brokeback Mountain, and I'm immersed in the grief of gays and mortals. I'm not gay, but I never thought that the most beautiful love to me is the love between the same sex, their love Tougher, more poignant than straight, like Ennis and Jack in Brokeback Mountain, like Brian and Justin in gay and mortal.
5 seasons, 83 episodes. Except sleeping, eating, going to the toilet, and taking a shower, I watched it with my mobile phone. I finished it in one breath. Because I was too moved, I watched it a second time. This is the only one I have watched. It was an American TV series, and I stayed up all night watching it twice in a row, and then I couldn't get out, and I fell completely.
Brian, who seems to be very cool and warm, never dreamed that when he was 29 years old, a 17-year-old boy named Justin would appear in his life. Although he was young, he was very mature. It was Justin who let him one by one. It opened the door of his heart, and let him who doesn't believe in love shake step by step without knowing it. In the end, he didn't even think that he actually fell in love with Justin.
Let's first summarize the reason why they didn't get together in the end. I think it's because their love is too great and too selfless. Brian didn't want to delay Justin's future. After all, he was still young and had a bright future, so he let him go. And Justin, he loves Brian and everything about Brian, including Brian's promiscuity. ego, so he also let go. But like Debbie said, they were already married to each other in their hearts, like Justin said New York wasn't his lifelong destination, Brian was.
【Brian Chapter】
He's Brian Kinney and he's waiting for Justin Taylor
1. The Brian who lived with Justin for five years but never admitted to being in a relationship.
2. The Brian who likes to call Justin "Sunshine".
3. The perfect figure, Brian who refuses to eat sweets, but likes an ice cream kiss with Justin.
4. It's your Brian who told the man in 419 to get out for Justin's sake.
5. The Brian who told Justin to sleep on the sofa, but after Justin sneaked into bed, he didn't say anything, but covered Justin with the quilt.
6. The Brian who bought Justin's nude portrait at an art show.
7. The one who stayed in his luxury loft because Justin had nowhere to live, but forgot to turn on the alarm when he went out, causing him to lose his TV, computer, company documents, 12 Armani suits, 4 Gucci belts, 6 Pair of Prada shoes, he drove Justin away angrily, and drove to New York overnight to find Justin's Brian.
8. The Brian who said he didn't care about Justin, but stood in front of Justin when Chris challenged him.
9. The Brian who said he wouldn't go to Justin's prom, but still came to the prom with his birthday present white silk scarf.
10. The Brian who guarded the hospital every night after Justin was attacked and was hospitalized. When asked by a friend, he said he couldn't help much by going to the hospital.
11. That Brian in the hospital hallway, tearing up for Justin.
12. The Brian who surrounds his body with a white silk scarf stained with Justin's blood every day, but hides it with a black coat.
13. The Brian who told Justin's mother he cared about Justin.
14. The Brian who was just across the street with open arms, waiting to recover, walked up to him.
15. The Brian who bought the drawing software for Justin when Justin's shaking hands couldn't hold a paintbrush.
16. The Brian who saw Justin kissing another man in Babylon, stepped forward and told the man to get out of the way.
17. The Brian who saw everyone kissing and encouraging Justin and said, why are you kissing him, do you want to straighten him up?
18. The Brian who told Justin I want you to be good, I want you to stay by my side.
19. The Brian who smelled Justin kissing a little virgin and ran to the gym to work out like crazy.
20. The Brian who said promises were shit, but stuck to his promise with Justin, never kissing anyone else, and never doing the same person twice.
21. The Brian who likes to play with Justin's blonde hair.
22. The Brian who admires Justin's lips when kissing and hugs hard.
23. The Brian who walked up to dry Justin's hair after Justin took a shower.
24. Brian who quietly avenged the judge for Justin.
25. The guy who said Justin's picture was nice, we could hang it up and have Justin announce to everyone that he's got Brian.
26. The Brian who was told by his friends that Justin was his boyfriend, and he neither admitted nor refuted it.
27. The guy who got jealous because Justin made money dancing at Babylon and used $5,000 to buy Justin's paintings on the pretext of buying Justin's paintings if he couldn't, was actually Brian who wanted to give Justin the money to stop Justin from dancing.
28. Brian, who was jealous and mad when he saw Justin and Michael collapse on a bed because of the comics they created together.
29. The Brian who never regrets or apologizes, but apologizes for Justin.
30. Brian who ties Justin himself.
31. The Brian who said there was nothing wrong with his birthday, but secretly prepared a birthday present for Justin.
32. The Brian who looked for Justin as soon as he got back to Pittsburgh.
33. Brian who said there was good news, but when a friend asked about it, he said nothing and just wanted to be the first to tell Justin the good news.
34. The Brian who knew that Justin was "cheating", but didn't say it, loved and kissed Justin fiercely.
35. The Brian who packed his computer with Justin after the breakup.
36. The Brian who secretly paid Justin's tuition after the breakup.
37. The Brian who didn't seem to care after the breakup, but found a lot of Justin-like people and asked them to dress up as Justin for comfort.
38. The Brian who threw a fist at Michael for the first time after the breakup because his friend Michael said bad things about Justin.
39. The Brian who knew that Justin was short of money after the breakup, even though there were a lot of art workers around him, he still gave Justin the task of making posters on the pretext that he couldn't find anyone, so that Justin could make money.
40. After the breakup, Brian played all kinds of tricks to get Justin back to him.
41. Brian who said to Justin that you would never listen to violin music in front of me again after the reunion.
42. The Brian who saw Justin pasting the reactionary poster, not only was not angry, but also gave Justin a hot kiss.
43. The Brian who went bankrupt for Justin because of Justin's casual words.
44. The Brian who likes to say that Justin is a little genius in front of others.
45. The greasy Brian that Justin's mom called Justin "Honey".
46. Brian, the supreme attacking man who was willing to commit himself to Justin.
47. The Brian who imagined that Justin was cheering him on while riding, and instantly became motivated.
48. The Brian who keeps an empty closet for Justin.
49. The Brian who touched Justin's face and said Sunshine to Justin, how could I live without you.
50. The Brian who went to Michael and Ben's house because of Justin's drinking.
51. The Brian who rushed into Babylon to find Justin immediately after the Babylon explosion.
52. The Brian who told Justin that I was terrified and that he was just thinking about not letting him have an accident.
53. The Brian who never said I love you, but hugged Justin for the rest of his life and told Justin twice I love you.
54. The Brian who once saw marriage as shit and then proposed to Justin twice.
55. Brian who secretly bought Justin's dream country house.
56. The one who said to Justin, I want to prove to the person I love how much I love him, I would give him everything, I would do anything, I would be any type of person, as long as it makes him happy, I am Brian had never been so serious in his life.
57. The Brian who never sent flowers, but sent Emmett to China to find the golden gardenias Justin wanted.
58. The Brian who never showed love and sadness, but silently gave a lot to Justin.
59. The promiscuous Brian who slept with almost every man in Pittsburgh, but changed a lot for Justin.
60. The Brian who reluctantly gave up but reluctantly let go of Justin's future.
When we first met, Justin was 17 years old and Brian was 29 years old. He leaned against the telephone pole at the entrance of Babylon and looked at him slightly drunk with innocent eyes. He asked: What are the plans for tonight? Then they went home together.
【Justin Chapter】
He's Justin Taylor and he loves Brian Kinney
1. The Justin who took the initiative to chat with Brian the first time he saw him.
2. The Justin who was called "Sunshine" by Brian because of his sunny smile.
3. The Justin who fell in love with Brian deeply after 419 with Brian.
4. The Justin in Brian's jeep who said to Michael without hesitation that I was going home with Brian.
5. The Justin who smiles happily when he mentions Brian in front of his friend Daphne every day.
6. The Justin who sees Brian as a god.
7. The Justin who bravely confessed to Brian for the first time and told Brian that I didn't want that life, I wanted you, but was rejected.
8. The Justin who didn't give up after being rejected by Brian, ran to Babylon again and again to pester Brian.
9. The Justin who painted Brian's face and Brian's name in his drawing book.
10. The Justin who took him to a psychiatrist after his mother found out he was gay, and he boldly admitted to the psychiatrist that he loved Brian.
11. The Justin who was afraid of being found by his mother and ran to Brian's house to ask for shelter.
12. The Justin who wore a nipple ring to make Brian interested in him.
13. The Justin who told his parents that he loved Brian more than everything in his life when his father also learned the truth, and he had an argument with his parents. He had no choice but to be with Brian.
14. The Justin who told him to get out of the house for Brian after his dad crushed Brian and never came home again.
15. The Justin who told Brian that you can't drive me away, I'm relying on you.
16. The Justin who helped Brian reconcile with the conflicted Michael.
17. The Justin who silently helped Brian settle the lawsuit in his own way after Brian was sued for work reasons, but didn't tell anyone.
18. The Justin who tried every means to get Brian's attention because the promiscuous Brian didn't take himself seriously.
19. The Justin who would do anything as long as he could stay by Brian's side.
20. The Justin who thought of Brian because of Gus' custody.
21. The Justin who tried his best to restore himself to health in order to get back to Brian as soon as possible after being attacked by Chris.
22. The Justin who went mad when he learned that his mother wouldn't let Brian see him again.
23. The Justin who took Brian as a hero and named him "Rage" as the protagonist in the comics.
24. Justin, who didn't want to rely on Brian for help, went to Babylon to be a dancer.
25. The Justin who sees Brian bringing different men home again and again, hurts his heart again and again.
26. The one who asked Brian did you miss me? After he didn't get an answer, he asked himself in Brian's voice, and then told Brian that only in this way could he hear what he wanted to hear, and then he asked again what you wanted. Am I, Justin who still didn't get an answer.
27. The Justin who wanted Brian to keep him when he was swaying about the relationship.
28. The Justin who went to the gourmet store to buy a lot of food, just wanted to have a romantic picnic with Brian on the floor of the house, but failed to do so, and was disappointed to extinguish the candle with his bare hands.
29. The Justin who chose Ethan because he was disheartened by Brian's reluctance to express his feelings.
30. The Justin who came to pick up things after breaking up with Brian, but his mind was full of good pictures of him and Brian.
31. The Justin who faced jail because Brian was slandered by his nephew and used his own methods to help Brian find his innocence.
32. The Justin who told Brian's nephew that Brian doesn't have to give me money, I'm even willing to give him money.
33. The Justin who put the shell bracelet on Brian himself.
34. The Justin who cried and told Ethan that I never forgave Brian, and I never had to forgive him because he didn't promise me anything.
35. The Justin who, after breaking up with Ethan, still thinks of Brian, went to Brian's company to get back with Brian under the pretext of an internship.
36. The Justin who was willing to seduce a murderer for Brian to get his DNA.
37. The Justin who tried to give Brian money when Brian lost his job and was in financial crisis, but was rejected.
38. The Justin who saw that Brian was in debt and invited his friends to dinner, thinking of Brian.
39. The Justin who refused to have sex with Brian for the first time after he had cancer. In order to make Brian happy, he found two men for Brian.
40. The Justin who mischievously asked Brian to prove to him after Brian said he missed him.
41. The Justin who was worried about Brian when he learned that he had cancer, but didn't tell Brian.
42. The Justin who recommended Brian to the Hollywood director for the role of "Rage."
43. The Justin who knew that Brian was weak after surgery and needed to rest, and used his food poisoning as an excuse to trick Brian to go home and rest in Babylon.
44. That Justin who came home and cried on top of a weak Brian.
45. After Brian, who had cancer, was kicked out of the house, he still went to Brian's company to wait for Brian's Justin.
46. The Justin who told Brian that if you wanted me to leave you, I had a whole bunch of better reasons.
47. The one who went to the Chinese pharmacy in Chinatown with Michael to buy medicine for Brian, boldly told the shop owner that it was Justin who bought medicine for his boyfriend.
48. The Justin who cooks, decocts and cooks chicken soup for Brian himself.
49. Justin who just came back from New York and stood in the snow with Debbie for hours waiting for Brian to return from the ride.
50. The Justin who asked Brian when you can stop having sex with everyone, got the answer no, and wrote "Never" in the comics.
51. The Justin who looked enviously at Michael and Ben's happy life and wanted to settle down with Brian to live that life.
52. The Justin who said to Brian that I thought we would end up as a real couple, like Michael and Ben.
53. The desperate Justin who said to Brian why we should be together like this since he knew there was no outcome.
54. The Justin who finally waited until Brian said I love you after the Babylon explosion.
55. The Justin who is more happy than sad around Brian, has learned a lot, and is Brian's shadow.
56. That madly in love with Brian who didn't believe in love at first, and Justin who finally wanted Brian not to lose himself for him after Brian believed in love.
57. The Justin who told Linz that New York wasn't his once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, Brian was.
58. That Justin who had already agreed to Brian's marriage proposal, but knew that he only wanted to love Brian, and he didn't necessarily need that marriage certificate, just let him go.
59. The Justin who appeared in Brian's life the same day as Brian's son Gus and left the same day.
60. The Justin who had sex with Brian for the last time in silent tears.
It never ends, Justin is the tired bird, Brian is the nest, he knows he will always wait for his return, he knows he has always loved him in his own way.
S301, Brian made the male prostitute he paid $300 to turn his back to him, he touched the male prostitute's blond hair, and imagined the male prostitute as Justin, my heart really hurts, it hurts for Brian.
S513, Justin made love to Brian silently with tears in his eyes, it really hurts for Justin, it hurts.
If their first sexual behavior is a physiological need, then the subsequent sexual behavior is sex, and they want each other because of love.
Sometimes I really don't understand Brian, maybe no one can understand him, there is a Justin who loves him so much, and he loves him very much, why does he go out for promiscuity, Justin's love is great, he has always been tolerant of Brian's Promiscuity, this is how deep love is, to tolerate the promiscuity of the person you love outside, promiscuity in front of your own eyes, maybe it's just like what Justin said, as long as he can be with Brian, he doesn't want anything else, Justin He just wanted an ordinary and stable life, a life with Brian, a life like Michael and Ben, but Brian couldn't give it to him.
Thankfully, I read the script for seasons six and seven, and I'm looking forward to it. Been looking forward to it. Waiting for the return of the comrade and mortal TV series for six or seven seasons. Waiting for Brian and Justin to return.
I don't know what words to use to describe their love. I don't think there are any words in this world that can match their love. I don't know what words to use to express my feelings, but I can only say that I've really fallen into this drama completely. It's estimated that it will take a long, long time to get out.
If my last name is Brian, my child's name must be Justin Brian, if my last name is Justin, my child's name must be Brian Justin, and if my last name is neither, my child's name must be Brian Justin.
Thanks to comrades and mortals, I have met two excellent actors, Gale Harold (Uncle B) and Randy Harrison (J Bao).
The end
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