Life is a cloud of confusion

Green 2021-12-01 08:01:26

Adele in the sea wrapped herself in blue. I think this is a metaphor for her state of life. Blue is warm and safe, and the floating state is confused and unknown, floating above life and waiting slowly, as if waiting for the moment when the answer appears, but I don't know what the answer is.
The reason why "Adele's Life" has attracted the most attention is its gay content, but it is not a gay-themed movie, and it does not focus on the social taboos (only a small fragment) and self-identification that gay movies often have. issue.
The fundamental reason for the breakup of Adele and Emma did not lie in class differences. Although Emma’s family and circle of friends are all Kochi artists, Adele’s family members are more livelihood citizens, but the growth environment is not necessarily different. Individuals are the root cause of differences in cognitive levels. Adele is full of instinct, eats instinctively, loves instinctively, a large number of close-ups highlight her very life-like details, even close as if happening right next to the audience. Food and color are also good, so Adele who "eats food" is naturally full of desires. Adele had a spring dream when she first saw Emma. In order to be sure of herself, she took the initiative to go to bed with the male classmate who was chasing her, and then turned her into cannon fodder. The encounter at the les bar, Adele wandered through the dark cave in surprise, surrounded by weird lesbians (she seemed a little scared and felt that she shouldn’t be like them), only Emma’s blue hair brought comfort and Security (Emma is what she wants—perhaps what a lesbian should be). Emma naturally noticed Adele, who was wandering downstairs. Adele's appearance may be full of lovely, natural wildness in the eyes of artistically exquisite Emma, ​​and it also deeply aroused her artistic inspiration. You can see that Emma was very interested in Adele at first. In the bar, it was Adele who Emma struck up first, then came to the school to find her, took the initiative to date and gave her a portrait (she said she didn't paint often).
The film tells the difference between them in many details. When they first met in a bar, the two discussed art. Emma was right. Adele only knew Picasso (and it seemed only the name). Adele actually doesn't know what he likes best. Like reading is just about the teacher (and I don’t like to over-analyze the text). I don’t really like who I like when I like movies. Scorsese Kubrick may be okay. Adele's state is always at a loss and ignorance, which is the opposite of Emma, ​​who is quite clear about himself. When dating in the park, Emma casually quoted Sartre. Adele said embarrassingly that he didn't understand, and asked Emma if he knew his play "Dirty Hands"? Emma frowned and said that she loved it so much, and then she talked about "Existentialism is a Humanitarian" and recommended Adele to read. Adele only fiddled with her hair boringly and said it was like a chicken or a chicken to me. Like the egg, Sartre might be the same as Bob Marley (Emma passed by with a trace of embarrassment). The picnic in the park also highlights the differences between the two. Adele eats everything except seafood, and even eats again when he is full. Emma's family loves it very much. When she arrived at Emma's house, Emma also taught Adele to eat oysters. It seems that Adele is also interested (I always think of the metaphor of oysters in TTV).
The differences became more obvious after the two cohabited and worked. Adele can't integrate into Emma's circle of friends at all, and he doesn't care about Emma's art, and even forgets that Emma has told her artists that they can only play the role of housekeeper and become more and more lonely. Emma persuaded her to write, and Adele said that she only wrote a diary and did not want to expose herself. Emma said that she could create if she didn't want to be exposed, and Adele said that Emma is enough. Emma encountered difficulties in her career, but Adele couldn't comfort her and could only say "My colleagues and I often quarreled". Adele wants to have sex, and Emma boringly says that she is inconvenient (mostly lying). In the closest moments in bed, there is no topic in common, which shows the great psychological distance between the two. Emma is busy at work and neglects Adele (but what can Adele say to her), but the person next to her can't comfort and support herself. Such loneliness must be even more intense for Emma. Adele derailed because of loneliness, and Emma was furious and drove her out of the house. I even think that this moment comes too late, and it is a miracle that the two can last so long.
Three years later, Adele was invited to visit Emma's painting exhibition. This should be Emma's most successful moment, but I saw that Adele was still at a loss three years ago. He didn't really care about Emma's art and walked boringly. , Unable to join other people's conversations (Lise dealt with the guests like a hostess), only found himself in the painting under Lise's guidance. Thinking of Emma's paintings all over her when the two were together, I couldn't help but feel that if Adele could understand these paintings, how much Emma would have been known. Emma said Adele was funny three times before and after, the first time was a park date, and the second time was a picnic. Adele said she would eat everything, Emma couldn't help laughing and saying funny. The third time was the reunion in the cafe after the breakup. Adele fumbled and then excused that it was a botched joke, and Emma said it was funny as if to relieve the embarrassment. The first two times may have been because Emma thought Adele was very interesting, but the third time I regretted that Adele was still the same after all. I don’t know if Emma was so sorry.
At the reunion in the cafe, Emma talked about her life, having a partner, a child, and a family. Adele asked her about sex, Emma said lonely, "It's better to be with you". Adele works smoothly but emotionally blank, always longing for Emma. Adele swallowed Emma's fingers (full of desire as if swallowing pasta), and then kissed violently. The instinctive memory of the body came back, and both of them were a little bit ungrateful. But Emma stopped, a little unbearable but insisted that she had a partner, but she would always leave her endless tenderness. The smile when Emma left was too cruel, or the meaningful smile when she first met, as if nothing had happened, but it was over. Adele is Emma's muse, but only a muse, a painting-like existence. Adele can't see clearly and has illusions, but Emma has seen too clearly (and hurt too deeply), the memory of the body can only be memory, no matter how beautiful or heaven, it can only stay in a slightly regrettable position , Because if you are satisfied, you have to pay too much.
The film is gay content but not gay subject matter, because it goes deeper and further away from the usual narrative angle of gays. When gay love is no longer taboo due to social repression or self-contradiction, what will human fragility turn love into? We still love each other but cannot be together, just because we are too fragile, we are always lonely, we are always eager to talk, and we need to understand. People have to face a lot of trivial pressures in life. Finding a partner who can support and understand each other is probably more important than a bed partner who can bring a violent orgasm. Emma's new life is not perfect, but it is already the most balanced. Being able to face life together is more precious. Sex can't defeat fragility, but can exacerbate loneliness.
Emma gave Adele many opportunities to walk into her own life. The two talked and drew, visited the museum and participated in the gay parade. As long as Adele is a little curious, she should look at what Emma likes to understand Emma's heart. , And close the distance between each other. On a park date, Adele said casually, "You can help me in philosophy", and Emma said "Anytime you want" (perhaps she thought Adele was interested). But Adele only used this reason as a cover to cover up Emma's identity in front of his family, and did not really intend to do it. The two marched on the street. Emma showed her clear political demands and enjoyed the feeling of gay pride. Adele just followed in a daze, feeling irrelevant to her (compared to the previous parade with her classmates, Adele Try her best to shout slogans with the flow of people, but this is not how much she cares about the issue, but that she finds it very interesting). After the two had sex in the night at Adele's house, Adele asked Emma to give herself a score. Emma said 14 points because she could do better. The difference between the two is very obvious at the beginning, it seems that the end of the breakup is doomed, but this is not due to Adele's class, but because she is always trapped in instinct, she is not curious, can't learn, and she doesn't know anything. The reason. I love Emma, ​​but it's more of a fit of sex, and I haven't been able to achieve unity of heart. There is a small detail. Emma wore a blue shirt when she was with Adele (it should be a metaphor for Emma's acceptance of Adele), and it turned red at the end of the exhibition. Emma is a blue that is close to infinite warmth to Adele. She instinctively grasps that she loves her but can't understand her, so this blue will change after all.
Self-identification of sexual orientation is only a small aspect. In this film, Emma is determined and determined very early, so this is not a problem. Adele's approval is shown in the film with a short period of bullying by classmates. Faced with the humiliation of her classmates, Adele denies that she is a comrade. This is not entirely fear, but she is still in confusion. But this confusion is not important when facing Emma, ​​because Emma's feelings are enough to replace everything. So in a way, Emma's perfection made Adele lose the opportunity to learn. Emma has done everything for Adele. With harmonious sex and harmonious feelings, what contradictory identification is still needed? The movie does not show how Adele’s parents view her relationship, but I think even if her parents drive Adele out of the house like in the comics, Emma takes her in, so in Emma’s relationship, it’s like nothing. Like the warm blue everywhere, Adele felt satisfied and did not expect more.
Everyone must learn to identify with each of their social identities, confirm their role in identification, and find their own position. Adele is always swinging and can't really complete it. As Emma’s partner, she didn’t take the initiative to learn to approach her life art circle of friends. Although Emma patiently taught her, her friends were very friendly to her and actively invited her to join the chat at the reception, but Adele was still embarrassed in an embarrassed manner. She laughed, and even forgot the name Emma taught her. Only when the Arab man praised Adele's cooking skills (which she is familiar with), Adele grabbed the straw.
From this perspective, Adele did not have too much trouble with sexual orientation, but until the end he did not really learn to identify with his role: a partner and a same-sex partner (she left a false address for a male colleague for fear of colleague gossip). She is a perfect bed partner, but it is not enough. Speaking of sex scenes, the first two of the three sex scenes were very violent. I even wondered whether the director would use such exaggerated sex scenes to express that Adele and Emma can only be sexually compatible. Therefore, the more violent sex scenes, the more desperate they are, as if Efforts must be made to bridge the growing gap.
What's interesting is that Adele is a good teacher with clear career planning goals and small achievements. I think Adele chooses to teach children because she feels that she has some similarities with her children. The classroom is a place she can control. I believe it will bring her safety, so she intentionally or unconsciously transferred this emotion to her male colleague, and went to her male colleague to find comfort when Emma neglected her. Adele's professional identity is clear and solid. She is mature and stable, hiding her emotional hurt under her work. This Adele seemed to wander beyond the main line to become some kind of clone. I think the director’s intention may be that Adele is not purely naive. She just cannot fully understand and identify with her role when she is with Emma. At this point, she is always contradictory and confused. She may be like I agree with this Adele as I am a teacher.
So this is a pity. Adele did not take the initiative to integrate into Emma's life, but Emma also ignored Adele's way of feeling (maybe Adele is not good at expressing, and is more inclined to talk with food). It's just that the film is not expanded in detail. Did Emma lead Adele to accept herself (as a comrade, as a partner)? Emma gave Adele a chance to enter her life, but she lacked the method to guide her, and instead blindly let Adele accept it according to her own ideas, which made Adele more confused and flinched. Faced with something unfamiliar, Adele chose to return to the warm blue, so the differences between the two became more apparent. Emma felt that Adele was not proactive enough to understand herself, and Adele felt that Emma's life had too many unknown fears, so she did not dare to enter. Both of them lack real communication and understanding. Adele's way to relieve loneliness is to return to familiar instincts, because she needs to use her body to comfort herself, including eating and having sex. It's not wrong but it's naive, but the audience can't seem to blame too much. Perhaps it was instinct that drove her to temporarily forget her sanity, and she lied to cover up the fact of derailment out of fear. But how can Emma, ​​who is already under great pressure, tolerate betrayal by her lover and lie? When arguing with Adele, she said, "Do you think you are the only one who suffers?" When everything is chaotic, Adele's betrayal is the last straw.
In this love event, except for the violent penetration of the body, Adele has never really entered Emma. At the end, Emma embraces her current partner, and the blue Adele walks into the unknown distance. I don’t feel much regret, because I think Adele has had so many opportunities to consolidate love, but ignores their existence and turns love. Step by step to an irreversible ending. The director gave an open answer, but the audience likes to imagine the story afterwards. Adele still hasn't made it clear in the end, so the future relationship may still be at a loss for a while (wandering between men and women), but another mature Adele will always grow up, so Adele can become her possible The best look.

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Blue Is the Warmest Colour quotes

  • Adèle: I miss you. I miss not touching each other. Not seeing each other, not breathing in each other. I want you. All the time. No one else.

  • Adèle: I am happy. I'm happy with you, like this. It's my way of being happy.